DCs_dreamer
Bluelighter
I can't fight it any longer.
It is just too hard.
The only thing that would make sense is to continue living they way we did.
Stopping the only thing that mattered in a long time.
A lifetime.
The only thing that you thought you could rely on always.
Drugs. Alcohol. Other people. Fun.
Not yourself.
I never smile when I am alone.
Crazy life. Never home. Always wanting to be out with others.
How does it come to an end that is acceptable?
How do you live with yourself when you don't like you?
People say it is hard to give up drugs, alcohol, the 'fast life'
Who are these people?
Are they recovered addicts?
Those who once lived the way you did.
If they are then they must know it is not hard...
But impossible.
No one around to help,
Feel the same,
Understand.
Where do I go from here?
Always thinking I was the one with the answers.
Now I don't even know the questions.
It is just too hard.
I can't fight it any longer.
It is just too hard.
The only thing that would make sense is to continue living they way we did.
Stopping the only thing that mattered in a long time.
A lifetime.
The only thing that you thought you could rely on always.
Drugs. Alcohol. Other people. Fun.
Not yourself.
I never smile when I am alone.
Crazy life. Never home. Always wanting to be out with others.
How does it come to an end that is acceptable?
How do you live with yourself when you don't like you?
People say it is hard to give up drugs, alcohol, the 'fast life'
Who are these people?
Are they recovered addicts?
Those who once lived the way you did.
If they are then they must know it is not hard...
But impossible.
No one around to help,
Feel the same,
Understand.
Where do I go from here?
Always thinking I was the one with the answers.
Now I don't even know the questions.
It is just too hard.
I can't fight it any longer.
