So much of you all know I have a girlfriend. Well things wasn't so bad at first, we both had time where we could spend almost all day everyday together.. Now things have changed, I just recently started work at a new job, and I'm working evenings. from 4pm-close(which is around midnight), and my girlfriend is working day shifts, like 9am-5pm.
Since started this job we havnt been able to spend much time with each other, and its like we are geting further distant apart..
I have feelings for this girl, we've already had sex a few times, and it's not like I don't care for her, which I really do care for her. I hope she feels the same way about me.
I'm not the kind of guy that's violent or abusive, I concider myself sweet, kind hearted, and gentle. I don't come off as the kind of guy that has anger problems.
So starting this job.. we havn't seen much of each other, last time I saw her was 3 days ago when we both spent some time together, like not even a few hours.. we did make love, and that was it.
What i'm getting at is this emotion i'm going through atm, its hard to explain.. the text messages and phone calls are getting shorter and shorter, and later and later in the night because of work.
The feeling i'm going through is almost a void feeling.. i feel alone, and heart broken. I still think we are still girlfriend and boyfriend, she hasn't said or done anything yet. It's almost like i'm hurt, love struck, but then it's going sour.
Since I don't do drugs anymore this shit is really pressuring me, I don't want to use or anything, I know for a fact if I use over this then I'll overdose. I tend to always do more, espically when i'm going through this kind of shit.
I just hope and pray that she doesn't break my heart. Should I get ready and prepared for the end of the relationship? I've never gone through one of these sober, I don't want to do something that I regret.
I really hope it doesn't go that way, I don't know what will happen.. It's like you tell a girl/guy you love them, and mean it, and have all of those strong emotions there that make u reallyy happy. but when it all the suddon ends abrutly ur left with that ache and pain, where i'd trade physical pain for that kind of shit anyday of the week.
I don't know.. I want to be with her, I really do! I love the girl, like love her with my heart. I don't think i've shown any signs of coming on to hard, or being to big of a pussy or less of a man. i'm not controlling nor am I always pestering her, I worry when I don't hear from her.. mostly because we are both in the program, and both have drug problems, so when i dont hear from her i always think of the worse..
hope things go alright. :/
god please give me a sign, if shes the right one for me in my life. show me how to become a better man, not only in her life but in my life. teach me how to become that special someone in her life.
-drew
Since started this job we havnt been able to spend much time with each other, and its like we are geting further distant apart..
I have feelings for this girl, we've already had sex a few times, and it's not like I don't care for her, which I really do care for her. I hope she feels the same way about me.
I'm not the kind of guy that's violent or abusive, I concider myself sweet, kind hearted, and gentle. I don't come off as the kind of guy that has anger problems.
So starting this job.. we havn't seen much of each other, last time I saw her was 3 days ago when we both spent some time together, like not even a few hours.. we did make love, and that was it.
What i'm getting at is this emotion i'm going through atm, its hard to explain.. the text messages and phone calls are getting shorter and shorter, and later and later in the night because of work.
The feeling i'm going through is almost a void feeling.. i feel alone, and heart broken. I still think we are still girlfriend and boyfriend, she hasn't said or done anything yet. It's almost like i'm hurt, love struck, but then it's going sour.
Since I don't do drugs anymore this shit is really pressuring me, I don't want to use or anything, I know for a fact if I use over this then I'll overdose. I tend to always do more, espically when i'm going through this kind of shit.
I just hope and pray that she doesn't break my heart. Should I get ready and prepared for the end of the relationship? I've never gone through one of these sober, I don't want to do something that I regret.
I really hope it doesn't go that way, I don't know what will happen.. It's like you tell a girl/guy you love them, and mean it, and have all of those strong emotions there that make u reallyy happy. but when it all the suddon ends abrutly ur left with that ache and pain, where i'd trade physical pain for that kind of shit anyday of the week.
I don't know.. I want to be with her, I really do! I love the girl, like love her with my heart. I don't think i've shown any signs of coming on to hard, or being to big of a pussy or less of a man. i'm not controlling nor am I always pestering her, I worry when I don't hear from her.. mostly because we are both in the program, and both have drug problems, so when i dont hear from her i always think of the worse..
hope things go alright. :/
god please give me a sign, if shes the right one for me in my life. show me how to become a better man, not only in her life but in my life. teach me how to become that special someone in her life.
-drew
