Although only day 1 of my journey, it has been in the making for some time. I have recognized for awhile that I had an issue with opiates. What started as a legitimate prescription in 2013 for 10/325 hydrocodone, quickly escalated and became purely recreational after 2 months. I thought because I only allowed myself 6-10 a day, I was controlling it. Ha! What a damn lie.
I decided in February this year to quit, CTd and was cool for about 2 weeks. Then had the opportunity again and dove right in, headfirst. Spending a ridiculous amount of money. It consumed me these last few months. I was handed 2 different bottles of opiates on the same day- much stronger than the hydros. I substituted when I ran out of hydros and ran my tolerance through the roof. I guess I kind of gave up when I got 60 hydros and they were gone in 5 days. Like wtf? I realized I wouldn't stop. I just knew.
So, I decided to taper down to just 1 a day for a week and then be done. I've taken the very basic dose- 2 tablets of loperamide, to help with withdrawals, and have found it to be extremely effective. My system is pretty sensitive to all other drugs, go figure, and I am glad that only 4-6 mgs has helped. I read "The Loperamide Diaries" as my day has progressed, and that was very interesting indeed.
Physically, I am a bit lethargic, but ran around this morning no prob. I've not eaten really but a handful of Chex mix, even though I've been puffing my vape pen since I woke up. I'll probably get hungry later, but just keeping it pretty basic as far as food goes. Emotionally, I'm doing ok. I was a little teary this morning, some memories hit me like a ton of bricks, but otherwise, pretty good!
My plan is to keep burning my herb, take the loperamide until Monday or Tuesday and hope for the best. Nervous for the emotional aspect of this first few months...I've been medicated for the past few years. WDs are a roadblock-temporary and inconvenient. I look forward to what I learn about myself on this new journey
I decided in February this year to quit, CTd and was cool for about 2 weeks. Then had the opportunity again and dove right in, headfirst. Spending a ridiculous amount of money. It consumed me these last few months. I was handed 2 different bottles of opiates on the same day- much stronger than the hydros. I substituted when I ran out of hydros and ran my tolerance through the roof. I guess I kind of gave up when I got 60 hydros and they were gone in 5 days. Like wtf? I realized I wouldn't stop. I just knew.
So, I decided to taper down to just 1 a day for a week and then be done. I've taken the very basic dose- 2 tablets of loperamide, to help with withdrawals, and have found it to be extremely effective. My system is pretty sensitive to all other drugs, go figure, and I am glad that only 4-6 mgs has helped. I read "The Loperamide Diaries" as my day has progressed, and that was very interesting indeed.
Physically, I am a bit lethargic, but ran around this morning no prob. I've not eaten really but a handful of Chex mix, even though I've been puffing my vape pen since I woke up. I'll probably get hungry later, but just keeping it pretty basic as far as food goes. Emotionally, I'm doing ok. I was a little teary this morning, some memories hit me like a ton of bricks, but otherwise, pretty good!
My plan is to keep burning my herb, take the loperamide until Monday or Tuesday and hope for the best. Nervous for the emotional aspect of this first few months...I've been medicated for the past few years. WDs are a roadblock-temporary and inconvenient. I look forward to what I learn about myself on this new journey
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