goddamnitlauren
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- Jun 22, 2011
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hey everyone.
my husband and i are currently living in south carolina, and have been doing some kind of opiate (was oxycontin) and now we've been using heroin for about 6 months now, never sober for more than a week. we've wanted to quit but given our living situation/trying to maintain our jobs without freaking out, it's been hard. i've finally gotten to the point where i've quit my job because i can't take the yo-yo of withdrawls every couple of days. we haven't been doing it every day in a couple weeks, but still every couple of days. the withdrawl symptoms are probably only moderate... the physical part of withdrawl i can take, it's the post acute withdrawl shit that kills me.
anyway, you all have heard that part before, so i'll get on with it...
i've been calling all the doctors that specialize in suboxone treatment, and every one of them seems to want you to jump through a week and a half, $300 upfront, hoop even to get the first suboxone. i get it, i'm a junkie and you don't want to give me a script because i'll just take it and never come back. you want to "assess" my situation, make me wait a week, and then see "what our options are". this is especially difficult because since we're not using everyday (trying our best), it's really ridiculous to be subject to urine tests to prove that you actually use drugs. so let me get this right. you want me to continue to inject my dangerous street drug at random until you decide that i deserve the treatment i'm seeking?
i've also tried to contact the methadone clinic, which around here, also gives suboxone. But part of the appeal of having a script was not having to go to the other side of town everyday.
also, a side note, my insurance doesn't cover any kind of mental health whatsoever. but that's not even really the main problem. it's the 3 or 4 appointments that seem to be mandatory with every doctor before they give you what you need to get off. i understand the reasoning, but honestly i can't afford to wait that long unless i start using again.
just wanted some last minutes advice/thoughts before i go cold turkey. again.
my husband and i are currently living in south carolina, and have been doing some kind of opiate (was oxycontin) and now we've been using heroin for about 6 months now, never sober for more than a week. we've wanted to quit but given our living situation/trying to maintain our jobs without freaking out, it's been hard. i've finally gotten to the point where i've quit my job because i can't take the yo-yo of withdrawls every couple of days. we haven't been doing it every day in a couple weeks, but still every couple of days. the withdrawl symptoms are probably only moderate... the physical part of withdrawl i can take, it's the post acute withdrawl shit that kills me.
anyway, you all have heard that part before, so i'll get on with it...
i've been calling all the doctors that specialize in suboxone treatment, and every one of them seems to want you to jump through a week and a half, $300 upfront, hoop even to get the first suboxone. i get it, i'm a junkie and you don't want to give me a script because i'll just take it and never come back. you want to "assess" my situation, make me wait a week, and then see "what our options are". this is especially difficult because since we're not using everyday (trying our best), it's really ridiculous to be subject to urine tests to prove that you actually use drugs. so let me get this right. you want me to continue to inject my dangerous street drug at random until you decide that i deserve the treatment i'm seeking?
i've also tried to contact the methadone clinic, which around here, also gives suboxone. But part of the appeal of having a script was not having to go to the other side of town everyday.
also, a side note, my insurance doesn't cover any kind of mental health whatsoever. but that's not even really the main problem. it's the 3 or 4 appointments that seem to be mandatory with every doctor before they give you what you need to get off. i understand the reasoning, but honestly i can't afford to wait that long unless i start using again.
just wanted some last minutes advice/thoughts before i go cold turkey. again.