LicktheShade
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- Apr 25, 2009
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Almost a year ago I had my first overwhelmingly bad trip on 4-ho-mipt, after smoking some weed towards the end. It induced a panic attack which lead to more, and so I put myself to sleep with some benzos and melatonin. Despite waking up fine the next day I was extremely shaken but suffered no sober anxiety attacks. I'm a daily weed smoker and so when I went to a friends house to smoke weed the anxiety came back. This happened almost every time I smoked over the next few months and although logically I should have taken a break I felt that I couldn't since basically all of my friends are weed smokers and I didn't want them to think I was a pussy or whatever.
Anyway, since that bad trip I've only taken psychedelics about 3 or 4 times, each time a low dose but I can't help having anxiety before a trip for the fear of having another one. Last night I accidently took a larger amount of ketamine than intended (I'm usually fine on ketamine as I have alot of experience) and ended up having anxiety and crying and feeling very foolish. I really want to get back into psychedelics like I once was as they helped me so much with so many issues but I can't help but feel anxious sometimes and it can ruin the experience.
What I'm basically asking is how do I get over this anxiety? It seems to be related to fear of dying/having a psychotic break and although I KNOW that these drugs won't kill me and I KNOW that I'm not going to go crazy (because I would have by now, I think lol) I can't help but have these feelings.
Maybe it will just take time, it took me almost a year to be comfortable with taking drugs again so perhaps I just need to be patient until i'm ready
Anyway, since that bad trip I've only taken psychedelics about 3 or 4 times, each time a low dose but I can't help having anxiety before a trip for the fear of having another one. Last night I accidently took a larger amount of ketamine than intended (I'm usually fine on ketamine as I have alot of experience) and ended up having anxiety and crying and feeling very foolish. I really want to get back into psychedelics like I once was as they helped me so much with so many issues but I can't help but feel anxious sometimes and it can ruin the experience.
What I'm basically asking is how do I get over this anxiety? It seems to be related to fear of dying/having a psychotic break and although I KNOW that these drugs won't kill me and I KNOW that I'm not going to go crazy (because I would have by now, I think lol) I can't help but have these feelings.
Maybe it will just take time, it took me almost a year to be comfortable with taking drugs again so perhaps I just need to be patient until i'm ready
