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Does anyone have experience or advice for this? I'm SO sick of my GABA system raging like a beast. I've been an occaisonal drinker since 19, but it never was an everyday thing until I was 22 or 23. For the last 2 years, probably more likely 3, maybe even 4 (! Sure is hard to remember in this alcohol-benzo haze), I have been absolutely unable to sleep or relax without alcohol. It's absurd. Even with benzos, I need a few beers to get to sleep. The past couple years I was drinking about 8-12 beers (7 abv) every night. This last year I cut back, then switched to gin, now I drink 1.75 L of that every 4-6 days, sometimes 3. Anyways I think thats enough alcohol background, but I can be more specific if need be.
So I was addicted to benzo's from 16-18, then didn't touch them. I got a stash of Etizolam for emergencies (prone to panic attacks). Well, the girl I was living with created a mental breakdown in me daily for years, so about two years ago I started taking Etizolam when we would have really bad fights, so I could go to sleep. IT became an every day thing, and at first I took breaks and just dealt with the misery, but finally I stopped keeping track and months later realized I was habituated.
Benzo use has been atleast 6-10mg Etizolam daily, most of it at night until I pass out. I recently picked up some diclazepam for the taper, but am having technical issues getting it into solution that I won't bore you with.
Fast forward, now I've been totally addicted to benzos again for a good 2 years, and same with alcohol for 2-4 years. I seem to be developing DT's. is this even possible given that I'm only 27? I mean I certainly drink a lot, often starting a couple hours after waking. I wish Id known what I was signing up for, but it's my own fault, I know.
Sorry for the long post, but I thought background info may help. I'm really serious about wanting to cut both of these things out of my life for good. However I can't seem to cut either one back significantly. When I try to sleep with less alcohol, it doesn't happen even if I up my benzo dosage. I'll just black out and drink more unconsciously, even walk to the liqour store half asleep.
Drinking more booze just gives me insane hangovers and I wake up with rebound anxiety, either from the booze or the lack of bezos, maybe both.
It wasn't too hard kicking klonopin, but I was also tapering off bupe at the same time so I think that cushioned it, and then I just tapered the bupe until it wasnt even doing anything. But, then when I kicked bupe, I still had terrible effects and mostly numbed them with alcohol, and I think that's when I started drinking regularly again. :/
tl;dr - Does anyone have any ideas about how to taper when trying to get off of these simultaneously? I'm at my wit's end, I've tried so hard and I feel like I'm treading water, but there's got to be a way out of this pickle.
Does anyone have experience or advice for this? I'm SO sick of my GABA system raging like a beast. I've been an occaisonal drinker since 19, but it never was an everyday thing until I was 22 or 23. For the last 2 years, probably more likely 3, maybe even 4 (! Sure is hard to remember in this alcohol-benzo haze), I have been absolutely unable to sleep or relax without alcohol. It's absurd. Even with benzos, I need a few beers to get to sleep. The past couple years I was drinking about 8-12 beers (7 abv) every night. This last year I cut back, then switched to gin, now I drink 1.75 L of that every 4-6 days, sometimes 3. Anyways I think thats enough alcohol background, but I can be more specific if need be.
So I was addicted to benzo's from 16-18, then didn't touch them. I got a stash of Etizolam for emergencies (prone to panic attacks). Well, the girl I was living with created a mental breakdown in me daily for years, so about two years ago I started taking Etizolam when we would have really bad fights, so I could go to sleep. IT became an every day thing, and at first I took breaks and just dealt with the misery, but finally I stopped keeping track and months later realized I was habituated.
Benzo use has been atleast 6-10mg Etizolam daily, most of it at night until I pass out. I recently picked up some diclazepam for the taper, but am having technical issues getting it into solution that I won't bore you with.
Fast forward, now I've been totally addicted to benzos again for a good 2 years, and same with alcohol for 2-4 years. I seem to be developing DT's. is this even possible given that I'm only 27? I mean I certainly drink a lot, often starting a couple hours after waking. I wish Id known what I was signing up for, but it's my own fault, I know.
Sorry for the long post, but I thought background info may help. I'm really serious about wanting to cut both of these things out of my life for good. However I can't seem to cut either one back significantly. When I try to sleep with less alcohol, it doesn't happen even if I up my benzo dosage. I'll just black out and drink more unconsciously, even walk to the liqour store half asleep.
Drinking more booze just gives me insane hangovers and I wake up with rebound anxiety, either from the booze or the lack of bezos, maybe both.
It wasn't too hard kicking klonopin, but I was also tapering off bupe at the same time so I think that cushioned it, and then I just tapered the bupe until it wasnt even doing anything. But, then when I kicked bupe, I still had terrible effects and mostly numbed them with alcohol, and I think that's when I started drinking regularly again. :/
tl;dr - Does anyone have any ideas about how to taper when trying to get off of these simultaneously? I'm at my wit's end, I've tried so hard and I feel like I'm treading water, but there's got to be a way out of this pickle.