A gram lasted 2 weeks. I wouldn't even consider that a addiction. That's a very valuable tool that you are able. Maybe see a shrink to prescribe something for add. Maybe a stimulant unless it's erroding your marriage. I would go thru an eight today in a week. I used to smoke three eight balls a day. Maybe more. I knew the mafia and the meth was unlimited. It's a good thing to be on the good side of someone who could take you out instantly. It's also a bad thing cuz I nearly died because I wasn't drinking any fluids or eating thus I was destroying this machine that is fearfully and wonderfully made. The jail put me in segregation where I was forced to feel the Full fury of that withdrawal. It's a pain that you can't put in human terms. It was as if I was fighting to stay alive and my stubbornness and God I made it. The delusions lasted until about last year. I fully comprehend what happened but at the time I thought someone had cast a spell on me to steal my ex. It's truly can kill you.
Best not to offer medical advice to people on the forum, we are not their doctors or psychiatrists.
I shoot up meth once every month or so, and even though I can use it with astonishing restraint I wouldn't call it an net positive in my life except for being what I needed to get a couple of very emotionally charged conversations out of the way.
If the OP is wanting to quit because their meth use is causing issues (or drug use in general, OP I would also take a look at your use of weed and drinking in how it affects your relationship overall) than that should be encouraged.
Not everyone who has a paradoxical response to meth has ADHD. Many, in fact, like me, need extremely high doses to get off, and always have rather than having a small amount last a long time, so this is especially not sound advice as to why they could have ADHD.
OP, does your partner know? I find that total honesty regarding my drug use with those who render assistance with it (ie who help me with dealing with my addiction and whatnot) is paramount as to why they trust me 100% with when I say I've used drugs, and if they ask if I was high while it smarts a bit I know they know that they trust the answer they get as the truth. Because usually I just tell them.
People are more willing to help out of goodness when you haven't given them a reason to think you will perpetually keep secrets from them. It's up to you, and I don't have this policy of honesty with everyone - my mum I only just recently came clean to when I disclosed my father's abuse because I couldn't do it in the reverse order ever. If say two years prior I told her I did meth and heroin she would have wanted to know why, and the reason why was 'dad abused me' but I wasn't ready to have that conversation until late last year.
Call it self interest, sure, on my parent for this one single person in my life but historically as a teenager when I got caught doing drugs before I developed an honesty policy, neither of my parents were particularly helpful in any case and it sort of just became hyper emotionally charged and accusations got flung around at everyone as to why I was doing it with no one actually bothering to ask why...
Do you trust your partner? If the answer is yes, then I suggest trusting them to ask them for help. Because that's what you would be doing. Sure, you would have to admit to covering it up if you haven't been honest this far but but I think it would be more beneficial.
If your partner does know already, and I just missed the context (which I'll admit can happen but it didn't seem entirely clear to me past their own drug use) then by all means keep this avenue of honesty open and reap the benefits as you movie forward, in my experience.
Remember it's always easier to catch a slip, than it is a relapse. Someone who once helped me a lot told me those words. And very true.
