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getting clean - drug disposal ceremony?

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Hey everyone,
I've recently reached the point of needing to quit my beloved/be-hated amphetamines for good, meaning I'll be tossing my entire stash. Ahhhh. It's going to be so terrible/wonderful. Anyway, I kinda want to do it in a ceremonial way given how significant they became in my life. Anyone else out there ever do this? Would love to hear experiences...

Also, on a more practical note, are there any incredibly dumb ways to do this that I should avoid?
 
I did not make a ritual or ceremony of it but I poured out all of my bottles of liquor and beer I had and recycled the bottles.
 
I had a huge meth stash that I hoarded for a "lifetime supply". That's how crazy that shit made me. I actually did do a ritual/ ceremony thing out of it when I eventually got the balls to quit.

I didn't have the strength to do it myself, so I put on a bandana and felt like I had the power to do it. Basically I flushed all my meth down the toilet in a methodical way, and that was the end of it. The reason for the bandana is kind of similar to why people in the military wear masks: it lets you do things that you yourself may not be able to do yourself. Since that I quit all illicit drugs and am pretty straight laced nowadays
 
I don't have any good ideas just wanna say congrats man. 99.9% of junkies I know, myself included, "dispose" of their last dose directly into their bodies.

The fact that you have something yummy and want nothing more than to destroy it says a lot about you and your willpower, I can't imagine you not succeeding

Good luck

Edit: thought of 2 ideas. 1) buy the biggest bottle rocket or mortar you can find, strap Baggie on top, light it and watch it blow it all back to heaven. 2) pour Baggie down barrel of a locked/loaded shotgun, fire into air.
 
Congratulations on making the decision to quit, but personally I wouldn't make a big deal out of it. It would probably be best to do everything you can to move away from the addiction w/o romanticizing it at all. I'm having trouble articulating it, but there seems like there could be some ritualistic or unhealthy idealizations in doing a literal send off farewell. I'd just ditch it and begin systematically eliminating your associations to that life - one less thing to remember about it, I'd say.

But that's just my take. Leaving an addiction is a very personal matter, and there is no strictly right or wrong way of doing it (as long as you do it). Best of luck and big ups on ditching the stash!
 
Thanks all for the input and encouragement:) I completely understand the potential trouble of romanticizing it, and I have to be honest - I hadn't even thought of that. I guess I moved towards the idea of the ceremony because of how many times I've 'quit' before and would find stray pills in times of desperation and then I'd let my mind go blurry so I could take it almost unconsciously. Guh. Same has always gone for toxic relationships, habits, and on and on. This seemed like a stamp of finality almost. Something I've never successfully figured out how to do hahaha.

and xtcbiz- let's just say i can identify with the lifetime stash mentality. Fuuuck. Good riddance to this.
 
I used to have crack pipes smashing ceremonies on a regular basis, haha. Actually, it's pretty much a cliche with all the meth-heads around here, you smash your pipe when you're scattered and in a day or two you're buying a new one. I suppose IMO I was thinking having a 'ceremony' would somehow help with quitting but it didn't really. Quitting is hard as fuck, ceremony or not. The time I was finally succesful in quitting I gave away my crackies to a friend, because after using those things multiple times a day they were like old friends and I couldn't bear smashing them. Dumping your drugs and getting rid of your drugs is a good idea - probably essential to staying off them. My experience has just been that having a ceremony was an attempt at securing motivation to quit when it was lacking. IME you're going to make it or you're not, and the ceremony doesn't make a difference. If it's significant to you though, go for it. I had a thing where I had to quit on a 'succesful' date (it ended up being 11.1.11) and that's no different than a ceremony in terms of ascribing significance to the act. If it'll help, do it..Good luck.
 
Please don't dispose of drugs in an unsafe fashion (don't flush them). If you really want to get rid of drugs in a safe way, mix some concrete and put the drugs into the concrete. Leave the block you make around other blocks, forget which one, problem solved.
 
Congratulations on deciding to get clean!

I recommend just quietly disposing of them rather than making a ceremony of it. If they're prescription grade amphs take then to your local pharmacy/hospital. I also like CH's idea for the cinder blocks.

It's best not to glorify and part if your drug use anymore. That will just cause more association for your use which is not a good thing. Also, please don't flush your drugs. This can cause contamination and is not good for plumbing systems.

Congrats again & good luck!
 
Captain.Heroin said:
Please don't dispose of drugs in an unsafe fashion (don't flush them). If you really want to get rid of drugs in a safe way, mix some concrete and put the drugs into the concrete. Leave the block you make around other blocks, forget which one, problem solved.
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wish i'd have heard of this before i ended up flushing all of my leftover scripts down the toilet, what with how i complain about how chemical fertilizers and prescription drugs leach into the water sheds through the farm fields and toilets anyways :|
 
motherofearth said:
Ha ha, have you ever done this, Captain?
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Hahaha, no, I can't say I have. It will work though. I think I'm more of the kind of person to give it away/use it myself than to see it "go to waste" sadly (even though it's better to let a drug go to waste than to let your mind/body go to waste!).

pastelcircus said:
wish i'd have heard of this before i ended up flushing all of my leftover scripts down the toilet, what with how i complain about how chemical fertilizers and prescription drugs leach into the water sheds through the farm fields and toilets anyways :|
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It's OK, at least you know for the future.

It is common sense though, when water evaporates, it goes back into the air, only to be rained down upon us again... if you think seriously hard about all the science you've learned in school it becomes self-evident.
 
burn it all! put the drugs in a barrel, pour flamable fluid on it and light. I'd end up breaking all the concrete blocks I could find if I did that. give it to a friend as a gift for the holidays even.
 
Serotonin101 said:
burn it all! put the drugs in a barrel, pour flamable fluid on it and light. I'd end up breaking all the concrete blocks I could find if I did that. give it to a friend as a gift for the holidays even.
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You probably want to make sure that by burning the specific drugs you're disposing that you won't cause any horrible odors/fumes that could be toxic or just stink like holy hell... but yeah as long as there's no danger from burning to destroy it, and it won't vaporize and lead to an accidental overdose, you could do that too.

Gotta apply harm reduction when disposing of drugs IMO. :)

I also wanted to say that I have a lot of respect for anyone who would willingly discard drugs to get clean, you all have an amazing amount of will power and it serves as an example for others to live up to.
 
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