Things are good right now. I haven't written in my blog in a while so I thought I'd just type a little about how I'm dealing with things MUCH more positively than I previously have.
The girl I'm seeing and who I care for a GREAT deal (yes I love her) has gone out tonight with her most recent ex-boyfriend.
Let me explain...
I've never met him but he is apparently a good guy, perhaps a little cocky, but a decent sort nonetheless. His brother died recently and this would be a painful experience for anyone. They both went out to dinner and whatnot this evening and I'm NOT freaking out.
'M', the woman I dig, is a kind hearted, compassionate person so she is simply being there for him to get him out of the house and to cheer him up.
In the past I would be absolutely NUTS in my head right now but I trust her. She has always been honest with me even when that honesty was painful.
I will admit that I AM a bit worried but I'm not dwelling on it. I had the opportunity to see her prior to their outing but I had a TON to do so wasn't able to. I think this would have been more easing to me. We talked on the phone and I believe this is just a friendship thing that they are doing tonight.
I do have to say that I DON'T trust him, his intentions, manipulations and general motives. She is a strong, intelligent woman and knows him well enough to see through his potential manipulations. He claims to love her (shit, who wouldn't?).
I'm happy that I am becoming more secure in myself. I'm glad that I'm not freaking out. I am grateful that I'm on my medication.
I think I'm starting to grow up. I think I may be becoming a man. Who woulda thunk?
The girl I'm seeing and who I care for a GREAT deal (yes I love her) has gone out tonight with her most recent ex-boyfriend.
Let me explain...
I've never met him but he is apparently a good guy, perhaps a little cocky, but a decent sort nonetheless. His brother died recently and this would be a painful experience for anyone. They both went out to dinner and whatnot this evening and I'm NOT freaking out.
'M', the woman I dig, is a kind hearted, compassionate person so she is simply being there for him to get him out of the house and to cheer him up.
In the past I would be absolutely NUTS in my head right now but I trust her. She has always been honest with me even when that honesty was painful.
I will admit that I AM a bit worried but I'm not dwelling on it. I had the opportunity to see her prior to their outing but I had a TON to do so wasn't able to. I think this would have been more easing to me. We talked on the phone and I believe this is just a friendship thing that they are doing tonight.
I do have to say that I DON'T trust him, his intentions, manipulations and general motives. She is a strong, intelligent woman and knows him well enough to see through his potential manipulations. He claims to love her (shit, who wouldn't?).
I'm happy that I am becoming more secure in myself. I'm glad that I'm not freaking out. I am grateful that I'm on my medication.
I think I'm starting to grow up. I think I may be becoming a man. Who woulda thunk?