Ive been thinking about the future, and for most that is a rather a normal thing to do or so Ive been told. What a depressing thing to do I was only supposed to live only for the moment right, no thought about what effect only that an effect was attained. Never giving thought to how we would deal with consequences the "aftermath" that had become my life I would call it more like a nuclear meltdown. In restrospect this cataclyism was easy to see but at the time it was blindsiding.
Know im sitting hear after a mediocre acedemic semester about to go back home and try to get some direction I cant stand being this unhappy. Its been such a shitty crazy sememster.Home is fucking warzone between me and my parents over drugs itll take a goddamn miracle if I make it back to school without them refusing to pay for it.
I have pretty much fallen out with all my friends over stupid shit well. I think its stupid I mean I would never stop being friends with someone over thier drug use. Its not like im ever falling all over myself or ODing around them. I do know who my true friends are though.
It has gotten to the point where drugs have negativly impacted my life but have not totally destroyed it yet I know I should stop but I honestly would rather be high then sober if that makes me a bad human being then well shit.
BTW blogs times you out way too fast I almost lost that when I went to post>
Know im sitting hear after a mediocre acedemic semester about to go back home and try to get some direction I cant stand being this unhappy. Its been such a shitty crazy sememster.Home is fucking warzone between me and my parents over drugs itll take a goddamn miracle if I make it back to school without them refusing to pay for it.
I have pretty much fallen out with all my friends over stupid shit well. I think its stupid I mean I would never stop being friends with someone over thier drug use. Its not like im ever falling all over myself or ODing around them. I do know who my true friends are though.
It has gotten to the point where drugs have negativly impacted my life but have not totally destroyed it yet I know I should stop but I honestly would rather be high then sober if that makes me a bad human being then well shit.
BTW blogs times you out way too fast I almost lost that when I went to post>