Mr. Krinkle
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Honeymoon. It'll be the exact opposite pretty soon with that dosage for certain
But look - he quit drinking just like the other person i was talking about
Honeymoon. It'll be the exact opposite pretty soon with that dosage for certain
Depends, how much meth are we talking about? And for how long?I just want to know if anybody knows what kind of damage cm can do if you put it up your nose on a regular basis? Damage to your nose, that is. Or maybe even stomach from draining down.
I don't really have this problem because I am estranged from my family, and I have like maybe 3 friends. I have zero guilt for using. I like to get high. I'm not hurting anyone but myself, and I function fine, so there isn't anything to feel guilty about. Maybe that helps me, maybe not.There are some meth users who are functional, more than people realize I think. But probably not many who CRAVE it in the daily rift down to the physical body needing it. Merh has a profile of long term effects which are bound to be negative regardless of how many / how severe yours are. That's going to be individual to you, and aside from the physical and mental exertion of the meth use itself - there are your Circumstances.
You don't know what kind of trap you're going to fall into, progress lost, or positive points of life you're excluded from due tongue meth use. People talk too. You give off signs when you use drugs on the regular that people will notice sooner or later.
The more engaged you are in using this drug (the same way as if you were to start seeing a new partner on the down low) the more time you spend away from what's regular to the people you need to think you're on regular. The more people will notice that missing something, and are more people you're into using with with, including yourself in actuality. You have to be really slick, without a guilty conscience to your drug use, and able to focus on everything else while your doing it to pull this off.
People do notice. The stigma is the most likely first culprit in your downfall I’d predict. Then the psychological aspects will intensify. Then the rest.
How do you and your doctors disentangle your autism dysfunctionality from your meth-induced dysfunctionality?When I was using heavily in 2016-2017 I was not functional by any means necessary at certain points of my use. Like my binging would go through the roof, I was driving under the influence (something I refuse to do now), turning up to university high, using throughout the day at uni during classes, using before or during any social engagement. It was messy.
I've been using meth for the past 5 months in a functional way. I use once a week or fortnight and almost always on the exact same day with some minor variations.
My tolerance has creeped up though, so I'm restricting my use from this Friday onwards as I move into my new apartment and my rent increases substantially and I always pay my bills before I spend money on drugs. So I also won't be able to afford my current level of use with my new budget.
I definitely consider myself functional at this stage. I socialise, exercise, pay my bills, meet my obligations, never miss work, never turn up to work high, and the only way it even effects me is financially.
Me in 2017? Not functional at all. Getting retrospective withdrawal no fails from uni courses, dropping to a 75% course load, falling grades. Even my friendships at the moment aren't suffering even though they all know I'm using.
I shoot up, but limiting my use is what enables me to stay functional. That, and the memory of what it used to be like and the barriers I have in place which prevent me from falling back into that level of use.
How do you and your doctors disentangle your autism dysfunctionality from your meth-induced dysfunctionality?