Fucking Time to Try Again

[Lawrence Arms]

Hey guys, haven't posted in a looong time, but I need some help. I wasn't sure if this should go in the other drugs forum or this one, so feel free to move it mods. So, back story, I just turned 27, have been drinking every day for probably 9 years, with a few jail sentences and halfway house stints in between and such. While I realize that this is a pretty bad problem for me, my main mission right now is to quit my morphine addiction. This one has been going on every day for I'm guessing 5 years or so, with no breaks. I usually take anywhere from 30mgs, to 180mgs per day, and I weigh about 155 lbs.

I really want to quit both at some time, but the morphine is having so many more bad impacts on my life right now, that I feel like i need to get this one done first. This will be probably the fourth or fifth attempt, with my best one being 30 days, and then relapsing directly into everyday again...and it sucks. I've never been depressed in my life until this, but around my 7th day sober or so, that's when it kicks in, and it's unbearable, and that's usually where I give up.

My question here, is what do you guys who have done it feel is a better way to quit? Cold turkey, or weening? I'm not considering any methadone or any other method like that. I'm 24 hrs sober as of writing this, and have eight more 30 mgs, and can get some more 100mg time release that I can cut into quarters, so it's even less at a time, but longer lasting. Any opinions on any of those three methods? Or maybe a way that worked better for you? I've got a great support team in my girlfriend, so really just getting through the withdrawal is the part that is the worst for me. Once that part is over with, pretty sure I got this. Thanks for reading, and any help or advice whatsoever..other than the drinking with the morphine issue. I know..I know.

btw-I only take orally. Ha, and one time rectally to give it a shot!

 

[David Wooderson]

I would seriously consider trying to find treatment. You could kill two giant birds with one stone and it would be much easier on your yourself. If you can get in than it would be really worth it in the long run, even if you just use it to detox. That was the only way for me to stop, in my previous attempts on my own I would relapse. The only good amount of time I had before treatment was cold turkey and that only lasted a few months.

Is your morphine prescribed? If so once you're in treatment cancel the prescription and rat yourself out to your doctor, loose the phone numbers to the people you know who use opiates.

If you're cutting time release pills than you are decreasing the effectiveness of the time release.

Best of luck man, hopefully you have what it takes and can kick the beast's ass.

 

[herbavore]

^I have to agree that it would be best to dive in and tackle both the drinking and the morphine at the same time. My thinking is that you won't really be able to go to the level of healing you need to get to for anything to last so you'll just go through the hell of detox and WDs for very little gain. I would also imagine that drinking could mean easier slip ups with the morphine. I know this probably sounds scary as hell to contemplate but look at it this way: would you rather go through this once or just keep repeating having to suffer it in cycles. I wish you the best no matter what you decide.