actually its not that bad, i just wanted to use some alliteration, lol.
but yea...the other day a good friend of mine (my best friend - my fucking brother from another mother, as cliche as that is) added me on facebook. only thing is, i haven't spoken to him in like 3 years. i really don't wanna fuck my head up talking to him again, cuz we both get really attached. like, he's the type of dude that if you're the one he's chilling with (he tends to take turns chilling with different people), he's chilling with you pretty much 24/7. now, like i said, i haven't spoken to him in probably 3 years, so who knows, maybe he's changed. and i don't even live near him (like 6 hours in the car), but even just getting back on the phone with him scares me. i have a real hard time with long distance relationships/friendships and if i start talking to dude again on the phone constantly, shit is gonna EAT at me not being able to see him and hang out all the time. cuz thats all i'm used to with him. sophomore, junior and senior year in high school i seriously chilled with him every single day. when i had my own place in 2003 (for 6 months, until my life fell apart), he all but lived at my apartment, along with all my other friends. we were a family and we barely ever were away from each other. i've shared some of the best times of my life with dude, but i'm really afraid to get close again. and please...i'm not talkin no gay shit (not that there's anything wrong with that, lol), but i truly love my friend, my brother and its been easier the past couple years just knowing that he's alright and not being in direct contact with him. i can't avoid him, but i also can't afford to get too close again at this point in my life. i can't afford for something to happen (more than likely my fault) and have this friendship ripped away from me again. fuck it...we'll see what happens. *you're almost 26 years old, beanfiend, man the fuck up!*
but yea...the other day a good friend of mine (my best friend - my fucking brother from another mother, as cliche as that is) added me on facebook. only thing is, i haven't spoken to him in like 3 years. i really don't wanna fuck my head up talking to him again, cuz we both get really attached. like, he's the type of dude that if you're the one he's chilling with (he tends to take turns chilling with different people), he's chilling with you pretty much 24/7. now, like i said, i haven't spoken to him in probably 3 years, so who knows, maybe he's changed. and i don't even live near him (like 6 hours in the car), but even just getting back on the phone with him scares me. i have a real hard time with long distance relationships/friendships and if i start talking to dude again on the phone constantly, shit is gonna EAT at me not being able to see him and hang out all the time. cuz thats all i'm used to with him. sophomore, junior and senior year in high school i seriously chilled with him every single day. when i had my own place in 2003 (for 6 months, until my life fell apart), he all but lived at my apartment, along with all my other friends. we were a family and we barely ever were away from each other. i've shared some of the best times of my life with dude, but i'm really afraid to get close again. and please...i'm not talkin no gay shit (not that there's anything wrong with that, lol), but i truly love my friend, my brother and its been easier the past couple years just knowing that he's alright and not being in direct contact with him. i can't avoid him, but i also can't afford to get too close again at this point in my life. i can't afford for something to happen (more than likely my fault) and have this friendship ripped away from me again. fuck it...we'll see what happens. *you're almost 26 years old, beanfiend, man the fuck up!*