Monday one of my best online friends who I've known for 4yrs from various sites (not this one though) committed suicide with his girlfriend.
Tuesday Morning a close school friend died of H1N1 or complications of Phnemonia, not sure and will not know because her religion (or maybe just her family) is against desecrating the body. 2hrs earlier her baby grandson died of H1N1.
Tuesday aftrenoon my bestfriend's mom died. They're not sure if it was H1N1, her heart (she was obese), or her lung (she had lung issues).
My son's father i found out the other day has fluid build up oon his lung, which we expected to come but might mean sugery to close the loonie size hole which has a 35% mortality rate. If they just remove the fluid he'll be in the hospital for 1-2 weeks, they also have to make sure the TB isn't back. If it's surgery, probably up to 2 months.
I'm getting closer to my 20th anniversary of remission of epilepsy which scares me and excites me. My mom's came back at 50 yrs old, after 45yrs of remission, her's were always worse than mine. I am a nocturnal epileptic and more times then not I got petite-mal. Only have had 2 grand-mal seizures in my life and I was 4yrs old and was startled into it.
So I guess there is one good thing amongst this shit of this week.
I'm still depressed and fucked up a little. Such is life I guess.
My chest still aches and not cause of my bronchitis..... because the lack of comfort in my pain hurts. A comfort of a friend, of a loved one....of someone you love. Always makes the heart at ease, even if just for a little while.
Tuesday Morning a close school friend died of H1N1 or complications of Phnemonia, not sure and will not know because her religion (or maybe just her family) is against desecrating the body. 2hrs earlier her baby grandson died of H1N1.
Tuesday aftrenoon my bestfriend's mom died. They're not sure if it was H1N1, her heart (she was obese), or her lung (she had lung issues).
My son's father i found out the other day has fluid build up oon his lung, which we expected to come but might mean sugery to close the loonie size hole which has a 35% mortality rate. If they just remove the fluid he'll be in the hospital for 1-2 weeks, they also have to make sure the TB isn't back. If it's surgery, probably up to 2 months.
I'm getting closer to my 20th anniversary of remission of epilepsy which scares me and excites me. My mom's came back at 50 yrs old, after 45yrs of remission, her's were always worse than mine. I am a nocturnal epileptic and more times then not I got petite-mal. Only have had 2 grand-mal seizures in my life and I was 4yrs old and was startled into it.
So I guess there is one good thing amongst this shit of this week.
I'm still depressed and fucked up a little. Such is life I guess.
My chest still aches and not cause of my bronchitis..... because the lack of comfort in my pain hurts. A comfort of a friend, of a loved one....of someone you love. Always makes the heart at ease, even if just for a little while.