unearthlyn
Greenlighter
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- Sep 17, 2015
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I've got a friend whose always been interested in RCs and the more abstract drugs, just a infatuation with drugs to the point of wanting to do them. He knows I'm a heroin addict, and he's very supportive of me but he's starting to become more interested in opiates. He says it's not my fault that he wants to try them, but i can't help but feel guilty for it. He sees all the stress it puts me through, and I think it attracts him more. He asked me last night if I would help him make sure he does H right the first time, and i want to help him so he knows what to do safely, but i dont want to be the reason if he gets addicted. I know he's going to do it no matter what I say, I wouldve done the same thing, but if anything happens to him its gonna hurt. I care about him a lot. But then again there is a side of me that wants to get him involved, I sort of want him to get addicted because of selfish reasons. I want him to be able to relate to me. but only for my sake. I want to tell myself it's okay if he does heroin with me, but i know it's not. My mind isn't clear about it completely and I was wondering if anyone had a similar situation/ advice to give me.