Fractions of the emotions i have felt this evening...

[Cosmic Mist]

I'm walking away. That's right... crossing the road, avoiding cars, all the usual stuff... I'm running.

Running.

Running.

*

I'm in my car now, and as a do a u-turn over double white lines on a double demerit long weekend outside a police station one of the saddest songs comes on the radio and i turn it up as loud as my puny car stereo will permit.

I'm stopped at traffic lights, and a taxi has pulled up next to me. He revs his engine, and i rev mine. I'm not going to let that bastard pull out before me. I don't care if he has a penis, i am going to drive when the light turns green, and pull away from him, away from this moment... away from everything...

..but he is fast, and holds my pace, sitting tight on the speed limit. Bastard. Why are people such bastards??

As i let him pull away, the power and fury of the music return and i am overcome by emotion. Suddenly it's all too much.

*

I can't see a fucking thing. My sight is all blurry, my hands shakey. I can't control the wheel, and changing gears has become all the more complex. My face is wet with emotion i have not felt in years, and no one is here to comfort me. Not a single person.

*

I am alone. Naked infront of the computer. I cry and cry and cry. I bleed my soul for she that has left my life, again. I leak to the streets and become a mess, lying vulnerable in the middle of the road. How could she come into my life and then so cruelly leave?

*

I love you, more than words can say. We were perfect for each other but you live in your rainy city in a hazy victorian dream, far from the hussle and bussle of my lonely word. With each breath i take, i miss you. WIth each word i utter, i think of you. WIth each twisted facial expression i scream in misery and rage...

WHy is life so cruel? You're the only one i want, but i can never have you again...

 

[neverwas]

I am alone. Naked infront of the computer. I cry and cry and cry. I bleed my soul for she that has left my life, again. I leak to the streets and become a mess, lying vulnerable in the middle of the road. How could she come into my life and then so cruelly leave?

*

I love you, more than words can say. We were perfect for each other but you live in your rainy city in a hazy victorian dream, far from the hussle and bussle of my lonely word. With each breath i take, i miss you. WIth each word i utter, i think of you. WIth each twisted facial expression i scream in misery and rage...

baby this was excellent...i know what ur going through...down to your thoughts and the feelings in ur heart...sometimes letting go is the hardest thing to do...but sometimes it is for the best. cherish ur memorys angel. for they live on forever. both in ur mind and ur heart...nothing and no one can take them away from you.never forget u have friends around babe...i love you dani.you know where i am if u need me...

kel.

 

[E-girl]

i guess this is one of those things we're supposed to go through at some point in our lives to indirectly "make us stronger." i dont know how many different movies or people i've heard say somethign to the effect of "if you havent felt heartache you cant appreciate love" or "without the bitter, the sweet ain't as sweet"... and i guess that all makes sense, but the truth is... there are people out there who are 80 years old and are still sleeping next to the first person they ever fell in love with. that's SOMETHING. but the world is not programmed so that everyone will end up like that. sometimes you have to go through a lot of wrongs til you get to the right one. i learned that the hard way.

the point of my rambling, is that this is just a part of life. and sometimes when you look back a year or 2 from now, you realize that this person you "couldn't live without" has been replaced with someone who is a million times what that person was, and you would have never known it if you didn't get that opportunity to find out. and maybe that wont happen either.. maybe a year or two from now, she'll come to her senses, and the 2 of you will be all the stronger for it. if that's what you REALLY want, then i hope so.

but one thing i've learned is that it usually doesnt work the second time around, if it couldn't work the first time.

i think your writing is beautiful, by the way.

 

[Queen Beat]

Dani, this was absolutely .... God, I was going to say wonderful.

Your words are so touching, so heartfelt, so beautifully written that they made the back of my throat go tight from trying not to cry. Everytime the world crashes down around me I get in my car and drive. I smoker far too much, drink way too many v's, waste litres of petrol...and just think.

But don't lose who you are as you cry your way through the sappy love songs on the radio, don't forget that you survived without her before and you can do it again.

Take care. xx

 

[Backo]

I can only reiterate what others have said before me... This piece touched me... im sorry that u are so sad . I wish i could say more but word is not my strongest attribute.

 

[Vaile*]

It's sad to see good people being hurt;
as you know, I can only empathize.
*hug*