Ive recently posted some threads regarding failed drug test at my doctors, well, I talked to them today, and I was fully expecting them to do a pill count, like right away, or discharge me on the spot, but surprisingly, they said they are going to ween me off the methadone, Im not sure why they are doing this.
So in about another week, I will go thru methadone w/d one more time, and maybe the last time, Im kind of scared because I have been on these damn things for so long now, but also kind of relieved, as I truly hope I can get over it and return to a normal life. he longest I have ever went without methadone is like 12 days, and while its been awhile, I seem to recall, on that 12th day, i was starting to feel a tiny bit better, but cant remember exactly, been about 4 yrs ago.
I know I will go thru hell again... Ive done this so many times, now, I SHOULD be used to it by now, but I kind of think this time will be different, as this time, I wont be just waiting around for my next refill, I will know its not coming, so that is going to be different, I think that anxious waiting, waiting, for the refill, or my next fix, really contributes to a bad w/d, and when its on your mind all the time, thinking about the date you can get it filled, how many days away it is, etc...I think that makes it that much worse!
They said for me to go down to 1.5 pills 3x a day, (methadone 10mgs), instead of 2 pills 3x a day, and then next month, it will be 1 pill, 2x a day.
Im also not entirely sure they arent discharging me...as they never said anything about putting me on something else, just said they were going to ween me off the methadone, but maybe by law, they have to do this..IDK.
I also hope I dont end up just copping dope more often, but I really cant afford to do that, so, Im going to try and not text my guy during this time,but Im also not going thru w/d yet either!! LOL But if I dont have the money, nothing much I can about that, have to have cash to text for dope!
Any suggestions on how I should approach this?
Thanks
So in about another week, I will go thru methadone w/d one more time, and maybe the last time, Im kind of scared because I have been on these damn things for so long now, but also kind of relieved, as I truly hope I can get over it and return to a normal life. he longest I have ever went without methadone is like 12 days, and while its been awhile, I seem to recall, on that 12th day, i was starting to feel a tiny bit better, but cant remember exactly, been about 4 yrs ago.
I know I will go thru hell again... Ive done this so many times, now, I SHOULD be used to it by now, but I kind of think this time will be different, as this time, I wont be just waiting around for my next refill, I will know its not coming, so that is going to be different, I think that anxious waiting, waiting, for the refill, or my next fix, really contributes to a bad w/d, and when its on your mind all the time, thinking about the date you can get it filled, how many days away it is, etc...I think that makes it that much worse!
They said for me to go down to 1.5 pills 3x a day, (methadone 10mgs), instead of 2 pills 3x a day, and then next month, it will be 1 pill, 2x a day.
Im also not entirely sure they arent discharging me...as they never said anything about putting me on something else, just said they were going to ween me off the methadone, but maybe by law, they have to do this..IDK.
I also hope I dont end up just copping dope more often, but I really cant afford to do that, so, Im going to try and not text my guy during this time,but Im also not going thru w/d yet either!! LOL But if I dont have the money, nothing much I can about that, have to have cash to text for dope!
Any suggestions on how I should approach this?
Thanks
