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Blowmonkey

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Amalgamation of miserable poetry and a buncha rhyming woe me funny words I wrote throughout the last 5-6 years, found them on an old ssd looking for something else. It's funny to me anyways, pls no ban for those two, I can take them out, all you have to do is shout. :kekw:

Spring rolls out the hate
Summer love came way too late
Leaves fall on my head
Winter time won't stop until I'm dead

My emotions are drugs.
Half tank full kinda guy.
Keep running on empty.
Gassing myself is a solution.

Nature is scary,
Life sucks
Just like belly fat.
Death is easy, everyone does that
But not everyone idolizes ducks.

haikuud
5- Life sucks, just like bellyfat

7- I hear death's easy, everyone does that

5- But not everyone idolizes ducks

Falling down
Michael Douglas
Good movie
Re-enactment
My life
Sequel's called
In shitter
Based on
True events
Fuck twitter

You kai 21,
We had a lot of fun
Hope you're alright
Just to let you know,
I upgraded from baseball bat to gun

That girl in the golden bikini
I got her drunk on martini
She called herself tia maria
Too crazy for me, see ya

Gravity is a force,
I cannot see,
therefore I am,
not convinced.
reeee

Narcissism leading to a schism
The ground rumbles and shatters
Sky falls down and still
All that matters
Is me

Me me me me me me me me me

Memes.

two times 25 mg amitryptaline,
go to sleep and wake up in a dream
fucking nightmare, panic heart racing, chest bare
hear your mind squeak like styrofoam, uttering nothing but
help, serotonin syndrome

hold your head, try to breathe
feel the nausea rising,
sweating buckets, give it to me, I need one, fuck it
I'm good now doc, you can suck it

plotting to shoot up
heroin or the government
either will do
sweet sweet relief
plagiarized thief
of my own mind
wondering what I'd find
if I'd let go

I have nothing.
I am nothing.
Where am I going?
With this?
Nowhere.

Back again.
Crowded place.
Hollow interior.
Fill it up.
I still feel inferior.

I'm tired.

If I apply and get a job, I know the next day I'll be fired.

Wallow in self pity, goddamn even these rhymes are shitty

fucking based, can't even rhyme for shit, what a waste

How to complete a 12 step program. Take 12 steps, turn around and walk away

Why did you keep coming back? Are you a fucking boomerang?

Lucid dreaming is a joke if you're living a nightmare. Fictionalized sensationalism.

tfw stone cold sober but the fugue state induced with social justice indoctrination will make my brain tingle in cancer coma goodness

If I get cancer I'm allowed to do what I want.

Sequencing my self destruct, forever be hiding in your tear duct

Giving life to one does not mean it exempts you from the curse of having destroyed another.

circles in the sky, circles in my eye, huge fucking saucers, giant black holes swallowing your daughters

What am I to you now, the devil?

Why'd you have to make a deal with the devil and not keep up your end of the bargain?

been drinking all week, having these terrible diarrhea shits

haven't slept, keep taking mdma to deal with the fits

going through the motion of the lotion

fuck swimming in a lake, give me the ocean

Keep beating myself over the head so hard it gave me a black eye.

At the very least you could have said goodbye.

One word,

Is two already.

Purpose..
What for?
Because!
Ok.

HOW COULD IT ALL BE
EIDETIC EMOTIONAL MEMORY
CAN'T FORGET, SHIT, I CAN'T UNSEE
NEVERENDING PUNCH IN THE FACE
I SHOULD TAKE SOLACE IN MY DISGRACE
IT'S FOREVER, MY ERASER DRIED UP AND SHATTERED

SMASH OUR LIVES TO BITS,
ALL FOR GIGGLES AND SHITS
MOVE ON AND FUCK OFF, STOP TELLING ME WHAT TO DO
DID YOU THINK I WAS THAT TOUGH, I'M FUCKING WEAK FOR YOU

always too late, way too much to take
all at once, can't stop these thoughts
break and shake, wake 'n bake
how many times will I kill, myself?
over and over and over, fucking mental health
bought a one way ticket for suicidal ideation
it'll be my last vacation

Depression is a beautiful day, blue and bright, full of delight, only to crash your car on the highway.
Bloodied and numb, totaled mind, no one helps, oh so kind, I feel dumb.
Everyday.
Then the next.
All that disturbs the monotony is this text.
Jesus Christ it's an ad, thought it was a friend.
Fuck this new phone, lost all my contacts, have no place to go, I feel like Wilson without Tom Hanks in the show.

Compulsive obsessions
Impulsive depressions
Love or addiction
It never was an affliction

Delirious dreams of mental illness
Each morning awake in stillness
My friend tinnitus is all that's left
You stole everything from me, identity theft

Each day skeletal pains
Weigh 170 again, what gains
Absolutely no outlook
Time to close this fucking book.

This silence is deafening
I can't hear the quiet,
It's all tinnitus
I can feel you behind us
Smelling synesthesia
These words are bitter
cranberry juice
Everlasting nightmares
Dreams shattered,
beyond recognition and repair
All I have left is despair
Shit's not really fair.

If only you were temporary, ordinary, imaginary.
Looking for another Jackie Chiles, haven't found that perfect attorney yet, been running for miles.
Absolve me from your sins, Jesus wept, woe me, why couldn't you let me see?
Just a glimpse, that's all I got.
You're a fairy, I'm stationary.
Maybe turn it around? I don't know, my mind is not exactly sound.
It's just vibrations going beep.
I've finally bought a gun to catch some sleep

Need to find joy again.
Need to quit smoking.

How do you even combine this shit?
Let me take another hit.

I need rest, but I need a job.
Cop a feel, feel a cop.

Can't remember the future,
Just looking towards the past.

Buy myself happiness
But how long will it last.

Poop in the sink, shower in the pee
Why would this even make you think?

My mind feels gone
But if I was gone, would you mind?

Did you?

In memories you haunt
My feelings you taunt
Those good looks you flaunt
You know what I want
Telling me I can't

Love you anymore
Alright, I'll be good, I shan't

Honestly, I thought I closed that door
But my life has become such a bore
That even after all this time,
You were still that girl I was longing for?

All I can do is smoke
I never dared to contact you,
Simply because I am a joke
Running away ruined me so hard
I'm thinking I should try upgrading to coke?

as if a moth won't be drawn to a flame
a lifetime of eternity, place on me all the blame

deaf or dumb, only to your words I succumb
nothing lost nothing gained, except we will forever be stained

Oh gee, benzo's and G, what did you do to me?
I wish I could remember, so I could see
Some of those memories more clearly,
I still hold them close to my heart, dearly

What did we do, what did I say
To you, that made me feel this way
I can't put my finger on it
Shit.

There's black holes in my brain
At least it could help me fix the pain
for a moment, but never enough
I wish I could be a real man, tough.

I haven't had sex in years because I just want love
I haven't found love again because it was all just sex
I had to seperate the two
Because of you

You put this monkey on my back, I'm caged up in the zoo
Hope it was worth it, what am I even saying, it clearly was for you

Safer to run away
Safer to wither and stay
Safer to pretend I'm fucking gay

Thought I could fix it all on my own
I thought wrong, just keep looking at my phone
Still nowhere, still fucked in the head
I'm honestly pretty much dead

Holding on to this one thread, it all leads back to you
I'm so through
This is hell, I can't escape it
Goddamn fucking shit

The stars all aligned
And I shot them down
Burning in my atmosphere
No one can come near
only I decide
and I better hide
To regain my pride
That's what I chose
Won't let her come close
Still I wanted
But I wasn't granted
That second chance
Or was it a hundred?
Only chained bears dance
I know I blundered
My ego I lost
My life, I dunno, on defrost?
lol

Someone specify how I should pacify.
Waking dream or nightmare, it'd be nice to know my fate.
Running high backwards while I procrastinate.
Step in this black hole that is my own
mind, life, hands, that thing in my worn underpants
Traveling down the Shanghai Wang Poo river
Enslaved like a goddamn n.....

Get this, how I let my gat off, get it?
rat tat tat tat
gra ta ta ta

on some shit, thought showered
High powered
brainstorming with unadulterated crack n.....s
Pulling some bitch her hair like gun triggers

Racist, racism, can't it just be humour?
Lol, I think karma has given me a brain tumour.
Owe me one shekel, I'll forever heckle.
Mr. Hyde? No fuck you, meet Dr. Jekyll.

Fucking hysterical
Emotional liability
Absolutely no responsibility
Everyone assumes I'm a murderer
Fucking right I am,
kindly fuck off
or else, hurr durrr

Wanting to be forgotten, is this really what I wanted?
Everyone did, I made sure of that
Now that it's come so far
There's no one left to talk to
I wished upon that shooting star
All the while thinking of you
I haven't forgotten, I'll never can
Should've been more, not less
Mistakes forever haunt me
It's what turned me in a mess
Before I coprolalia, please just give me some more
Too late, fucking whore, better lock your goddamn door.

what's your excuse?
remember the abuse?
I'll never be able to forget
what you put me through
you're not fat, you just don't have a clue
the only thing I had left was my retreat
sleeping in my bloodied bedsheet

emotional scars, cut deep
twin peaks scene, sweep sweep
forever on repeat
swept me off my feet

it's total annihilation, forgetting everything would be my kinda vacation
lobotomize, remove these appendages forever
like I did myself
unwanted
my smile you recanted
Is this what you really wanted?

still eternally grateful that you picked me
I deserve this, you're better off free
I'll bury all my memories of you at sea

Severe sepsis

I don't think I feel right
My blood is poisoned
My breaths are shallow
I'm faint
Something's scratching my taint
It'll be alright little fellow

I'm turning yellow?
Red spots all over
My hand
My arm
My shoulder
It's warm

Spinning room
Impending doom
This is what dying feels like

I can't even coom
Psyke!
I tried and it's alright

Why did this have to happen twice
Am I now immunocompromised?

It sucks
But I'm still here

Never leaving,
you fucking hear?

Inevitable truths coming through
within
Outwardly shedding my skin
If that's what everyone desires,
I guess I could sell tires
Tenderize my brain, squeeze some lemon and lime
Millionaire in no time

A girl who wants me?
Seriously, how could that be?
Please don't lie
I kinda close off emotionally, it makes me shy
Drink it away, whiskey and rye
Snorting fake amphetamines for a cheap ass high
Fucking blood clot floating in my eye
Only because you made me cry
Now you left me hanging and I want to die
Not even worth a damn goodbye
All I could do was sigh

Parijs, Hilton
Muizengeur en zonneschijn
Geen goede combinatie
De gipsmuren doordrongen van de stank
Complete saturatie
Ik ruik de dood
Nog even
En ik spring van de dakgoot
Herman fucking Brood

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lol thanks, glad my life is funny to at least one other person as well. 😄 it will always feel embarrassing as fuck to share that kinda stuff with other people though, especially when the poetry is so simple and stupid. but hey, that's me, I'm simple and stupid, in my mind it has to rhyme as well otherwise it's no fun. I've got a lot of other stuff that I've written that will never see the light of day probably, this was enough for now, maybe I'll share more some other time.
 
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You recognize your own language, very good! :kekw:
It wasn't Paris Hilton, it was Amsterdam Hilton that Brood jumped off of.
You think this was about him? That's quite presumptuous dude, it's just a shitty poem.
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Also John Lennon and Yoko Ono had had their Bed Peace in the same hotel.
nice anecdote
I wrote this over the last 5-6 years, that particular one 6 years ago. I haven't killed myself, nor I will anytime soon. I'm here posting aren't I? There are people in TDS who are posting about actually killing themselves day in day out, if you think I was going to commit suicide why would you ever reply with such a cringe post and corresponding youtube video yourself? Do you think your message is in any way shape or form helpful to someone you suspect of wanting to do this, no seriously? Please don't respond to people like that if you think they do, it is not helping them at all, even if you put please in the sentence, consider being nice to them in the future instead of inadvertently telling them their shit is cringe. Posts like that can actually help people do it, this is a harm reduction forum and this is the words section. I neither glamorize nor inspire people to do anything, I wrote what's on my mind, writing into the void helps. I made poetry about several different topics, thanks for the critique though. Do you have any other suggestions, questions, or anecdotes that have no relevance, do you want me to write you some rhymes? :unsure:
 
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