Focalin Addiction

louisvillemusicman

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So I have a prescription to 40mg of Focalin a day for my ADD. It helps so much in school it's crazy! I absolutely love it. I've had problems with xanax and kpins before and looking back I hate them because they made me an ass and made me drop out of society but with Focalin, I am on top of everything. Tell me what to do and I will find a way to get it done and get it done efficiently.
But my problem is that I've been abusing it pretty frequently because I have a supply of it everyday and because it really helps me in school. I can go to the library with my friend (who is also prescribed Focalin) and crush them up and snort them. It's so easy, convenient, and fun. And my problem is that when I have it, I can't resist but to use it. It's impossible for it to sit in my pocket for more than a few hours. I'll go to the bathroom before class and do a line and be set for a while. I abuse it in this manner almost everyday and I realize I need to stop. So I do, I quit for a day or two without even thinking about it but then I compulsively go right back at it.
So my question is: has anyone else had this same experience with Focalin or any amphetamine? I don't know what to do because I need it for school and I can't tell the parentals about it because then I'll have to go to rehab and that's the last thing I want to happen.
If anyone has any insight on this please lend me a hand with advice or whatever
Thanks a lot
Love & Peace,
Ben :)
 
Yeah, I really cannot pay attention to save my life without it. I just got prescribed about a year ago and my grades instantly got better.
I could get them to dispense it for me, but I still would find a way to do what I want with it :P and my friend who is prescribed it too is always up for snorting a line or 2 or 5 or 27. Not actually 27. I think my heart might esplode if I go that far haha
The last time I tripped acid this summer I realized how much of a drug addict I am or have the potential to be so it's like this battle between my sub-conscience which tells me to do drugs and my conscience which wants me to not do them :P
It's all so extremely confusing
 
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