Maybe not any help but may be.
I have been put on med-stacks (many different pills at once) for PTS, anxieties and other issues plus some of the meds were prescribed to combat the negative side effects of other meds.

I have had "colleagues" of mine on the same type of regimens and some have hurt themselves, their families, other random people or all of it. There are
many who commit suicide on these drug cocktails every year and day after day these cocktails are still prescribed. I mean... if something doesnt work it doesnt work, right? If it causes destruction or the opposite of what is "expected" why continue the practice of causing harm rather than reducing it? This is obviously a rhetorical question but in
my mind I feel it is a by product of greed.
I am not anywhere close to being a doctor of any kind but can share what I experience and offer what has helped or is helping me cope and sustain.
A support system and a well meaning psychologist that seems to know her shit and a willingness to be
completely open and transparent to what we discuss and practice while "in session".
Bluelight (this place) has definitively been a major support column for me as an extended family that has been through it themselves and sharing their experiences and responding to mine in kind.
Although this is great I find that being face to face and getting real-time feedback from a psychologist who is specialized in trauma has been a great help and another column of support.
I have a friend (1 - the others have passed in one way or another) for decades that has been through and shares a lot of the same ideas and beliefs that I hold. Another column of support.
A couple of kitties that depend on me for their well-being/health and a SO who can drive me nuts sometimes (being honest here); but she has some mental issues and has been traumatized as well as having a learning disorder. Another pillar to keep me standing.
Maybe it is time to get away from the psychiatrist and replace the meds with a competent psychologist...? This is just what finally brought a genuine smile to my face after many decades of being "lost" and although there is plenty to work through she seems to have the tools to chip away at some past baggage (dead weight) to free me up to deal with current and future potential life issues.
Whatever the case... do
not just quit taking your meds outright. This is seriously counter productive and may be the most destructive. I would suggest the tapering off of one medication at a time and however slow it may take... take that time. Talk to your current mental health provider and discuss this plan with them so that everyone is on the same page. If they (current mental health provider) is not profit driven I believe they will be open to a plan of getting off the medications by tapering off and employing the use of a competent psychologist that
may be more helpful.
Stick around and please visit
our lounge it has brought so many cheerful moments of genuine amusement and laughing out louds that I find it like that spoon full of sugar that helps the medicine go down all in one and helpful in my darkest hours. Laughter and levity are (in my opinion) a very big part of healing and getting through some rough times.
I do hope the best for you and only wish peace for us all.
