Okay so i did ketamine last night for my first time. Im writing this for someone else who wants to try it and what to expect.
But first i reccomend doing it with a friend or friends who you trust. i did it with my best friend for many years and he talked me through it at every step.
i also have no idea of how the measurements were. i think he said he had 2 1gram packets.. if that sounds right?
So we started off and i did my first ever line and 10-20mins later i felt rather drunk but it wasnt enough (it was only about 1/8th of a gram)
so i did another hit of about the same amount and i felt very "drunk" but my friend did abit more and he was starting to talk about random stuff.
I let these two lines (i dont know drug terms :/) and we watched a Naked gun movie and it was a very strange movie to grasp but the whole screen started to fill the whole field of vision.
But i would look over and see a bed or a table and think, this isnt enough i want to bend reality.
So i asked my friend and he racked me up another line and i went to his window to do a piss out of. His bedroom is in the atic with a window that opens up and you can piss off the roof. abit scary with the thought of falling out. but i was fine at this point, feeling drunk but in control. BUT THEN. this was my first big trip. and i sat down and closed the slanted window, all my sound was merging together. almost as if the sound and thoughts were merging together. it was almost as if a pulsing sound was happening (the best sound i have ever heard). as i sat down, i turned around to my friend whos arms appeared really long and i forgot where i was, his room which has slanted walls on each side (being in the attic) didnt help. then i remembvered where i was and i asked if we could watch a strange video, at which point he puts on this video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7W-mppJd9qM. and things started going weird.
but again, it wasnt enough so i paused the video and i asked if i could finish off off what was left and i ended up doing about 3/4 of a gram in total. As i do this line i have the biggest urg to sneeze but i hold it in because i didnt want to sneeze out what i just did. And we were sitting there with me holding my head and him with the table we were doing lines from and all the gear, and his mum walks in about 10mins later when this last big line is kicking in. her speach wasnt words. something about a light. and my friend pulled everything off the table as she walked in hid it, and we didnt know if she saw but we were acting very "drunk" and she walked out soon after, (i think she was checking if we had came in from the night out and telling us to turn the light off downstairs).
So this last hit. which meant i had taken about 3/4 of a gram - 1 gram in total. we lost track of how many lines we were doing. but this is when things got really strange. i layed down and i thought i could reach the other side of the room but i sat up quickly and turned around and my friend was sitting there. i was talking in whisper because the sound echoed and it sounded absolutely amazing. i told him to do the same and we were talking in a loud whisper. the crackle and noise sound from a whisper was really quite amazing. i no longer knew where i was. the room to me was in the middle of a party and i would ask where everyone was. id close my eyes and lay down again and the whole room would spin and become no longer a room? id open my eyes and what i was imagining with my eyes closed, was actually happening and i wondered if i every closed my eyes. we both kept questioning what his mum saw and it was a scary thought, i kept thinking she was going to tell my parents and i was going to get locked in. it was a very... life changing thought. i really came to terms with it. that people would help me and not judge me and it was okay. We tried to watch another video and i would press the keyboard and the keyboard appeared to suck in my fingers each time i pressed it and we watched a video, im not sure which.
Then my friend wanted a piss out the window so we made it there. and he asked me to hold onto him so he doesnt fall out the window, so i grabbed onto his ankle and i lost all sense of reality and my hand and his foot were one thing. hands and feet were no longer different objects. and colours appeared to be sound and i ended up asking to go to bed. i would lay down and i closed my eyes. and i had the most incredible dreams i have ever had. i was in my dreams. i was no longer in my body but else where in these lands. it sounds far-fetched but this is the only way i can describe it.. i really have no idea what i was feeling. but i didnt feel in control. but i liked it.
It was the strangest sensation ever. and i had to try and write it down to pass on my experience. but no one thing was seperate from another, it appeared that time, colour, sound, objects were all one thing. in one big mess.
I hope you can make sense of this. and post your thoughts? if you can relate?
peace, monkey
But first i reccomend doing it with a friend or friends who you trust. i did it with my best friend for many years and he talked me through it at every step.
i also have no idea of how the measurements were. i think he said he had 2 1gram packets.. if that sounds right?
So we started off and i did my first ever line and 10-20mins later i felt rather drunk but it wasnt enough (it was only about 1/8th of a gram)
so i did another hit of about the same amount and i felt very "drunk" but my friend did abit more and he was starting to talk about random stuff.
I let these two lines (i dont know drug terms :/) and we watched a Naked gun movie and it was a very strange movie to grasp but the whole screen started to fill the whole field of vision.
But i would look over and see a bed or a table and think, this isnt enough i want to bend reality.
So i asked my friend and he racked me up another line and i went to his window to do a piss out of. His bedroom is in the atic with a window that opens up and you can piss off the roof. abit scary with the thought of falling out. but i was fine at this point, feeling drunk but in control. BUT THEN. this was my first big trip. and i sat down and closed the slanted window, all my sound was merging together. almost as if the sound and thoughts were merging together. it was almost as if a pulsing sound was happening (the best sound i have ever heard). as i sat down, i turned around to my friend whos arms appeared really long and i forgot where i was, his room which has slanted walls on each side (being in the attic) didnt help. then i remembvered where i was and i asked if we could watch a strange video, at which point he puts on this video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7W-mppJd9qM. and things started going weird.
but again, it wasnt enough so i paused the video and i asked if i could finish off off what was left and i ended up doing about 3/4 of a gram in total. As i do this line i have the biggest urg to sneeze but i hold it in because i didnt want to sneeze out what i just did. And we were sitting there with me holding my head and him with the table we were doing lines from and all the gear, and his mum walks in about 10mins later when this last big line is kicking in. her speach wasnt words. something about a light. and my friend pulled everything off the table as she walked in hid it, and we didnt know if she saw but we were acting very "drunk" and she walked out soon after, (i think she was checking if we had came in from the night out and telling us to turn the light off downstairs).
So this last hit. which meant i had taken about 3/4 of a gram - 1 gram in total. we lost track of how many lines we were doing. but this is when things got really strange. i layed down and i thought i could reach the other side of the room but i sat up quickly and turned around and my friend was sitting there. i was talking in whisper because the sound echoed and it sounded absolutely amazing. i told him to do the same and we were talking in a loud whisper. the crackle and noise sound from a whisper was really quite amazing. i no longer knew where i was. the room to me was in the middle of a party and i would ask where everyone was. id close my eyes and lay down again and the whole room would spin and become no longer a room? id open my eyes and what i was imagining with my eyes closed, was actually happening and i wondered if i every closed my eyes. we both kept questioning what his mum saw and it was a scary thought, i kept thinking she was going to tell my parents and i was going to get locked in. it was a very... life changing thought. i really came to terms with it. that people would help me and not judge me and it was okay. We tried to watch another video and i would press the keyboard and the keyboard appeared to suck in my fingers each time i pressed it and we watched a video, im not sure which.
Then my friend wanted a piss out the window so we made it there. and he asked me to hold onto him so he doesnt fall out the window, so i grabbed onto his ankle and i lost all sense of reality and my hand and his foot were one thing. hands and feet were no longer different objects. and colours appeared to be sound and i ended up asking to go to bed. i would lay down and i closed my eyes. and i had the most incredible dreams i have ever had. i was in my dreams. i was no longer in my body but else where in these lands. it sounds far-fetched but this is the only way i can describe it.. i really have no idea what i was feeling. but i didnt feel in control. but i liked it.
It was the strangest sensation ever. and i had to try and write it down to pass on my experience. but no one thing was seperate from another, it appeared that time, colour, sound, objects were all one thing. in one big mess.
I hope you can make sense of this. and post your thoughts? if you can relate?
peace, monkey
