Man I'm beat such a long day at work for me its getting so dam busy can't keep up. So sore and hate the feeling of my feet being wet in my boots all day all I wana do is snort some bupe and have a bath probably smoke some hash and watch "house" on netflix. I screwed up my taper off suboxone after I got a bad tooth dealt with and I've been in alot of pain along with my back just killing me from doing this hard job of mine day in and day out. I really need to think of something else to do for the moment anyways that's not so physically demanding and hard on your body. I think I may have another job lined up with the same company that's not so physical but I'll see how it goes there's nobody to replace me yet.
Fuck I hate my neighbours I live above this gash in a fourplex who is always complaining to the landlord about me and my mom saying were too loud with the tv and we slam the door in the mornings , don't give her privacy and put too much trash in the can blah blah blah fuck off lady geez some people just have no lives so they fuck with others. I wish I could own my very own home already instead of renting but that's not likely in this day and age.
I have been working with my lawyer to get some of my dads money from his will though so I got my fingers crossed about that
My dad died in January and the bastard didn't even mention his two kids in his will he did everything he could to make sure his family would get none of his riches when he died and while he was alive. Its just been mind boggling to me seeing everything he did just how selfish he really was like he used to do stuff like make his side of the bed but not my moms and when I needed hearing aids at age 4 cause I couldn't hear or talk yet he refused to buy then because he wanted to buy himself an airplane to put in the garage so I went without hearing until my mom wrote a letter to a charity and they paid for a new pair of hearing aids thank god for my mom she would do anything for her kids which is why I return the favour and I'm taking care of her now that she's sick.
Im Glad I was able to pull myself back out of my last relapse when my dad died and I found out just how much he really hated me it was hard to accept that's for sure had a lot of anger and still do today. I mean it was such a shake I had to grow up without a dad while he lived just down the road in our old family home most of the time while we moved from shitty apartment to even shittier apartments all the time cause we were so poor with no food and a mom who was going crazy. At one point we were even homeless and my dad had a few million to his name the whole time I just can't imagine doing that to my kids letting them suffer like that. He eneve even knew what I looked like didn't even want a picture of me. I've worked out in the gym while he was next to me and he had no clue who I was or if he did he ignored me
Really hope something good comes out of this and easier times are ahead for us we deserve it its not fair his new girlfreid gets everything and gets rich while me the son who had to support his mental sick mother since age 14 because my dad wanted to do his own thing ends up with nothing. Nope I'm definitely fighting that I'm lucky to live in a part of the world where any will can be changed if the court sees good reason for it.
Well I'm off to bed another long day ahead of me tomorrow at least it'll be Friday. Thanks for reading
Fuck I hate my neighbours I live above this gash in a fourplex who is always complaining to the landlord about me and my mom saying were too loud with the tv and we slam the door in the mornings , don't give her privacy and put too much trash in the can blah blah blah fuck off lady geez some people just have no lives so they fuck with others. I wish I could own my very own home already instead of renting but that's not likely in this day and age.
I have been working with my lawyer to get some of my dads money from his will though so I got my fingers crossed about that
My dad died in January and the bastard didn't even mention his two kids in his will he did everything he could to make sure his family would get none of his riches when he died and while he was alive. Its just been mind boggling to me seeing everything he did just how selfish he really was like he used to do stuff like make his side of the bed but not my moms and when I needed hearing aids at age 4 cause I couldn't hear or talk yet he refused to buy then because he wanted to buy himself an airplane to put in the garage so I went without hearing until my mom wrote a letter to a charity and they paid for a new pair of hearing aids
thank god for my mom she would do anything for her kids which is why I return the favour and I'm taking care of her now that she's sick. Im Glad I was able to pull myself back out of my last relapse when my dad died and I found out just how much he really hated me it was hard to accept that's for sure had a lot of anger and still do today. I mean it was such a shake I had to grow up without a dad while he lived just down the road in our old family home most of the time while we moved from shitty apartment to even shittier apartments all the time cause we were so poor with no food and a mom who was going crazy. At one point we were even homeless and my dad had a few million to his name the whole time I just can't imagine doing that to my kids letting them suffer like that. He eneve even knew what I looked like didn't even want a picture of me. I've worked out in the gym while he was next to me and he had no clue who I was or if he did he ignored me
Really hope something good comes out of this and easier times are ahead for us we deserve it its not fair his new girlfreid gets everything and gets rich while me the son who had to support his mental sick mother since age 14 because my dad wanted to do his own thing ends up with nothing. Nope I'm definitely fighting that I'm lucky to live in a part of the world where any will can be changed if the court sees good reason for it.
Well I'm off to bed another long day ahead of me tomorrow at least it'll be Friday. Thanks for reading