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im going through my first ct

first day the typical sniffles/tears, then came my absolute strongest symptom the following days, restless legs. Lots of dxm helped get with that, and a bit of pot, im also rx'd baclofen (ill take more for a buzz sometimes, kinda this time)

my RLS phase seems mostly over, im getting into nausea/diarrhea more... its day 5/6? I used kratom 2 years, tramadol, then that and large amounts of methadone for 2ish years, taking lots of loperamide between. All in all used starting late 2011... im exhausted now

sorry for bad typing, hope its understandable... this restlessness is still there a bit so i got a lil benzos to help... im wondering how long till things pass. im hopeful since i seem to be on rear of restlesness

love all, feedback loved
 
So you're not using any loperamide at all now? The intestinal distress was always the worst for me. Baclofen was really useful for me when I was quitting alcohol. So I'm glad that's helping you too. Do you have access to clonidine? It helps for restless legs. Let us know how you're doing!
 
I had a loperamide EMERGENCY. 3 weeks no movement, couldnt eat bloated up to my throat, salivating insane like too much tobacco or pre vomit, swallowing it made strong bloating pain that filled me hurt a lot more when swallowed, had to sit with a cup and spit it out all night. Panic attacks, almost going to the ER, lots of pain in GI tract for a day or two after, so close to going to the emergency room.

And yeah my CT started after that and stopped all lope maintenance/methadone abuse. Taking more lope would just prolong the detox... sorry if tmi but it was nuts. A bit less restless, but im going a bit heavy on my small etiz batch so in a day or so ill have to slow down for sure. At one point I was taking 30-35mg diclazepam (~7-10x diazepam) and slowed off it (was only for a few months, was fortunately an easy come off compared to expected).

Tomorrow I think i'll get a bit more dxm and ease on etiz, i dunno. Depends on how restless i still am... my CT experience has been blessed with aids i've mentioned and commend people who go through it harder. I feel like such a champion for going through this and quitting. Now I can work towards being a functional adult again.

Thanks and love

edit: Im interested in getting a clonidine rx for some reasons. I have no idea how to approach a doc, or what kind for that. Also, think I might need a ashton type taper after this ordeal, my avg etiz dose is 25mg a few times a day lately, likely gonna exhaust my 250mg stash quicker than I should. How do I see a doctor for a 'benzo' taper?
 
Forgive double post, detox update.

I feel like im over the hump, havent taken any more etiz, took 300mg dxm 1hr ago, got a 25oz, tryina bed-dance through it all to Rupaul's Glamazon electro dance album.. Things are looking up now... but what about later? Will edit to keep posted I guess.

I still feel im getting off this too easy compared to others who've stopped in the past. My heart goes to them and everyone.
 
How much loperamide were you taking?

When I WD and take it I just use it to stop having to go to the bathroom every 20 minutes. I get the 2mg pills and I don't think I've ever taken more than 4mg. Only take one at a time. You don't have to take insane amounts to get some relief.
 
Glad you're doing better! It's good you want to start weaning down on the etiz because at the doses you're taking, you could have bad withdrawals trying to cold-turkey quit. Try using it at night for sleep and only daytime if you really feel you need it. It may take some time, but you'll get there. You can do this!
 
At my worst, 40-50 2mg pills to get through the day, in the end, 5-10 2mg pills. I was using it to stave off WDs vs the bathroom.

Anyways, another 360mg dxm, tobacco stash, some beer left, no etiz since last night, im feeling good and motivated for now. I kinda started this 'journal' after the worst of my time WDing. I seem to be on the end of the journey. Sunny days ahead.

And the etiz, ima be careful now things seem to be settling down.

edit: even though no sleep tonight, minus 1hr half sleep, im feeling ok enough with some aids and think im at the tail end of this... wont really continue posting in here.
 
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