FixXxer
Bluelighter
Passion passin’, askin’ myself why I’m lackin’.
Trackin’ my actions to find my detraction...
Lack of satisfaction, making me lose my tone
Leaving my comfort zone, it's easy to feel alone.
But I know and am aware, that if I dare to care,
to venture into the unknown, I may be shown,
Things that I've always wished I'd known.
Mind blown, I'm tryin new hats..
This science isn't exact,
but
Far too long I’ve held myself back.
Far too comfortable behind a mask,
Far too long I just do what you've asked,
and haven’t shared what I thought due to a fear of being attacked,
I don’t want to react, to opinions people see as a fact,
I have a deep needing to keep my bleeding heart intact.
I'm allowed to be different than you whatever you want to expect.
That's the data I collect, when I take time to inspect.
None of us are always correct.
In debt, in this position,
My new mission, is to listen,
to whatever you think that I'm missin'
Relate, debate, and not take your opinion as hate,
Maybe you just think I can be great..
My state too shakable,
I believe I am quite capable,
but
My emotions aren’t easily fakeable
My mind sometimes too un-shapeable.
My heart has been a little too breakable,
Sometimes made life seem un-take able
because my dreams should all be makeable,
Wait while I juggle,
and
Struggle to get out of my bubble, above all,
Judging myself into rubble,
emotions drowning me even if it's only a puddle,
Muddled, I double my efforts, to prove to myself that I have worth,
Tell myself that I'm not cursed, others have had it way worse.
It hurts, that I try so hard but cry I don't see results.
When I open it's easy to see my faults.
Self inflicted insults, that make me move
work to improve, and stay in a mood that exudes
crude confidence in myself and events,
that occurred in my life and didn't make sense.
Try to to stay off of the defense, and do my best to offer both of my hands,
A simple hug does a lot between friends, I know this you understand.
I can,
use my talents to find my inner balance.
I know escaping myself has always been the challenge.
Use all of my attributes, and find a way to execute,
Drop this old dispute, over whatever I can do.
I'll make mistakes but I'll improve
If I don't take a chance, I lose,
I'll enhance, my skills, so I can pay all of my bills.
Maybe move out to the hills, and enjoy all of life’s thrills.
This thought gives me the chills...
I keep dreaming still..
My cup is starting to fill.
I will, not give up the fight,
Cause no matter what has happened in life
The sun will shine it's light with no help.
Finally I’m finding myself,
So bright I'm blinding myself,
Time for reminding myself,
To go beyond the past and start to grow.
Evolve, to create the future that I really want to know.
Trackin’ my actions to find my detraction...
Lack of satisfaction, making me lose my tone
Leaving my comfort zone, it's easy to feel alone.
But I know and am aware, that if I dare to care,
to venture into the unknown, I may be shown,
Things that I've always wished I'd known.
Mind blown, I'm tryin new hats..
This science isn't exact,
but
Far too long I’ve held myself back.
Far too comfortable behind a mask,
Far too long I just do what you've asked,
and haven’t shared what I thought due to a fear of being attacked,
I don’t want to react, to opinions people see as a fact,
I have a deep needing to keep my bleeding heart intact.
I'm allowed to be different than you whatever you want to expect.
That's the data I collect, when I take time to inspect.
None of us are always correct.
In debt, in this position,
My new mission, is to listen,
to whatever you think that I'm missin'
Relate, debate, and not take your opinion as hate,
Maybe you just think I can be great..
My state too shakable,
I believe I am quite capable,
but
My emotions aren’t easily fakeable
My mind sometimes too un-shapeable.
My heart has been a little too breakable,
Sometimes made life seem un-take able
because my dreams should all be makeable,
Wait while I juggle,
and
Struggle to get out of my bubble, above all,
Judging myself into rubble,
emotions drowning me even if it's only a puddle,
Muddled, I double my efforts, to prove to myself that I have worth,
Tell myself that I'm not cursed, others have had it way worse.
It hurts, that I try so hard but cry I don't see results.
When I open it's easy to see my faults.
Self inflicted insults, that make me move
work to improve, and stay in a mood that exudes
crude confidence in myself and events,
that occurred in my life and didn't make sense.
Try to to stay off of the defense, and do my best to offer both of my hands,
A simple hug does a lot between friends, I know this you understand.
I can,
use my talents to find my inner balance.
I know escaping myself has always been the challenge.
Use all of my attributes, and find a way to execute,
Drop this old dispute, over whatever I can do.
I'll make mistakes but I'll improve
If I don't take a chance, I lose,
I'll enhance, my skills, so I can pay all of my bills.
Maybe move out to the hills, and enjoy all of life’s thrills.
This thought gives me the chills...
I keep dreaming still..
My cup is starting to fill.
I will, not give up the fight,
Cause no matter what has happened in life
The sun will shine it's light with no help.
Finally I’m finding myself,
So bright I'm blinding myself,
Time for reminding myself,
To go beyond the past and start to grow.
Evolve, to create the future that I really want to know.
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