bdomihizayka
Bluelighter
I have been sober for nearly six weeks predated yesterday. Before that, I had a more sporadic hydromorphone habit bridged with Kratom use for 2 months max.
Well yesterday I lapsed, and today I woke up sick. not acutely, but definitely feeling more sick than I would have ever expected.... feeling like I just went on a heavy half week bender.... and I only used 3 dilauldids. It's not in my head either - I woke up to that putrid withdrawal smell- where everything- including yourself- just smells like hell.... got a bad case of the chills- little energy/ nauseous.... so I'm not acutely sick per say, but one more day and no doubt I would have been. I caved into some Kratom today as I had obligations and this literally blindsided me, but I cannot afford to get dependent on that shit again too....
Is this what "they" talk about when they say this shit is progressive? I literally cannot afford the mess around anymore if this is what my opiate "hangovers" are going to now be like. In no way do I derserve this kind of a sick feeling for a mild one day relapse after 5-6 weeks of total sobriety I feel like.... but maybe I do....
Anyways- so I want to ask- how do you all MENTALLY get through withdrawal? What tips do you have? And how badly did I screw myself with using Kratom today? I have never knuckled any kind of sickness- always went to rehab or traveled to a new country or saw a doctor for comfort meds.... but it's too soon and I'll give myself up do I do any of these at the moment..... so I would love advice of how to man up and stop- how do you get yourself mentally prepared/ strapped down and ready to quit?? Any and all input valued deeply.
-Strung out yet again
Well yesterday I lapsed, and today I woke up sick. not acutely, but definitely feeling more sick than I would have ever expected.... feeling like I just went on a heavy half week bender.... and I only used 3 dilauldids. It's not in my head either - I woke up to that putrid withdrawal smell- where everything- including yourself- just smells like hell.... got a bad case of the chills- little energy/ nauseous.... so I'm not acutely sick per say, but one more day and no doubt I would have been. I caved into some Kratom today as I had obligations and this literally blindsided me, but I cannot afford to get dependent on that shit again too....
Is this what "they" talk about when they say this shit is progressive? I literally cannot afford the mess around anymore if this is what my opiate "hangovers" are going to now be like. In no way do I derserve this kind of a sick feeling for a mild one day relapse after 5-6 weeks of total sobriety I feel like.... but maybe I do....
Anyways- so I want to ask- how do you all MENTALLY get through withdrawal? What tips do you have? And how badly did I screw myself with using Kratom today? I have never knuckled any kind of sickness- always went to rehab or traveled to a new country or saw a doctor for comfort meds.... but it's too soon and I'll give myself up do I do any of these at the moment..... so I would love advice of how to man up and stop- how do you get yourself mentally prepared/ strapped down and ready to quit?? Any and all input valued deeply.
-Strung out yet again
Lots of pride in your decision to be strong and set a good example for the rest.