finally free

[Chaotic Action Man]

you’re radiating she said.
and I realized
just how long it had been
since I had.

when in the depths of depression
the light is not forgotten,
for you can plainly see
through the window, yet
unable to lift it open
the edges sealed
from so many layers
of different coloured paint.
the depressed often will simply sit and wait.

now outside,
a prisoner freed from the cell of his mind
i wonder.
how hard had you laboured,
digging with spoon in hand,
trying to tunnel in
to get me out?

i would apologize.
a thousand times over.
because I realize now,
all the things you said
that I resented,
all the time spent
where I hated
that you trying to change me,
was really just your best efforts
to pull me out from the prison inside my head.

i should apologize, again,
for hating you so much
at the time.
and if it makes it any better,
i will spend a life time
wishing I could have it all back.

seeing you happy
creates a dichotomy,
where I know it is he
and not me
that puts that smile on your face.

so I am both happy and sad.
but I think
i’ll revel in this for a while,
because it is simply so fucking good
to feel again,
no matter what the circumstances
of this happiness may be.

 

[neverwas]

i’ll revel in this for a while,
because it is simply so fucking good
to feel again,
no matter what the circumstances
of this happiness may be.

couldnt of said it better myself...sometimes all it takes is for a certain someone to bring out the best in people

 

[Setarcos]

thats pretty good,
I keep going in and out

maybe i just think i get out but am still in, am sure i got out once in the whole period, asides from that it might just have been thinking i got out mood flucations within the prison

 

[cherub]

reading this was very sad almost but it sounds as though you are resolving,,, great writting

 

[Dastrix Slogan]

I love the image of the stuck window with its layers of paint!

Great stuff!