~final words~

[neverwas]

clouds fill my mind
as the inevitable draws near.
ive been dreading this day for a while now
where silently at night i will shed for myself a tear.

not based on sadness
and not based on grief.
i have nothing to be sorrowfull about
because your voice still can i hear.

twirling the ring on my finger
it brings back memories of my fight.
for survival and for living
it gave me reason to dissappear into the night.

i dont care what people say
or give a fuck about snide remarks.
i do what i want to and love only those i have to.
i wish you well and hope you stay safe.
locked away,
closed in my heart.

you say you dont want to be remebered.
but how can i forget.
pictures fill my mind
emotions control my heart.
all the times you've made me laugh
all the tears with you i have wept.

you are more specail to me than i think you realise.
ive told you this more than once but hope you wont forget.
all the love we've shared and friendship that bloomed
the nights where not a word is said.

you're leaving lots behind,
i know you will stay safe.
but i think im more nervous than you right now.
i have butterflies fly lose in the cage.

this may seem more personal than people like.
but i think by now you know how much i care.
i have but one wish that you stay safely in one peice.
and that with you my thoughts and love and friendship are always there.

i miss you already and your not even gone

~K~

i dont expect you to reply to this. just read it and feel at ease and know that ur never far away from home. i love you xox

 

[iLoveYouWithaKnife]

you are more specail to me than i think you realise.
ive told you this more than once but hope you wont forget.
all the love we've shared and friendship that bloomed
the nights where not a word is said.

enough said.

 

[E-girl]