Feeling a bit lost.

[tommy34]

Hey everyone. So the last few months have been some of the better ones for me but lately I've been feeling a bit lost on my road to recovery. I saw one doctor about 6 months ago about depression and he referred me to a psychologist, I never went and I never went back to him (not sure why) I saw another doctor about 2 months ago, he put me on Citalopram which I was on for about 2 weeks. He then referred me to a psychologist because I asked for it. I haven't called a psych yet and I am reluctant to go back to that doctor because I get the feeling that he doesn't really care and he thinks I am just a winger. I don't think these doctors actually realise that I feel like I am in a real crisis situation most of the time because I have learned to hide it so good. After been suffering from depression and anxiety my whole adult life I have because very good at hiding the way I feel and often when I talk about it with people I will say it in a joking manner. The anxiety has gotten to a point where I am finding it hard to enjoy life. I can't enjoy time spent with good friends. I constantly have tension headaches in my neck because my shoulders are hunched up around my ears. I spend about 2 hours a night trying to get to sleep and I keep my girlfriend awake because when I get to sleep I wriggle around all night.

I'm a little bit lost as to what my next move should be. Should I find another doctor? Should I request more SSRI's? Should I request some benzos for occasional use, it makes me feel more comfortable knowing I have them if i need them. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated

 

[piebald]

as long as you can use the benzos as prescribed then yeah, why not?( i only say that cause im not sure what your recovering from and some people would abuse them) In my opinion i would NOT try to up your SSRI's . i was prescribed citalopram for the same shit and i couldnt even take it; it made me feel like a zombie so i just started doing amino acids and vitamins and that helped a TON

 

[anonymous1419]

i'm in a really similar situation. trying to recover from an opiate addiction, i've been doing better now than i have in the past but it's still not perfect because the anxiety and depression are so bad. i also have the awful, sometimes unbearable, back/neck pain due to my muscles constantly being tensed and i've lost a lot of friends because i simply do not enjoy being social anymore. i also experience the same sleeping situation as you; it takes me hours each night to fall asleep...i don't know if this is a product of my drug use or if i used to cover up this anxiety, but whatever it is it is BAD. i just went to my first session with a psychologist provided by the university i attend to see if he can help me parse out the reasons i feel this way but man, i feel you. do you feel that the SSRI has helped you thus far? my counselor mentioned wanting to put me on one, but i'm suuuper sketched out by that seeing as he brought it up after only meeting with me for an hour...

 

[piebald]

ssri's can be very helpful but IMO they are over-prescribed; recovering from opiates sucks!! i wonder if i will ever be the same again. One of my doctors told me "well; some people never seem to recover"
thanks for the uplifting input motherfucker. But, ive been off since jan and im slowly feeling better

 

[theartofwar]

Hey everyone. So the last few months have been some of the better ones for me but lately I've been feeling a bit lost on my road to recovery. I saw one doctor about 6 months ago about depression and he referred me to a psychologist, I never went and I never went back to him (not sure why) I saw another doctor about 2 months ago, he put me on Citalopram which I was on for about 2 weeks. He then referred me to a psychologist because I asked for it. I haven't called a psych yet and I am reluctant to go back to that doctor because I get the feeling that he doesn't really care and he thinks I am just a winger. I don't think these doctors actually realise that I feel like I am in a real crisis situation most of the time because I have learned to hide it so good. After been suffering from depression and anxiety my whole adult life I have because very good at hiding the way I feel and often when I talk about it with people I will say it in a joking manner. The anxiety has gotten to a point where I am finding it hard to enjoy life. I can't enjoy time spent with good friends. I constantly have tension headaches in my neck because my shoulders are hunched up around my ears. I spend about 2 hours a night trying to get to sleep and I keep my girlfriend awake because when I get to sleep I wriggle around all night.

I'm a little bit lost as to what my next move should be. Should I find another doctor? Should I request more SSRI's? Should I request some benzos for occasional use, it makes me feel more comfortable knowing I have them if i need them. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated

Full blood panel check your hormone levels. shit you not man that can make you feel like your shit smells like cin buns or leave you in all sort of hell.

 

[J. G. Wentworth]

From my observations, insurance companies have made psychiatrists nothing more than pill pushers for big pharma. Psychologists can help you with your awareness of your behavior and perceptions so you can change it for the better.

just my 2 cents and that aint worth jack these days.

 

[Methadone84]

Atleast you're not this guy

 

[piebald]

From my observations, insurance companies have made psychiatrists nothing more than pill pushers for big pharma. Psychologists can help you with your awareness of your behavior and perceptions so you can change it for the better.

just my 2 cents and that aint worth jack these days.

For sure! Big pharma runs the show...I wonder if they dont come up with new drugs..then have to "create" a disease to sell the drug, restless legs, firbromyalgia,Pre-mentrual dysmorphic disorder-

 

[tommy34]

I agree, normal symptoms of life are often given a name and a drug to go with the name. I'm not on the SSRIs anymore, i was on them for 2 weeks and had the worst suicidal thoughts I have ever had which led to a panic attack and a night in emergency and i believe that was a result of the medication. I live in Australia and doctors that i've seen are hesitant to hand out drugs, so that's a good thing.

I'm not sure how much longer I can cope with it and still keep my sanity.

 

[DroneLore]

There are two reasons I'm reluctant to get an SSRI. 1) I'm scared they won't work, or they'll just make me worse. 2) [yes I realize this is a somewhat immature attitude] I think it's fucked up that some habit forming drugs are okay for me to take and, in fact, encouraged, while others are forbidden and I'll go to jail if I get caught with them.

 

[tommy34]

This is my 6th month clean and I feel great especially since I work around my
addiction.Im a pharm tech and it is a day by day strugle to battle this beast that haunts me.Since i know all the great spots where to get your medication shipped discreatly without use a creadit card at amazing pricing and great quality it becomes hard to deal with it...( http://painmedication4u.blogspot.com/ )
this is a great blog to help those who are still in the strugle...it got me what i needed when i needed it no questions asked

Mods please ban this douche.

 

[piebald]

yeah there isn't a cure for the "human condition"
as far as the ssri's go..they def arent for me, they kinda stripped me of my personality, i wasnt sad, but i wasnt happy either..but they may work for you who knows..I hate em though...and i hate the way doctors throw them at you