TDS Feel like offing my self... after such a shit day

[F1n1shed]

Long story short.. some piece of shit scammer gave me some bs blue pills that look exactly like roxy blues..
I was going to a new person and spent $120 for some bull shit useless pills. Of course this bothers me... but what is even worse is it was my last of my money. I work a pretty crappy job so making money isn't easy either.

As soon as i got scammed it hit me real hard... that i am a piece of shit who is lying to his parents. They trusted me back in the house after rehab... promised i would be 100% clean. Depression came back hard and i started dabbling / using again. It is so hard for me to just fucking stay clean.... Can't count how many relapses... please i need some support. I don't feel like going on this useless life.. endless misery i swear.

 

[mrsnowygrainius]

That sucks for sure man no doubt about it, but take the getting beat as a sign to give up using for now... At least take a break kno what im sayin?

Hang in there man youll b alright. Theres no reason to hang up your so young bro and have much to live 4 ive read ur posts... Your alot like me i dont even kno u man but idc u have so much to live 4

Have u considered going on suboxone maintenence? It helps me tremendously

 

[F1n1shed]

I don't need subs that's the thing. I am able to stop my self. Know what the problem is? Every time i quit drugs.. i go back for more ALWAYS. I've been using for 9 years and this is the same story every time.
I always convince my self to go back to drugs when i get sober... because something bothers me deep inside. I got some pretty bad depression