fail?

I bought poppy pods tonight, simply because I know that they'll stop me from mutilating myself more than I have been.

I'm going to try to control myself with them. I have to, I can't afford not to.

 

if they'll stop you from cutting then yes, take them. Its still only temporary relief though.

Fuck, what can we do to help?

 

be careful, i keep trading one habit for another because i have zero desire to deal with real life. i keep telling myself that i will behave with X substance which is true... but i end up drinking to compensate

anyhow, good luck with everything and i miss the times when we could blog and be honest with out knowing other people on this site

 

^I miss that too.

I think I can make this just a temporary thing to help me get through the month. I start school in January and then I'll have more on my plate, which is a good thing. Now the boredom just gets me so depressed to where I can barely take it anymore. December is an awful time of year for me because of the holidays and several other reasons. I have DBT tomorrow and individual therapy on Monday so hopefully that will help as well.

Thanks for caring guys, it means so much more to me than words can express.

 

Girl, you better give me a call before you decide to start dabbling with poppies.

 

Oh- you guys!! I hate to see you so down!
Spork- I have been loggin onto msn through meebo- i will probably be on tonight if you get the chance and want to talk-
ac- I have no idea what is going on- but I hope things work out for you