Benzos extreme klonopin binge -- help

[rica2022]

Hi,

I'm in a terrible place and really struggling here, so I ask that you please not attack me or be really hard on me because I'm feeling very fragile right now. I already know I fucked up, so I don't need to be reminded. But I could use some advice.

I've been going through an extremely hard time in my life. I won't go into a lot of detail, but I suffered a sexual assault accompanied by a beating that caused a concussion. As a result, I was unable to sleep for weeks. I was desperate, and nothing was helping even though I'm prescribed sleeping and anxiety medication. So finally I bought Klonopin online and went on a week-and-a-half-long binge, increasing my dose every day until finally in the last two days I took 27mg and then 33mg per day. Needless to say, I am now suffering and am in even worse shape than I was before. I am exhausted but can't sleep enough to sleep it off, and I can't think straight. I have Celiac disease and gluten causes life threatening reactions for me. So my options for tapering medications are very limited. Originally the Klonopin I got, which is gluten free, wasn't causing Celiac problems, but at this point it is. That could just be a matter of the massive quantities I've taken. But I don't have the option of a drug that can help me taper. I also doubt I need a taper after such a short period of use. I also cannot go to ERs because they don't know how to deal with Celiac there and always give me medications that cause severe symptoms. So I'm on my own. My question is, how long can I expect to be so tired and unable to function? With me not taking any today, can I expect to feel any better tomorrow? What else should I be aware of? I have to do a colonoscopy prep tomorrow, which is going to have me going to the bathroom all day, so I won't be able to sleep. Will I still be so tired tomorrow that this won't be possible?

Thanks in advance for any advice you might have.

 

[Snafu in the Void]

You bought it online? Assuming the pills are real, and you went on a 10+ day binge which ended in you taking ~30mg per day, then went cold turkey?.....

You're going to experience acute withdrawal. It's going to suck. You may experience psychosis. You may experience seizures. You could realistically die. You're talking about doses of klonopin that would make most people comatose and amnesiac for extended periods.

Forcing such a large amount of benzos and then removing it will cause severe withdrawal symptoms....

With me not taking any today, can I expect to feel any better tomorrow? What else should I be aware of? I have to do a colonoscopy prep tomorrow, which is going to have me going to the bathroom all day, so I won't be able to sleep. Will I still be so tired tomorrow that this won't be possible?

Thanks in advance for any advice you might have.

Assuming you're in withdrawal from massive benzo doses, you're going to be nonfunctional for several days.

Are you sure your pills are real?

 

[sekio]

I also doubt I need a taper after such a short period of use.

Almost 2 weeks of benzo abuse at 15-20 the maximum prescribed dose is certainly serious enough I would say a taper would be needed.

Originally the Klonopin I got, which is gluten free, wasn't causing Celiac problems, but at this point it is.

I'm pretty confident all benzos (and in fact almost all drugs) are gluten free, given that e.g. wheat flour is not a common pill ingredient.
And gluten is not going to be randomly added for no reason and without any sort of announcement - to any product.

I also cannot go to ERs because they don't know how to deal with Celiac there and always give me medications that cause severe symptoms.

Your issue here is not celiac disease, it's benzodiazepine misuse/dependency, which hospitals can and do treat.

But I suspect you were not taking any clonazepam at all, actually. Clonazepam is a controlled substance and is illegal to purchase or sell without a doctor's prescription in almost every country in the world. And sites selling fake pills are as old as the Internet - remember the many sites purporting to offer Soma / Ultracet / Viagra / Cialis for super cheap? Often they would either take your money and ignore you outright, or sometimes ship either inactive, severely underdosed, or even totally mislabeled pills. There is no regulation, and in some jurisdictions even selling those prescription-only but uncontrolled drugs, it's a crime too.

If you were taking upwards of 30mg of Klonopin a day and somehow not getting relief, that's a strong indicator your pills were fake. A dose of half that would render the average person spending the entire day barely conscious or asleep, and would also result in acute memory loss for the whole period of use. For most people a dose between 0.25mg and 2mg every 12 hours is typical.

Also, true benzodiazepine withdrawal is not something where you can't sleep and feel you can't think straight. Actual, intense withdrawals will begin as soon as the last dose wears off, and can escalate from mild anxiety to total frantic restlessness, unable to get comfortable anywhere, easily startled, worried about everything, hyperstimulated, super-sensitive to everything - touch, sound, and light especially, super antisocial, etc. But they can get even worse, and cause total delerium, seizures, violent/reckless behaviour, and even death from status epilepticus (continuous, unstoppable, violent seizures).

Because you are typing out a post here, and not locked in your pitch black, totally silent room, weeping silently in a fetal position as memories of every failure, betrayal, fuckup, and loss repeat on endless loop in your mind, I don't think you have a BZD dependency, thankfully. You dodged a bullet here.

Have a cup of tea (black or herbal, chamomile is a good choice). Have a warm shower with a nice smelling soap. Do some body stretches. Put some white noise on, lay down on a comfortable bed in a dark room, focus on slowly breathing in through the nose and out through the mouth. Realize and accept that you are going to be OK, and you will also be OK tomorrow, and even the next day.

And don't ever go on reckless benzo binges. Ever.

 

[Dreamflyer]

I've gone on *crazy* Klonopin binges (like 30+mg. a day), but they only lasted a few days so I don't think there was enough time to have severe withdrawals. I would definitely feel nervous shaky for a few days afterwards though. They were always my prescription though, so I know that they were the real deal.

Everybody's different though. I've heard of people going through withdrawal from only 1mg. a day.

Be careful my friend!
Dreamflyer