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HYDRO_CHRONIC

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i dont know why but i watched some videos hosted by a site wich contains the word orgish ,and jesus some of the shit fucked me up fgor awhile how somone could do shit like that mainly the beheading videos ,from wich i just placed myself in the victoms place ,not knowing WHAT they did

but man have any of u guys seen stuff that affected u to where u couldnt stop thinking about it i think its a ocd thing

i dont want the videos just asking
 
Yes, unfortunately. A while back a horrible person killed a kitten by putting it in an oven and cooking it to death. Recently, I read that a mother microwaved her baby to death.

Both incidences literally make me sick to my stomach, and really bother me. I need to stop thinking about them now. :(
 
HYDRO_CHRONIC said:
i dont know why but i watched some videos hosted by a site wich contains the word orgish ,and jesus some of the shit fucked me up fgor awhile how somone could do shit like that mainly the beheading videos ,from wich i just placed myself in the victoms place ,not knowing WHAT they did
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Before i even opened this thread i was reminded of the beheading video's i saw years and years ago on ogrish, i was alot younger then and for some reason let my curiosity get the better of me.. it left an impact on me for some time.

These days i just avoid most news all together, i know the world can be a cruel place.. i really don't need to be told or shown the specifics, but unfortunately society is addicted to pain and suffering, hence why the biggest headlines are always the most disturbing.
 
i've posted a thread here about those horrible shock videos. the ones with animal cruelty specifically always break my heart. i thought this thread was something different though, like something you saw irl.

my mom passed away from a massive heart attack a few years ago. they were able to get her heart beating again after an hour without oxygen. they put her in a medical-induced coma and when i saw her she was totally vegetative, swollen and attached to life support machines. they eventually slowly took her off meds to see if she'd wake up. at first, her eyelids started twitching and i thought it was a promising sign, but after a few hours her whole body started twitching violently from severe brain damage i assume. i remember sitting on the side of the bed and growing so used to the shaking that once i stood up, i felt like i was shaking. the next day we took her off life support, and held her hand as she passed on peacefully. but something about that goddamn twitching will always haunt me.
 
I remember that ogrish site, I remember watching that Taliban beheading video when I was like 13 and was like GOD DAMN. I still remember that shit..

I think the reason that shit sticks in our heads so much is b.c it's not something we see every day, so when we do it sticks? I refuse to watch those animal cruelty videos and all that just b.c I could probably never eat a piece of meat again
 
I avoid ogrish-style videos and pictures, as images like that stay with me for a very very long time. Things I watched/saw when i was in my late teens/early twenties still haunt me :( I remember there was thread in the lounge devoted to the most shocking vids/images people could find, and one set of images affected me so much that i immediately started sobbing hysterically. I really just can't comprehend the potential for depravity in humans. In saying all of that, i have always had an interest in the psychology of that depravity, and have had a keen interest in the pathology of serial killers, and the like, but I can never look at imagery regarding cruelty, sadism, thrill-killing, or really, any kind of death. I can't stand when media post graphic images on the news either.

The other day, a woman was killed here in Melbourne, when she was struck and run over by a tram (street car). The news posted a photo of the scene, with the police in front of the tram, and the pixelated image of her body. Reading through the article, it mentioned that her family had not bee notified of her death. Could you imagine being a family member, reading the news, and happening upon this articles - thinking to yourself "wow, poor woman, i feel for her family, that's a graphic image", only to receive a phone call later to let you know that your sister/wife/daughter had been the woman killed and to realise that that you'd seen a pixelated photo of her laying broken in the street? :( I can't fathom how that would feel :(:(

Everyone in Australia (and some of our OS friends) has heard about the huge issue raised around the brutal treatment of our Australian cattle when exported live to Indonesia? This all came to a head when hidden camera footage was released of the horrific treatment of the cattle in Indonesian abattoirs. I won't go into detail, but reading about it was enough. I have avoided the audio and visual imagery of it, because I know that i will stay with me for god knows how long. I just can't bring myself to watch it.

Fawkes: I can't imagine how you would feel. Reading your post... i don't know what to say. <3
 
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. the next day we took her off life support, and held her hand as she passed on peacefully. but something about that goddamn twitching will always haunt me.
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This is heartbreaking Fawkes. Am so sorry. <3

I actually cant watch RL footage like that. Have seen some stuf on the net and TBH its not worthy of being talked about IMO. I feel coldly, sick and then violently angry after watching that kind of footage TBH. Wont forget it. :|

With regard to even reading about animal/child/elderly cruelty, I rage like the anti-christ.
 
HYDRO_CHRONIC said:
but man have any of u guys seen stuff that affected u to where u couldnt stop thinking about it i think its a ocd thing
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Yes, it's called being an empathic, compassionate human being :)

It's completely normal that you have had such a strong reaction to seeing such horrific images, it doesn't mean you've got OCD, it just means that you are emotionally-healthy. The images in your mind will fade over time. The best thing you can do is to avoid watching anything like that ever again. In my opinion there is NOTHING to gain from anyone watching videos of stuff like that. Just because horrible things like that happen in the world doesn't mean we need to be presented with it.

If you are having a lot of trouble getting the images out of your mind or if its affecting your everyday life, please speak to a counsellor to get your thoughts off your chest.



Fawkes I didn't know that hun, I am so sorry for your loss <3 *hugs*
 
Some videos stick with me for years, such as the beheading videos where they use a knife and just start sawing away while the person gags and chokes. Absolutely horrifying. The most horrifying part of it is the fact that these people are torturing other people for a "cause," which show the darkest part of humanity imo: you can get a person to do anything to another person so long as they feel they are serving a higher purpose. These videos reveal something sicker about the human race as a whole than videos that show the 1% who truly are psychopaths doing things like torturing kittens. The political beheading videos prove to me that there will never be an end to barbarism so long as there is a notion of social justice that allows one person to be treated like that for the sake of a cause.

In my personal life, images that stick to me and hurt for years are that of poverty. Specifically, I once hired a man who was 40 years old to wait tables at a restaurant. He was very poor, and he had no one left in his life. His daughter was grown, and she would not speak to him because he was a poor alcoholic, basically. My district manager made me fire him because he was a little buzzed one day, and she forced me to do it as a punishment for hiring him against the permission of the owner and herself. His apartment had a chair in it. A chair. And he had nothing except for that shitty job I gave him, and no prospects. I'll never forget his name: John.
 
^ That is so sad, but good on you for giving him a go....hopefully someones else did after you too...
Samadhi said:
I avoid ogrish-style videos and pictures, as images like that stay with me for a very very long time. Things I watched/saw when i was in my late teens/early twenties still haunt me I remember there was thread in the lounge devoted to the most shocking vids/images people could find, and one set of images affected me so much that i immediately started sobbing hysterically. I really just can't comprehend the potential for depravity in humans. In saying all of that, i have always had an interest in the psychology of that depravity, and have had a keen interest in the pathology of serial killers, and the like, but I can never look at imagery regarding cruelty, sadism, thrill-killing, or really, any kind of death. I can't stand when media post graphic images on the news either.

The other day, a woman was killed here in Melbourne, when she was struck and run over by a tram (street car). The news posted a photo of the scene, with the police in front of the tram, and the pixelated image of her body. Reading through the article, it mentioned that her family had not bee notified of her death. Could you imagine being a family member, reading the news, and happening upon this articles - thinking to yourself "wow, poor woman, i feel for her family, that's a graphic image", only to receive a phone call later to let you know that your sister/wife/daughter had been the woman killed and to realise that that you'd seen a pixelated photo of her laying broken in the street? I can't fathom how that would feel

Everyone in Australia (and some of our OS friends) has heard about the huge issue raised around the brutal treatment of our Australian cattle when exported live to Indonesia? This all came to a head when hidden camera footage was released of the horrific treatment of the cattle in Indonesian abattoirs. I won't go into detail, but reading about it was enough. I have avoided the audio and visual imagery of it, because I know that i will stay with me for god knows how long. I just can't bring myself to watch it.
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I can completely feel you on all of this Samadhi. I remember seeing some pictures once of what KFC does to their chickens and some other animal cruelty videos where men were just abusing beef cattle, hitting them, breaking their legs and obviously getting great pleasure whenever they bellowed in pain. It just horrified me, and to hear them crying out like that just made me so sad. Even reading a newspaper can make me cry and I can't understand how people can do that, and not understand other people's and animals' pain.

I remember one time when I was about 16 and on a pill, and as everyone had fallen asleep I went to the computer and something possessed me to check out a site I'd heard about, 'Rotten'. An image I saw on there absolutely haunted me, I remember hardly even being able to move, thinking that if I moved that'd be the end of me. It absolutely fucked me up. I just try and avoid those kind of images as much as I can these days.
 
i also feel the same about this kind of thing, i think about it alot and it plays on my mind. one video that bothered me for awhile was the two teenagers who smashed a guys face in with a hammer in some woods and then poked his eyes and stomach with a screw driver, i cant comprehend how some people can be so fucked up and do things like that. but ultimately its just a part of life, the same way other animals in the wild rip each other to bits etc
 
Oh god, you're referring to the Dnepropetrovsk maniacs :(. I read about them, but have made a point of never looking at any imagery regarding their depravity. I can't begin to fathom the things they did to animals, and later, humans :(

As for human nature vs animal behaviour... most species of animal will generally only kill for food, but there are also a number of species that essentially kill for fun. There was a case where a pod of dolphins were found to be responsible for a spate of porpoise killings in the US. There have been cases of chimpanzees who kill other chimps - sometimes a gang of chimps will kill a single chimp. Other animals will play with their prey before killing them (cats with mice, etc). Look at dogs and cats, wolves and domestic dogs... it's not just in humans to commit acts of depravity - it's just that we have a higher-functioning brain - ability to think critically, ingenuity to develop ideas, etc which unfortunately allow us to be cruel and sadistic in a number of ways. We also have opposable thumbs which enable us to carry out those ideas.
 
I quite literally cannot be exposed to graphic violence in any form. OP, you're definitely not alone. I avoid websites such as the ones mentioned.

The most violent thing I have ever personally witnessed is a motorcycle accident. I won't get into details beyond that I witnessed it when I was a senior in high school, driving to classes at 7:30 AM. The cyclist tried to cross a railroad track and was killed in the process.

I am affected to this day.

Fawkes and Samadhi and all others in the thread - <3
 
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