Ever feel Like You Are Disappearing?

[Mycophile]

Fuck it.

Kind of a stupid thread maybe.

I'm drunk on Sherry of all things, disgusting, I only drank it in desperation cause it was the only thing around.

However, I have gotten increasingly spiritual lately since i take large doses of Melatonin every night and it has started to give me lucid dreams and being in a depressed and sort of hopeless state my dreams have become almost as psychedelic as acid trips I had years earlier.

I've never posted here but being the "dark side" I guess it's welcome...

Who else here has both felt daily and had dreams where they felt they were "disapearing"??

I am mean this is some "dark shit"......I don't even wanna be here AT ALL....this isn't by choice but what do you do when you have dreams which are dark as shit where you wake up feeling desperate the next day?

What do you do when you have this pervasive dark feeling?


I considered not leaving this thread but you know what? I'm leaving it anyway...it express a current state I've had...peace

 

[CrowetheCat]

Most of the time I want to disappear. I hope I do one day. It's my mission in life.

 

[herbavore]

We are all disappearing slowly. That's just a fact--one I see a lot clearer in my sixties than I did in my twenties.

You are born from a mystery and that is the same mystery you will die back into. While you are here, there is an amazing world around you that you can either ignore while wrapped up in your own ego's clamoring voice or experience fully by understanding your own impermanence. I can't understand why anyone would choose the former when the latter goes by in a flash anyway.

 

[Maya]

Whenever I have those dreams, I just let it be, sometimes it will take me days before I go back to reality and tell myself "it is just a dream" and whether it happens or not IRL, I just have to always be ready whatever happens happens.

In the past I had more dreams where I feel like they were nightmares, and most of my dreams are related to fighting a dark force or an evil entity. In these dreams I would always pray and it is weird because I have lost faith in God "being a devout Catholic to an Atheist", although there are days when I am caught in the middle and not sure what I should believe anymore.