Escalating Usage of CNS depressants

[silver_lining]

Valium, Tapentadol, Soma & Zopiclone on the regular. Valium for anxiety, tapentadol for pain management, Soma for relaxation & tension, Zopiclone for sleep.

Sometimes for weeks I will only take Valium, then taper and withdrawal for a month. Then Soma for relaxation, tension & to just escape the non stop battle in my brain. Tapentadol usually only 1-2 days a month, sometimes for a week. Zopiclone usually just for sleep when i'm abstaining from all the others.

Several years of this cycle now. I'm lost. I keep tapering and quitting, and then the anxiety always gets the best of me.

I'll never get out of this maze.

 

[paltatomate]

have you thought about the underlying cause of your anxiety?
if you can get to that, you could work on it and then maybe you had a better chance of becoming less dependent on your meds.
then, you could try find something that distracts you from the battle in your brain. exercise, being in nature, or finding an interesting hobby works for many people with similar issues.

sometimes, though, some of use need the meds.
and in this case it's a good thing to be responsible about them, while not fighting against that need.

 

[emkee_reinvented]

Valium, Tapentadol, Soma & Zopiclone on the regular. Valium for anxiety, tapentadol for pain management, Soma for relaxation & tension, Zopiclone for sleep.

Sometimes for weeks I will only take Valium, then taper and withdrawal for a month. Then Soma for relaxation, tension & to just escape the non stop battle in my brain. Tapentadol usually only 1-2 days a month, sometimes for a week. Zopiclone usually just for sleep when i'm abstaining from all the others.

Several years of this cycle now. I'm lost. I keep tapering and quitting, and then the anxiety always gets the best of me.

I'll never get out of this maze.

Preventing getting deeper if possible would be fine as first step. So not escalating but stabilating on from there you get look what now.


Your btw not in the maze alone, I am in it to, and a lot of people. Doing atm myself the above, while the goal is important.
Not on-uptainable just not at once. Tapering/ switching/ relapses and no professional help avaialable so.
Only option for me DIY.

So instead of it coming from within it will also start from within. Might be a option i miss or don t see.
Don t think so really, its has to come imo from inside out.

 

[silver_lining]

have you thought about the underlying cause of your anxiety?
if you can get to that, you could work on it and then maybe you had a better chance of becoming less dependent on your meds.
then, you could try find something that distracts you from the battle in your brain. exercise, being in nature, or finding an interesting hobby works for many people with similar issues.

sometimes, though, some of use need the meds.
and in this case it's a good thing to be responsible about them, while not fighting against that need.

i've had panic attacks and anxiety pops up for no reason damn near daily since i was a child. My hippie parents never let any doctors put me on anything, so at a young age i self medicated with marijuana. Now i'm nearing 50 and weed just escalates my panic & anxiety, rather than alleviate it now days. Sucks. So i seeked medical treatment with my PCP and he started me on klonopins but wouldnt refill it monthly. So i quickly learned to source my own and then found valium is way better for me than any other benzo. Then i sourced the other meds myself as well, i keep it all to very sub level dosages for the most part with breaks. Last thing i want to do is turn 20mg per day habbit to a 200mg daily habit. So i've got good self control but just keep slipping because of those underlying issues. It stems from a handful of incidents that left me with tremendous PTSD the last 10 years. I just want to feel normal, and the meds do that for me. But i don't want to take the damn meds. Around & around i go.

 

[Pickledlemons]

have you thought about the underlying cause of your anxiety?

I've heard being alive is common a cause.

 

[paltatomate]

@silver_lining Sorry about your situation. PTSD is a bitch.

 

[Juniper Bruhmomentius]

No wonder, like 60% of my friends are addicted to especially benzos and opiates, me included, and the cause is on the regular ptsd

 

[emkee_reinvented]

PTSD sucks, but Mental Healtcare more. Got written black/ white:

-EMDR treatment aproved but never had it.
-Therapie for the trauma, ended. Why my luny neighbour gave the police a false notice on me.
They don t have to check notices if they are factually true. But they do become fact after, trough some kind of loop in the law ?
And as the cops are above the law, they shared this lie about me with the mental instituition, unknowingly/ and without consent.
Another breach in the peace and law and as result: treatment was stopped.

Had to ask up and read my dossier afterwards for the truth, fucking retards. Payed bastards ! They lie in your face, when your hit rock bottom.

Good, never gonna use mental or any gouvernemental health institution, unless i am dying offcourse.

 

[Jen X]

Back when I was diagnosed with ptsd(15ish years) I was given all the benzos I wanted. No one ever mentioned that I would become dependent on them. I hope now doctors are trying other things and only using benzos for when absolutely nessary.
The Ashton manual is used to help people getting off of them but you need to address the issues causing you to need them.
Try to cut your dose down and take as little as possible.
You should go to a doctor and be honest about all drug use.

 

[evo4ever]

I echo what some of the others have said, quit one drug at a time by tapering. In terms of potency Tapentadol is no where near the potency of say Hydrocodone. Morphine, and Oxycodone. It's regarded as a weak opioid. I'd do a rapid taper if I were you, the withdrawals should be mild.