PuffinMuffins
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Jun 23, 2018
- Messages
- 10
I'm honestly not sure if this is the right forum for this, just the closest I found here.
I know I need to see an actual doctor, I haven't in years due to fear of what I might find out. When I went before a few years back, I got a lot of generally discomforting feedback (like whoa your lung capacity/circulation/heart rhythm etc etc sure doesn't seem ideal, you need to see specialists about x number of potential issues) and just never went back haha.
So I'm 26, have used relatively harder drugs at least on a "weekender" basis since I was like, 11. Developed a rapidly worsening heroin addiction by 15, save for a couple month-long sobriety attempts was basically a every-6-hour user til 2 years ago. I gradually quit opioids altogether a little over a year ago after tapering my intake with mostly methadone for about a year.
Prior to the worst period of my addiction, my cycles had always been pretty regular. Gradually became lighter and less frequent a few years into usage, until I totally lost my period for about 3 years.
It wasn't til about a month before I quit h (when I'd been tapering my dosage prior to getting on methadone) I think, when my periods returned. My first period since its absense was fucking horrifyingly painful and heavy. Since then its been the most erratic bs I've ever seen. 3 months of no period, then a 12-day-nearly-faint-from-blood-loss period, then 3 weeks of peace until a normal 4 day period, then 2 months of nothing, etc.
Lately they've been *extremely* painful. My roommate recently asked me to describe the feeling - the first thought I had was "like someone is twisting a corkscrew into my intestines". It's like my entire uterine/intestinal area, he'll my whole torso sometimes, is just being torn tf apart. It's the most painful when it's especially heavy, which it has been lately.
What recently occurred to me is that this is the exact sequence of events my mom dealt with when hitting menopause. This has of course scared me off from seeking medical advice even more, because I'm unrealistic like that and just love to ignore my problems even if ignoring them makes them worse. One self-improvement mission at a time, guys.
So is that here anyone with any knowledge or advice etc about this?
I know I need to see an actual doctor, I haven't in years due to fear of what I might find out. When I went before a few years back, I got a lot of generally discomforting feedback (like whoa your lung capacity/circulation/heart rhythm etc etc sure doesn't seem ideal, you need to see specialists about x number of potential issues) and just never went back haha.
So I'm 26, have used relatively harder drugs at least on a "weekender" basis since I was like, 11. Developed a rapidly worsening heroin addiction by 15, save for a couple month-long sobriety attempts was basically a every-6-hour user til 2 years ago. I gradually quit opioids altogether a little over a year ago after tapering my intake with mostly methadone for about a year.
Prior to the worst period of my addiction, my cycles had always been pretty regular. Gradually became lighter and less frequent a few years into usage, until I totally lost my period for about 3 years.
It wasn't til about a month before I quit h (when I'd been tapering my dosage prior to getting on methadone) I think, when my periods returned. My first period since its absense was fucking horrifyingly painful and heavy. Since then its been the most erratic bs I've ever seen. 3 months of no period, then a 12-day-nearly-faint-from-blood-loss period, then 3 weeks of peace until a normal 4 day period, then 2 months of nothing, etc.
Lately they've been *extremely* painful. My roommate recently asked me to describe the feeling - the first thought I had was "like someone is twisting a corkscrew into my intestines". It's like my entire uterine/intestinal area, he'll my whole torso sometimes, is just being torn tf apart. It's the most painful when it's especially heavy, which it has been lately.
What recently occurred to me is that this is the exact sequence of events my mom dealt with when hitting menopause. This has of course scared me off from seeking medical advice even more, because I'm unrealistic like that and just love to ignore my problems even if ignoring them makes them worse. One self-improvement mission at a time, guys.
So is that here anyone with any knowledge or advice etc about this?