Emotional Ramblings Of The Birthday Boy...

[Larr_E]

So i'm 27 today
Don't say happy birthday to me
I can't think of anything that I can be happy about
When my brother was this age he had come back from war, had a wife and two kids
My dad had two kids, a wife and three motorcycles and a trike
My grandfather had 4 sons, a wife and killed more Koreans than Hyundai
I don't even have any pets
I make car payments on a car that everyone in the world loves but me
I can't seem to keep a steady girl that isn't crazy, bisexual or a stripper
They usually are an all three in one package too
I sit in front of a TV set when Jeopardy is on and amaze the shit out of people with the stuff I know and I have no degree to back it up.
I don't even know where I come up with this stuff
I mean how the fuck do I know that Connecticut is the nutmeg state
or Babylonian mathematicians came up with the Pythagorean theorem before Pythagoras
That shit doesn't help me in the real world
I seem to get strep throat every three months and the doctors wont take my tonsils out because its too dangerous
The count down to the race of life started and ended
The race is on
I'm just out of the gate
I'm grinding my gears and stuck in neutral
Like I said, this is just ramblings
I'm not going to off myself
but if I did...
...would it be so bad?
What would be the major impact if I died tonight in my sleep
Even if it was of natural causes
People would cry for about a day to a couple of months
They would say "That's horrible, he was a great guy"
and go on about there business
There are 4 people who want my job at work
My parents are in there 50's
They will enjoy there twilight years and prey for my soul at night
My brother is a little too self absorbed to let it affect him
I think that might be a good thing
My nephews? They oldest one is 8
I'd just be that guy they remember from when they were little that took them places sometimes
At First my friends will get blindly drunk every weekend
Then they will toast a drink to me every now and then but eventually I'll just be one of the guys they remember whenever they hear Bro Hymn
So would it be so bad?
I don't believe in heaven or hell so I guess nothing would happen
I mean really? Would it be so bad???






Atmosphere can say it better than I ever could
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hoLxuyV9qz8

 

[MynameisnotDeja]

Nice internal rambling piece.. kinda depressing though.
I hope you don't really feel that way and were just venting.

It's sorta funny, because I'm the same age but view almost all those things you said about yourself, in my life as GOOD things (no degree, no kids, etc). I'm FREE. And so are you!

 

[Mehm]

the nature of life is that everything is of both total and no importance. Tight that you know everything on Jeopardy. Hope you feel better if you don't already.

peace

 

[youarewhatyouis]

that song you posted is fuckin fire........ never heard that one before

and I feel the exact same way every time I have to face up to my family because I have nothing and I am nothing........ I don't even want them to look at me sometimes. I hate to be praised for doing nothing.

my mom was actually congratulating me last week because I quit smoking weed, and it made me realize where I'm at in my life right now. It's sad for me to think about it...... I don't think that when I was a little newborn baby..... I don't think my mom was looking into her sons eyes and thinking "I hope my son can kick his weed habit before he hits his thirties, goddamn that would make me so proud."

and would it be so bad? Hell yeah it would be bad, losing a friend really sucks. It's more than just "oh let's just toast this guy when his song comes on," it's way more than that.