hey there yall,
i just wanted to give an update on myself since i have gone through the same thing a few of you are going through relating to anxiety after use of synthetic marijuana. i posted in a different thread on bluelight about 7 months ago when i was feeling especially bad.
ill start with a little background on how i came to be afflicted with the condition. i was smoking various blends from the local headshop for a few months. daily i would smoke these blends, mostly two or three times a day. i started to develop anxiety while i was still smoking but figured it was due to circumstances going on in my life. i was interviewing for jobs and i had just gotten married to my beautiful scottish wife who just obtained a green card to live in the states. in early may of last year and on my 2nd week of my new job, i started to have severe numbess on the left side of my body along with heavy anxiety. my thinking was that i was having a heart attack but it slightly subsided over the course of a few days but was still pretty bad.
after this i started to have constant anxiety, insomnia, pressure in my left arm and left side of my head, depersonalization and tension in various parts of my body like my neck and shoulders. i spent loads of time on the internet frantically trying to find out what was wrong with me and believing all types of ridiculous things had happened to me. eventually i went to the doctor and they scared the shit out of me even more when she told me that i could possibly have ms. it wouldnt be until 2 weeks after she said that i would have an mri to make sure. as you could imagine, those 2 weeks sucked. eventually the mri came back negative and i was pretty damn relieved but i was still feeling all the original symptoms but at a slightly less degree. at this time it was probably about 2.5 months into the condition.
during all of this i was eating very well, exercising daily and taking b vitamins after the doctor told me my b12 and folic acid levels were low. this was probably due to the fact that i am vegetarian but low b12 does cause anxiety in certain individuals. also, i started going to neurofeedback sessions which relieved a good deal of anxiety. i dont feel like going into the details of neurofeedback right now but check it out if youre interested. basically your brain is hooked up to a few sensors that are connected to a computer. then you either listen to music or watch a movie and when the computer detects that your brain went out of optimal "in the moment" mode then it skips the music or movie which causes your brain to scan itself and correct any abnormalities. you are conditioning your brain to always be in the same "based in the here and now" state that meditation is aiming for as well. some call neurofeedback "turbo meditation".
i was slowly getting better as each month went by but it was really hard to shake the thought that i might always slightly have this condition for the rest of my life. even though i read from several other people that they eventually got over it, it was still impossible for me to be totally convinced that i would shake the condition fully one day. right now it has been a year since i first caught this and i would say that i am 99% recovered. i know a year seems like a long ass time but this thing can take a while to release its imprint on you. most of the time i feel perfectly fine but every few days i get a slight pressure on the left side of my head or in my left arm. that is pretty much the extent of it and i know with a few more healthy months, i can fully be over this.
if you are out there and are experiencing this horrible condition, try not to worry so much as hard as that might be. eventually you will feel back to normal. i would know. i went through a horrible, horrible year and i am so thankful that i am sitting here right now not feeling like how i was many months ago. one thing i must say to the few people who said they still feel the same as they did a while ago but are taking other drugs or drinking, stop! they might temporarily relieve your symptoms but you are not training your body to function in a natural, healthy way so it will not try and rebalance itself.
godspeed to all and TRUST ME, you will get better if you try to live a healthy and natural life. we have all been taught a valuable lesson from this. respect your body and dont mess around with synthetic rubbish.
peace!
