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Ecstasy use (abuse?) and getting sex stuff back on track

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Hey Ya'll,

I am a 46 y.o. female. A little more than a year ago I went through a meat-grinder of stress at my disaster recovery job. I was having serious trouble coping and no immediate therapeutic options, when my husband suggested I take microdoses of ecstasy for the anxiety I was experiencing. I don't know why I went along with this. Making good decisions was not part of my personal life at that time. So almost every day I would dip a wet finger into a pack of ecstasy powder and then lick my finger. This worked fabulously for about a month. I ended up handling my workload with uber-competence and my life became very beautiful. One of the last days I was doing this, I noticed that my orgasms suddenly weren't coming. They didn't trail off, just one moment I stopped being able to have them. Then, about 20 days later, my period came about 5 days early and was strange, scant, and watery. It's a year later, and my period has gotten half back on track. Similarly the orgasms are kinda happening, occassionally, instead of dependably and wonderfully as before the ecstasy binge. I still have a lot of desire and get really turned on, but then when I should be feeling an orgasm coming on, there's nothing. It's like...."hello? is anybody home up in there?"

Does anyone have any suggestions for helping me recover my previous fertile, orgasmic (normal) self? I'm at my wit's end and am also in a wonderful new relationship with a beautiful man....and the lack of orgasms is taking its toll on it.

I am currently taking Wellbutrin and DHEA (10 mg) to help. I have just ordered some Piracetam, but don't know what dosage to take. I jack off relatively regularly if for no other reason that to keep the pathways open. Sometime I get an orgasm, sometimes not. But these orgasms are nowhere near juicy. Just ho-hum.

I also seem to have lost some ability to feel satisfaction from life.

Thanks for being there bluelight people.
 
I have no personal experience with ecstasy, however I do have a couple theories here. Stress can do awful things to our female parts, as well as our sex lives.
Did you lose a lot of weight quickly while doing the ecstasy? That could be a contributing factor in the change in cycle (missing/different?) especially if you were already thin to begin with.
Also, maybe, the stress (even though work induced) was 'heightened' by premenopausal hormonal shifts?!? This could really be the root of all the problems. Have you been to the dr? (I'm sure you have since your on Wellbutrin.) You may need to have a hormone work up (panel?) done to see.
Just my 2 cents biased on my current knowledge of being a woman myself. Prob not too helpful but maybe some good for thought somewhere in my rambling.
PS. Always trying to support my fellow BL women! :)
 
Give it more time and visit a doctor. Taking a 'finger-dip' of MDMA everyday for a month straight is gonna be a long recovery in the making.
 
MDMA abuse can cause deregulation of prolactin, the hormone responsible for sexual pleasure. In nearly all cases this is not permanent but with that kind of use, it's hard to say. You will get back to normal in due time, we all do. Either things will go back to the way they were or you will get accustomed to it and find new routes for pleasure.


You may want to look over the Sex, Love and Relationships forum here on BL, it's a wonderful bunch of horny bastards who want to help haha
 
^ And just sticking your finger in a bag, this could be an absolutely varying unmeasured dos, this could have been a significant amount every day. I'm not trying to scare you as you've done we'll to not do it for a year, but the brain is amazing at recovery over time (in my own experience).

After a year you can notice that they are coming back, imagine how good it will be after another year.

Don't lose hope and keep a positive attitude, that's the best way to be on the path to recovery.
 
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