Putingrad
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Date: February 17, 2006
Location: Concert (Particle)
Amount: 2 and a half pills total
Saturday had finally come around after a stressful week of school and work. That night Particle, a group of incredible musicians, would be playing a show, and me and all of my friends were going to be there. I got the idea in my head that now would be the time to try ecstasy again, my last experience with it was over a year ago and had been decidedly lackluster. I have always been highly skeptical of ecstasy because of its notorious impurity, however I decided to take the plunge after hearing from some friends that the pills I would be getting were good (which turned out to be more true than I could ever have predicted). I am going to order a test kit soon for future occasions.
Me and my girlfriend got 5 pills together which we would take that night. My girlfriend is much more experienced with ecstasy than I am, and we were both eager to experience it together for the first time. We all went to a friend's house beforehand to smoke some bowls and get geared up for the night.
9:45 PM -
My girlfriend and I drop our first pills. We are the only ones in our group of friends rolling tonight. I am excited, but don't have too high hopes after my lacking first experiences and my skepticism of ecstasy in general.
10:25 PM -
We all get to the show. I have just gotten a slight "floaty" feeling and a little body energy not too unlike the come up of a trip (I am very experienced with mushrooms, and a little with acid). I go to the bathroom, it was very hard for me to piss but I eventually do. My pupils are thoroughly dilated. Body feelings are subtle but growing. I am liking this so far!
10:35 PM -
My girlfriend and I take our second pills.
I head to where the music's at! Wow. Jam band music with dancey beats and electronic undertones, I am definitely loving this music. The rushes are starting to come on with much more intensity. I am always one of the people dancing their ass off at a show not caring what anyone else thinks, and I am going nuts right now to the beats! Happiness.
11:15 PM -
I have just been dancing and feeling the incredible body energy for the past 40 minutes. I start to feel the second pill hitting me. I am now officially ROLLING. The love starts to come. These people... amazing. My friends, my girlfriend... so beautiful. I am patting every on the back, talking to everyone, letting them know how great it is to be here and how happy I am that they're here with me. I dance with my girlfriend and kiss her as much as I can. We are one. I realize I am incredibly thirsty and that staying hydrated is important while rolling. It is hard for me to leave her even for just a minute, but I do. Me and my best friend leave to grab some water. This feeling is absolutely incredible. I drink some big gulps of water and start talking to my best friend, Ben, by the water fountain. It all comes out of me - how wonderful a person he is, how he's my best friend, how much I love him, how much we've been through in the short time we've known each other (we're both college freshman in a totally different area). We've talked about this before, but never this easily and without any inhibition. He is not even rolling but the same things are coming out of him. We stand there for 20 minutes hugging and talking and laughing and reminiscing about the past six months of our lives, talking about where we are now and where we're going, and how much we've grown and changed together and what this college experience is like. This conversation cemented the two of us like nothing else, and we have since reached a whole new level of friendship.
One last hug and it's back to the floor!
11:45 AM -
Peaking. Unbelievable, ineffable. I cannot stop exclaiming "wow," "oh my god!," "amazing!" I am dancing by the two most important people in my life, my girlfriend and my best friend. My other friends are all around also, and I keep running into acquaintances and people I've seen around and getting into great friendly introductions and conversations with them. Body rushes that start from the center of my body and explode outwards, constant orgasming! I feel more alive than I ever have in my life. I tell my girlfriend how much she means to me, she is saying the same. We kiss and I am in heaven. We have not been together long and the path which got us to where we are now has been strange, but wonderful. She is so great.
I am blown away by how smooth it feels, it is not speedy, just pure happiness. I have absolutely zero side effects, none of the jaw clenching or eye wiggling that people sometimes speak of, only thing I noticed is that when I would try to piss throughout the night I couldn't.
When this night started, I had no idea what would be in store and just how wonderful this experience was going to be.
1:45 AM - The show ends abruptly it seems, I am starting to come down when it ends. All of a sudden there is no more incredible music and the amazing feeling is not there in the same way it was the past couple hours. I want nothing more than to be back there again. I start to feel very crappy and depressed. This was the only bad part of the entire experience. I felt a strong urge to take more, I wanted it so badly. The experience was amazing, almost too amazing, and this compulsive/addiction type feeling I got weirded me out (I have never experienced an intense craving like this for drugs before), and its for this reason that I am going to limit the amount of ecstasy I do because it feels like something I could easily start doing too much of if I didn't keep myself in check.
2:00 AM -
Me and my girlfriend each snort half of the pill we have left. I am back up again, not nearly at the same level I was earlier, but enough to make the depressed feeling go away.
2:30 AM -
We go back to my friend's place to chill. We all chill, take bong hits, relax. I am feeling great but not very stimulated, I am content to sit.
4:00 AM -
Me and my girlfriend head back to our dorms. We are walking along, just the two of us alone, talking, holding hands, kissing. Such strange circumstances that brought us together, neither of us could have predicted it. We talk - about us, about each other. Our relationship is still quite new and we jumped into it fast, and are still learning about each other and ironing out the kinks. We both feel a strong connection with the other and talk about this. We say how wonderful it is that we are together, and what we love about each other. Just as with my best friend, my girlfriend and I reached a new level after this night. I have had bad relationship experience, and I have never met anyone who I got on with so quickly and so well as I have with her. I love every moment I spend with her, and I feel that we have something which will just continue to grow and grow.
4:30 AM –
We get back to her room, we are coming down and exhausted. The comedown was not anywhere near as bad and weird as the first one, I think weed helped a lot. We fall asleep in each other’s arms.
11:00 AM –
I wake up. I try to sleep more as my girlfriend still is, but cannot for some reason. My mind is racing with the recollections of the night before, and how much of an incredible experience it was. I am glowing from it. I am reflecting on where I am in my life, how I am more content now than ever before. I have been through some shit, but this new experience in a completely new town and has been incredible. I love my routine, I love life. These feelings had been building up in me for the past couple of months now, and they would have come out at some point, in some form. But the ecstasy forced it out in one cathartic supernova. Everything I said and felt that night was real, it was inside me, it just needed to come out, and this experience did just that.
I tell my girlfriend I am going to get some food and go for a bike ride, she stays to sleep some more. I run into my best friend, we are both going to get food. I am glowing and stunned by the profundity of the night before. We eat, I feel compelled to talk to him more. We walk down to the creek, climb one of the trees and sit on a branch. I tell him how everything I said last night I meant from the bottom of my heart, it was all there even if it was a chemical catalyst that brought it out, and I told him that it would have come out eventually, maybe not so suddenly though. He says he knows. We talk more about life and each other. It is through him that I met my girlfriend, and the three of us became good friends and hang out all the time. He was there as our relationship continued to grow and grow and grow, he watched it happen, he was there every step of the way. I thank him for everything. I start crying tears of happiness. We hug more, such an amazing person. After awhile we part ways.
I hop on my bike, riding my bike is one of my favorite things to do in the world, I do it a couple hours total everyday for exercise and it’s also how I get around. It’s a very meditative thing for me. I am riding around my town, along the bike paths, feeling alive and glowing. Families, children, the young, the old, all out enjoying a beautiful Sunday morning. I am overcome with love for humanity. Everything is simply wonderful. I am moved practically to tears again as I glide along.
My mind turns to my girlfriend again. She is all I can think about. I can’t wait to get back to her, I want nothing more than to make love to her and let her know how much I care about her. I head back.
1:30 PM –
I get back to her room. I made another topic about what followed, because it was incredible and wanted to know if others have felt anything similar: http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/showthread.php?t=294041
It was an amazing sensation, and the best sex of ours lives.
I can say honestly that this was one of the most profound, powerful experiences of my life. The afterglow lasted for several days, and I still am in awe of all that happened. I feel in many ways like I have opened a new chapter in my life, or at least have come to terms with this new chapter. This was truly an experience that requires integration, I have had many trips, many overwhelming and powerful, but really nothing has put me to this level of clarity and contentment and left such an impression on me afterwards as ecstasy did.
Thanks for reading all of this if you did, I needed to put all of what happened down for my own sake!
Location: Concert (Particle)
Amount: 2 and a half pills total
Saturday had finally come around after a stressful week of school and work. That night Particle, a group of incredible musicians, would be playing a show, and me and all of my friends were going to be there. I got the idea in my head that now would be the time to try ecstasy again, my last experience with it was over a year ago and had been decidedly lackluster. I have always been highly skeptical of ecstasy because of its notorious impurity, however I decided to take the plunge after hearing from some friends that the pills I would be getting were good (which turned out to be more true than I could ever have predicted). I am going to order a test kit soon for future occasions.
Me and my girlfriend got 5 pills together which we would take that night. My girlfriend is much more experienced with ecstasy than I am, and we were both eager to experience it together for the first time. We all went to a friend's house beforehand to smoke some bowls and get geared up for the night.
9:45 PM -
My girlfriend and I drop our first pills. We are the only ones in our group of friends rolling tonight. I am excited, but don't have too high hopes after my lacking first experiences and my skepticism of ecstasy in general.
10:25 PM -
We all get to the show. I have just gotten a slight "floaty" feeling and a little body energy not too unlike the come up of a trip (I am very experienced with mushrooms, and a little with acid). I go to the bathroom, it was very hard for me to piss but I eventually do. My pupils are thoroughly dilated. Body feelings are subtle but growing. I am liking this so far!
10:35 PM -
My girlfriend and I take our second pills.
I head to where the music's at! Wow. Jam band music with dancey beats and electronic undertones, I am definitely loving this music. The rushes are starting to come on with much more intensity. I am always one of the people dancing their ass off at a show not caring what anyone else thinks, and I am going nuts right now to the beats! Happiness.
11:15 PM -
I have just been dancing and feeling the incredible body energy for the past 40 minutes. I start to feel the second pill hitting me. I am now officially ROLLING. The love starts to come. These people... amazing. My friends, my girlfriend... so beautiful. I am patting every on the back, talking to everyone, letting them know how great it is to be here and how happy I am that they're here with me. I dance with my girlfriend and kiss her as much as I can. We are one. I realize I am incredibly thirsty and that staying hydrated is important while rolling. It is hard for me to leave her even for just a minute, but I do. Me and my best friend leave to grab some water. This feeling is absolutely incredible. I drink some big gulps of water and start talking to my best friend, Ben, by the water fountain. It all comes out of me - how wonderful a person he is, how he's my best friend, how much I love him, how much we've been through in the short time we've known each other (we're both college freshman in a totally different area). We've talked about this before, but never this easily and without any inhibition. He is not even rolling but the same things are coming out of him. We stand there for 20 minutes hugging and talking and laughing and reminiscing about the past six months of our lives, talking about where we are now and where we're going, and how much we've grown and changed together and what this college experience is like. This conversation cemented the two of us like nothing else, and we have since reached a whole new level of friendship.
One last hug and it's back to the floor!
11:45 AM -
Peaking. Unbelievable, ineffable. I cannot stop exclaiming "wow," "oh my god!," "amazing!" I am dancing by the two most important people in my life, my girlfriend and my best friend. My other friends are all around also, and I keep running into acquaintances and people I've seen around and getting into great friendly introductions and conversations with them. Body rushes that start from the center of my body and explode outwards, constant orgasming! I feel more alive than I ever have in my life. I tell my girlfriend how much she means to me, she is saying the same. We kiss and I am in heaven. We have not been together long and the path which got us to where we are now has been strange, but wonderful. She is so great.
I am blown away by how smooth it feels, it is not speedy, just pure happiness. I have absolutely zero side effects, none of the jaw clenching or eye wiggling that people sometimes speak of, only thing I noticed is that when I would try to piss throughout the night I couldn't.
When this night started, I had no idea what would be in store and just how wonderful this experience was going to be.
1:45 AM - The show ends abruptly it seems, I am starting to come down when it ends. All of a sudden there is no more incredible music and the amazing feeling is not there in the same way it was the past couple hours. I want nothing more than to be back there again. I start to feel very crappy and depressed. This was the only bad part of the entire experience. I felt a strong urge to take more, I wanted it so badly. The experience was amazing, almost too amazing, and this compulsive/addiction type feeling I got weirded me out (I have never experienced an intense craving like this for drugs before), and its for this reason that I am going to limit the amount of ecstasy I do because it feels like something I could easily start doing too much of if I didn't keep myself in check.
2:00 AM -
Me and my girlfriend each snort half of the pill we have left. I am back up again, not nearly at the same level I was earlier, but enough to make the depressed feeling go away.
2:30 AM -
We go back to my friend's place to chill. We all chill, take bong hits, relax. I am feeling great but not very stimulated, I am content to sit.
4:00 AM -
Me and my girlfriend head back to our dorms. We are walking along, just the two of us alone, talking, holding hands, kissing. Such strange circumstances that brought us together, neither of us could have predicted it. We talk - about us, about each other. Our relationship is still quite new and we jumped into it fast, and are still learning about each other and ironing out the kinks. We both feel a strong connection with the other and talk about this. We say how wonderful it is that we are together, and what we love about each other. Just as with my best friend, my girlfriend and I reached a new level after this night. I have had bad relationship experience, and I have never met anyone who I got on with so quickly and so well as I have with her. I love every moment I spend with her, and I feel that we have something which will just continue to grow and grow.
4:30 AM –
We get back to her room, we are coming down and exhausted. The comedown was not anywhere near as bad and weird as the first one, I think weed helped a lot. We fall asleep in each other’s arms.
11:00 AM –
I wake up. I try to sleep more as my girlfriend still is, but cannot for some reason. My mind is racing with the recollections of the night before, and how much of an incredible experience it was. I am glowing from it. I am reflecting on where I am in my life, how I am more content now than ever before. I have been through some shit, but this new experience in a completely new town and has been incredible. I love my routine, I love life. These feelings had been building up in me for the past couple of months now, and they would have come out at some point, in some form. But the ecstasy forced it out in one cathartic supernova. Everything I said and felt that night was real, it was inside me, it just needed to come out, and this experience did just that.
I tell my girlfriend I am going to get some food and go for a bike ride, she stays to sleep some more. I run into my best friend, we are both going to get food. I am glowing and stunned by the profundity of the night before. We eat, I feel compelled to talk to him more. We walk down to the creek, climb one of the trees and sit on a branch. I tell him how everything I said last night I meant from the bottom of my heart, it was all there even if it was a chemical catalyst that brought it out, and I told him that it would have come out eventually, maybe not so suddenly though. He says he knows. We talk more about life and each other. It is through him that I met my girlfriend, and the three of us became good friends and hang out all the time. He was there as our relationship continued to grow and grow and grow, he watched it happen, he was there every step of the way. I thank him for everything. I start crying tears of happiness. We hug more, such an amazing person. After awhile we part ways.
I hop on my bike, riding my bike is one of my favorite things to do in the world, I do it a couple hours total everyday for exercise and it’s also how I get around. It’s a very meditative thing for me. I am riding around my town, along the bike paths, feeling alive and glowing. Families, children, the young, the old, all out enjoying a beautiful Sunday morning. I am overcome with love for humanity. Everything is simply wonderful. I am moved practically to tears again as I glide along.
My mind turns to my girlfriend again. She is all I can think about. I can’t wait to get back to her, I want nothing more than to make love to her and let her know how much I care about her. I head back.
1:30 PM –
I get back to her room. I made another topic about what followed, because it was incredible and wanted to know if others have felt anything similar: http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/showthread.php?t=294041
It was an amazing sensation, and the best sex of ours lives.
I can say honestly that this was one of the most profound, powerful experiences of my life. The afterglow lasted for several days, and I still am in awe of all that happened. I feel in many ways like I have opened a new chapter in my life, or at least have come to terms with this new chapter. This was truly an experience that requires integration, I have had many trips, many overwhelming and powerful, but really nothing has put me to this level of clarity and contentment and left such an impression on me afterwards as ecstasy did.
Thanks for reading all of this if you did, I needed to put all of what happened down for my own sake!
