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Ecstasy MEGA-Thread: Suicide Tuesdays!

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Hello Bluelighters! We in TDS are introducing substance-specific MEGA threads. This is the Ecstasy abuse MEGA Thread. This thread will focus the unique challenges and problems caused by Ecstasy. Having a substance-specific thread allows us to create a wider discussion with a broader perspective to provide greater support to the ecstasy community. Talk about your bad experiences with shitty rolls, suicide tuesdays and all the other nasty crap that's the dark side of ecstasy!
 
I unmerged wingnut's thread because all of her threads post came before mine! So we'll just start anew :)
 
Whats the point of making "mega-threads?" Doesn't it make more sense to just post it in the forum that you are in, say for instance the "Other Drugs" forum, that in theory is its own 'mega-thread' so why make these sub mega-threads that just focus on one thing/substance and then anytime someone post something about that certain 'thing or substance' the mods get all pissed and say 'move it to the mega-thread'. Plus it get kinda confusing posting in the 'mega-threads' sense you can't really distinguished where one topic starts and another one ends.

w0rd
 
These are not MEGA-MERGED threads. That's exactly why I unmerged Wingnut's thread. These are community threads and were not created with the intent of merging all relevant threads here. These threads are for people to talk about their progress and share their struggles!

The Dark Side is here to serve all of Bluelight, not just Darksiders. That's where this idea came from.
 
Checking in.

It's my DOC, to be honest I think I'm starting to lose the magic which can only be a good thing....or lead to other drugs, god I hope not :( Monday and Tuesday were definitely shocking days :(.
 
I still don't notice the suicide tuesdays so much as the constant addictive cravings when the next weekend rolls around.

It's only the middle of the week and I'm subconsciously coming up with ideas and opportunities to do it again... bah.

The worst thing is that I lost the magic way too long ago. I don't know why I still have the desire to do it.
 
WatkynB said:
I still don't notice the suicide tuesdays so much as the constant addictive cravings when the next weekend rolls around.

It's only the middle of the week and I'm subconsciously coming up with ideas and opportunities to do it again... bah.

The worst thing is that I lost the magic way too long ago. I don't know why I still have the desire to do it.
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I hear you mate.

It's funny, I had a big year on E in 2006... I never really noticed any 'downs' at all the entire year.. Although I excelled at work and in my personal life; the year was essentially one big party...

Then I stopped, for a few reasons - mainly because I'd just gotten in a new relationship and I stopped seeing 'those friends' for a bit.. and that's when the problems started.. quite badly for a while too - but now I'm all OK, and it's now that I'm starting to want to get back into the scene a little bit; not as intensely as before, but just dabble every month or so..


It's quite funny - when I first started, the idea of 'you should only do it once a month' seemed stupid to me... but now it makes sense - I think that if you can convince yourself that it's not such a big deal; maybe the cravings won't be there..


I mean, you know EXACTLY the feeling I'm on about... the butterflies in the stomach - I have them right now because I've got some good electro on that was around in '06.. it's the mind playing tricks :)


all the best.

yas.
 
Yeah. The downs aren't much of a factor at all.

I did end up caving and doing it this weekend already, but I'm trying to limit myself to small doses. I used to scoff at taking half a pill, but I'm trying to get more out of it by taking less. [Plus it's such a waste of money!]

2008, so far, has been one big party for me. I sort of take it for granted that inevitably I'll be able to 'clean up'... not always a fair assumption to make.
 
Tuesday Blues suck. I remember sitting in the cafeteria at my college for two Tuesdays a month wanting to fucking kill myself. I think thats whats led me to picking up dope. I used to use opiates as a tool during the comedown and for those blues come Tuesday when 5-HTP just was not doing the trick. I must say though, the Tuesday Blues are worth the high.
 
Yeah i just have trouble dealing with 'coming back down to reality'. Nothing to look forward too.. had my fun.. back to work and relentless weekdays.. It hasn't been to bad for me, seems to come in an order of been emotionless, bored then slight depression.

But the high still worth the down.. 'for the moment'.
 
RexHunt said:
I managed to avoid taking pills this weekend, yay for me! Could murder for some though :/
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Good job bro, keep it up.. :)

What pushes people to take E every single weekend? I just don't understand how the hangover isn't enough of a warning sign saying 'look out, I can REALLY fuck you up.'
 
E feels like magic, it makes people very PLUR, and I love how it makes you be PLUR to everyone! But when your done the magic disappears:( :( :(

-PLUR
 
Don't forget the physical side effects besides depression-- sleep paralysis, brain zaps and mood swings. I abused MDMA for 6 months or so, couple times a week, and now 3 days after I take MDMA I'll get sleep paralysis and brain zaps pretty much every time. They eventually go away but for the time you're having them they are NOT fun. This pretty much keeps me away from MDMA, which I guess is a good thing since I've got an addictive personality.

Be careful folks and don't abuse it.
 
inotocracy
Be careful folks and don't abuse it.
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absolutely, theres more to appreciate when its something you chose to use on special occasions.

Candy Raver
E feels like magic, it makes people very PLUR, and I love how it makes you be PLUR to everyone! But when your done the magic disappears
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aye, when the honey moon ends...

when i abused E, it was not fun anymore, and just became about getting fucked up. the original intent of wanting to feel loved up and blow up with friends was gone. the falseness of those feelings shown through more then the feelings desired.

less is more folks.
 
infectedmushroom said:
Good job bro, keep it up.. :)

What pushes people to take E every single weekend? I just don't understand how the hangover isn't enough of a warning sign saying 'look out, I can REALLY fuck you up.'
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I'm not sure hey. Can't put my finger on it. I guess for that few hours any worry I have is a million miles away. That's probably it.
 
ecstasy is certainly my drug of choice, and when i first started it was all honeymoon peaches and cream, and then i submersed myself slightly more into the drug scene and i suddenly saw that it wasn't everything i wanted it to be and then some, it just like every other drug has it's downsides which can be just as bad as the rest....

i myself am now a special occasion user which has done me so much good i can't even stress it enough... and it honestly took me coming to university and making friends with non users to get to this point... and when i get back together with my user friends, we do just that, use. it's why i thank god that my school friends don't use any drugs at all because i don't know if i would be strong enough to say no...
 
Have had hundreds of MDMA experiences..
Have taken thousands of pills (well.. i guess around a thousand)

I now take 40mg citalopram for severe depression.
 
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