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Greenlighter
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- Mar 14, 2011
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Hi guys, first time poster and just wanted to share my experience with those that are looking for more information or those that just like reading this stuff.
A little background on me is that I have been going to raves since 2005 completely straight and clean. I went with good friends who did pop, but I was told that for now (by a good friend), I was forbidden to. So all in all, I was the straight guy at raves but I ALWAYS managed to find a way to enjoy myself. If anything, I probably danced harder than anyone.
Of course being in the rave scene, I got interested about ecstasy. Why so many people take it, what effect it has and how it doesn't seem to be too bad. I however, still decided that I should age a bit before taking this step.
Fast-forwarding to 2011, I am now 20 and a lot of my closer friends started using it. We went to a music festival recently which I initially found bored. Prior to going I knew a part of me would end up popping seeing as I was with 1-2 very good friends and was in a great environment.
We got there at 1p.m. and it was blazing hot. I actually didn't enjoy it as much seeing as the crowd was pretty boring, the music wasn't loud enough and it was just badly organised (compared to the raves Ive been too).
By around 3-4p.m. we were in an arena playing some rock - but me and my other friend (whom I wasn't close to) decided to go to the trance arena. He had popped 30 minutes prior to this, and so it would've (and did) kicked in when we got there.
Upon arrival, my friend starts telling the effects and we pretty much chill. He's having a good time, I'm having a good time, all is well. It was at this stage that I decided that I wanted to pop. When we left the arena we all gathered up to discuss it. My friends then ended up giving me a clover and told me to take half-half, which is now where my report actually begins -
5:30-6:00 - Take first half of the clover. Didn't bite, surprisingly not nervous at all because my mate actually split this one with me.
6:30 - Chilling at an arena with rap. Music becomes a lot more enjoyable, I find myself bopping and simply moving with the music. I also loosen up and talk a lot more, we decided to regroup (since we were initially split up for different acts).
7:00 - Sunsets and lights begin to appear brighter. I am mesmerized by them, I can feel it kicking in.
7:15 - We decide to walk to the trance arena again. At this stage, I'm feeling happy, euphoric - everything in life is more than satisfactory. The group of 8 I was with whom I was only close to 1-2 of them, has now turned into a group of 8 friends I am close with and can trust whole heartedly. Walking on grass feels like clouds/air, I'm floating. Additionally it seems as though I don't even have to tell my feet to move, it's just doing it in the right direction the way I want to go.
7:30 - Hit the trance room, music is making my body vibrate, lasers are going crazy. My brain is completely overwhelmed with the atmosphere, I smack out a few times but for some reason I quite enjoy the rolling back of my eyes (lol). I start dancing. This dancing is completely different from dancing straight. I have no planned moves, I have no idea what i'm doing. All I know is, I'm feeling great, I'm not tired at all - I just want to dance.
7:45 - I pop the other half which lasts me the whole night. My euphoric feeling as doubled with me smiling and just giving everyone around me a thumbs up should we make eye contact. I am in heaven, every day worries of life has disappeared. It doesn't matter because the only thing that does matter is me and the music.
8:30 - Other half starts to kick in and I'm dancing like crazy. I also notice that is hot as hell (only because I know I'm sweating) but I do not feel the heat. Knowing from research and my friends past experience, I take a break to get some fresh air and re-hydrate. If you're a person who's never done it and you're reading this - it is very hard to over hydrate yourself, you have complete control of your actions.
9:00 - Last hour of the peak, my friend whom I initially went to the trance arena with (just the two of us)feels like he is my best friend. The connection of mutual appreciation of the music is overwhelming. We look at each other and give each other a smile, almost as if saying "thank you for this" simultaneously. I feel as though eveyrone in the crowd is here for one purpose and one purpose only - to enjoy music and share our love for the world and each other.
10:00 - Festival finishes and the peak is declining, my jaw starts to grind like crazy but I have chewing gum. Need to constantly remind myself to stop grinding. Walked around, played some music and I was still full of energy and movement. Got home at around 12:00 and then just went to sleep.
CONCLUSION -
I've previously done weed but it isn't always a desirable feeling until you get used to it. For weed I didn't like the altered state of mind/depersonalisation/derealisation/zoning and it took a few times for me to get used to it.
I MUCH prefer ecstasy due to the mood lifting property it gives. Additionally, I also liked the fact that I was in complete 100% control and did not have any panic/anxiety during the peak. Music was orgasmic. Friends company was a blessing and dancing my ass off for an intense 30 minutes has been the best experience of my ENTIRE life.
That being said, I respect ecstasy and realise the tolerance that builds up with frequent use. Adding this to my university/study schedule, I have decided to use this only on BIG events (which is more or less every 5-6 months) to maintain the magic of it all. I also plan to keep at a low dosage for now.
Ecstasy has now opened my mind and body to something to wonderful, and like what a lot of people say - the peak decline feels like you're leaving paradise. To me it's okay - because reality isn't that bad, and paradise becomes boring after a while anyways.
Thank you so much for reading my report - it is my first one ever and I apologise for it being too long and possibly incoherent sentences I may have typed.
A little background on me is that I have been going to raves since 2005 completely straight and clean. I went with good friends who did pop, but I was told that for now (by a good friend), I was forbidden to. So all in all, I was the straight guy at raves but I ALWAYS managed to find a way to enjoy myself. If anything, I probably danced harder than anyone.
Of course being in the rave scene, I got interested about ecstasy. Why so many people take it, what effect it has and how it doesn't seem to be too bad. I however, still decided that I should age a bit before taking this step.
Fast-forwarding to 2011, I am now 20 and a lot of my closer friends started using it. We went to a music festival recently which I initially found bored. Prior to going I knew a part of me would end up popping seeing as I was with 1-2 very good friends and was in a great environment.
We got there at 1p.m. and it was blazing hot. I actually didn't enjoy it as much seeing as the crowd was pretty boring, the music wasn't loud enough and it was just badly organised (compared to the raves Ive been too).
By around 3-4p.m. we were in an arena playing some rock - but me and my other friend (whom I wasn't close to) decided to go to the trance arena. He had popped 30 minutes prior to this, and so it would've (and did) kicked in when we got there.
Upon arrival, my friend starts telling the effects and we pretty much chill. He's having a good time, I'm having a good time, all is well. It was at this stage that I decided that I wanted to pop. When we left the arena we all gathered up to discuss it. My friends then ended up giving me a clover and told me to take half-half, which is now where my report actually begins -
5:30-6:00 - Take first half of the clover. Didn't bite, surprisingly not nervous at all because my mate actually split this one with me.
6:30 - Chilling at an arena with rap. Music becomes a lot more enjoyable, I find myself bopping and simply moving with the music. I also loosen up and talk a lot more, we decided to regroup (since we were initially split up for different acts).
7:00 - Sunsets and lights begin to appear brighter. I am mesmerized by them, I can feel it kicking in.
7:15 - We decide to walk to the trance arena again. At this stage, I'm feeling happy, euphoric - everything in life is more than satisfactory. The group of 8 I was with whom I was only close to 1-2 of them, has now turned into a group of 8 friends I am close with and can trust whole heartedly. Walking on grass feels like clouds/air, I'm floating. Additionally it seems as though I don't even have to tell my feet to move, it's just doing it in the right direction the way I want to go.
7:30 - Hit the trance room, music is making my body vibrate, lasers are going crazy. My brain is completely overwhelmed with the atmosphere, I smack out a few times but for some reason I quite enjoy the rolling back of my eyes (lol). I start dancing. This dancing is completely different from dancing straight. I have no planned moves, I have no idea what i'm doing. All I know is, I'm feeling great, I'm not tired at all - I just want to dance.
7:45 - I pop the other half which lasts me the whole night. My euphoric feeling as doubled with me smiling and just giving everyone around me a thumbs up should we make eye contact. I am in heaven, every day worries of life has disappeared. It doesn't matter because the only thing that does matter is me and the music.
8:30 - Other half starts to kick in and I'm dancing like crazy. I also notice that is hot as hell (only because I know I'm sweating) but I do not feel the heat. Knowing from research and my friends past experience, I take a break to get some fresh air and re-hydrate. If you're a person who's never done it and you're reading this - it is very hard to over hydrate yourself, you have complete control of your actions.
9:00 - Last hour of the peak, my friend whom I initially went to the trance arena with (just the two of us)feels like he is my best friend. The connection of mutual appreciation of the music is overwhelming. We look at each other and give each other a smile, almost as if saying "thank you for this" simultaneously. I feel as though eveyrone in the crowd is here for one purpose and one purpose only - to enjoy music and share our love for the world and each other.
10:00 - Festival finishes and the peak is declining, my jaw starts to grind like crazy but I have chewing gum. Need to constantly remind myself to stop grinding. Walked around, played some music and I was still full of energy and movement. Got home at around 12:00 and then just went to sleep.
CONCLUSION -
I've previously done weed but it isn't always a desirable feeling until you get used to it. For weed I didn't like the altered state of mind/depersonalisation/derealisation/zoning and it took a few times for me to get used to it.
I MUCH prefer ecstasy due to the mood lifting property it gives. Additionally, I also liked the fact that I was in complete 100% control and did not have any panic/anxiety during the peak. Music was orgasmic. Friends company was a blessing and dancing my ass off for an intense 30 minutes has been the best experience of my ENTIRE life.
That being said, I respect ecstasy and realise the tolerance that builds up with frequent use. Adding this to my university/study schedule, I have decided to use this only on BIG events (which is more or less every 5-6 months) to maintain the magic of it all. I also plan to keep at a low dosage for now.
Ecstasy has now opened my mind and body to something to wonderful, and like what a lot of people say - the peak decline feels like you're leaving paradise. To me it's okay - because reality isn't that bad, and paradise becomes boring after a while anyways.
Thank you so much for reading my report - it is my first one ever and I apologise for it being too long and possibly incoherent sentences I may have typed.
