vicks.....
i dunno what better is. i'm so low in this hole that i don't think i'll ever get out... i'm thinking about telling someone to just throw the dirt on me and plant the tombstone.
well actually things are looking a little more hopeful and HOPE IS ALL ANYONE HAS. i went to a friends last night for an errand and he threw some pills in my mouth thinking it would get my mind off things. i didn't want to roll, i was too depressed and way tired but it got caught on my tongue ring and i ended up choking and swallowing them. went home, went to bed, woke up around 2AM out of my mind!!!! he called me and i went over there and things got really good..... until i asked him if he was doing the right thing with this break-up. at that point, all the goodness of the night went down the drain, he got really cold and said he didn't want to discuss it tonight and went to bed.
i woke up in his arms. that's all i could ask for. i still have him, in some way if not all. and i believe there is hope.
only other exciting part of my day was going to class this morning (mind you, it was "ballroom dancing") rolling. it was interesting (but doesn't beat going to psychology tripping and skitzing myself out mentally!)
thanks for looking out for me as usual. i'll keep you posted.
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alwayzzzz PLUR & happy

rolling...
E-girl
*I said "no" to drugs, but they just wouldn't listen!*
**I don't suffer from insanity, I enjoy every minute of it**