DXM addiction

[Brendan12]

I have a very bad DXM addiction and in this state i end up doing maybe on a mean average 380gs per day..and have been doing this for 3 years now..its almost going on 4..

This is very bad because i can only sense to enjoy life when im high..im lucky im getting smarter by the day..and i feel really good..but im fat..and am basically to lazy to burn it off...it wasnt my fault..i woke up one day and had a gut..and then i was taken to the mental Hospital and i have been on and off about 4 different types of anti-psychotics..

some of the my doctors called me a Pyscho path..but when my IQ was tested i got a 186..which is close to Einsteins level or maybe John Von Neumann...i am now a very social person..i go to activities at the hospital 4 days a week as an out patient..and I get a chance to talk to girls..and Males of my own age and understanding..it is basically a forgiving place..so i feel at home..

but with my psychosis..i kind of channeled my energy into becoming a shaman...my Doctor and parents dont believe me..and i cant talk about my psychic perceptions or else i may have to go back to the mental hospital...

PLease help in any way you can..Im lucky im getting pure powdered form DXM soon..which will mean i dont waste 300 dollars a month on Coricidin..and the trip will be lighter and safer...i will likely still be doing DXm on 28 out of the 30(1) days in the month..but at least i will be staying relatively safe...I have had a brain scan and it says that everything is healthy there...I sometimes feel that its part of our evolution to use drugs..or that some people feel a calling to different types of things..and that this DXM Shamanism thing is an honest calling by Me..as Adam..and God..who calls me a Prophet...This is the area of my head space.. My Psychiatrist says that i have a messiah complex..and that i am mostly usual to being very religious, superstitious, Paranoid, and maybe even unrealistic at what type of laws of physics i subscribe to..i believe in miracles and receive revelations from God..if i was a Girl or maybe i still do anyway..i really relate to Joan of Arc...I am not willing to burn on the steak though for my beliefs...the way that France is going now a days is very bourgeois; and the common carpet of attachment is a red violin in which i play and tell at the top of a roof..all my tales of schizophrenia..it is a pyshcic state that arrived by the time 2012 rolled around..some people thought it would be the Rapture..or the apocalypse or end of time..but we are still here..and have a great chance to create our future..and following the designs of the principles of life..we can succeed..

 

[RedRum OG]

This is why addiction to psychs is so dangerous, like meth or maybe alcohol, it ruins your perception. You don't know how bad things really are, and can be very deluded, grandiose, or careless. You need to take this seriously. Did you get your IQ done by a real licensed psychologist? Or was it just some written exam/internet test? I find it hard to believe you'd get considerably more mentally agile... But I don't think it's impossible.

Unless you are a good chemist and good with extractions all that cough/cold medicine is probably doing you damage.

Addiciton is never a good thing, despite your pursuits of being a shaman or supposed increased intelligence. You need to get clean. You can not judge what is real when tripping. especially long term, you really lose touch, and by definition with insanity - will be completely unaware of how bad it is, thinking its everyone else who just doesn't understand.

I'm not trying to be a dick but once you start identifying with religious icons .... Not good. I'm sure you think you've opened your eyes and at accessing amazing knowledge hidden to us normal folk. Hey, maybe you are. But you can't really make that call while tripping. Come down, for weeks, months, at least, and then review.

Taper off my man. Please.