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Bluelighter
Hello all. I'm looking for a little advice regarding DXM abuse and mostly recovery. If this thread belongs in healthy living or something, please feel free to move it.
Anyway, I had my first DXM trip when I was about 16 or 17, can't remember. I took a ton of robotussin and tripped balls. I had a good time, but didn't take it again for another 3 years or so. In the summer of 2010 I got back into it with my brother and a friend, who had never done it but were into weed, so I introduced them. At the time I was into feel good drugs, mostly opiates and benzos (due to being an anxious person). I remember I'd drink about half a bottle, or like 13 gel caps, so an average of 200 mg or so. It'd get me so fucked up, it'd freak me out sometimes. Anyway, by the end of that summer we had all given it up.
Fast forward to spring 2012. I started taking it again for a few reasons. One was that I was in a treatment program still (part of being prescribed subs) and being the addict I am, wanted to be able to get fucked up here and there. A second reason was that I found DXM to help IMMENSELY with opiate withdrawal between refills of my suboxone. I'd sometimes run out anywhere from 3 to 5 days early, and would typically dose DXM in the ~200 mg range almost daily to help with the withdrawal. The third reason was that I found it helped me "recover" from vyvanse/adderall withdrawal between refills too. Each time I'd take the DXM I felt like my amp recovery time was much quicker. I would do this every 3 weeks or so.
As with most DXM abuse stories you hear, I started developing tolerance issues. By the summer time I would take 300 mg to feel that amazing effect. I literally LOVED laying in bed at night (after my brother or friends would go to sleep), listening to sigur ros with my eyes closed, seeing some of the most amazing things of my life. It sounds cliche, but I would experience spiritual "rebirth", and reach such high levels of meditation that I felt like I discovered a whole new aspect of life.
At the end of the summer I finally got to the point of quitting suboxone. I hated feeling completely lethargic every 3 weeks when I'd run out of vyvanse early, so I quit that too. Being on suboxone for 3 years, and going from ~8 (sometimes 16mg) mg of suboxone a day down to 0 in a 3 week taper, the withdrawal lasted "forever." At least 3 weeks, hell, I still feel it now. Anyway, I rationalized that I should take the DXM daily during that period (because it literally helped so much, completely disconnecting my mind from the painful body withdrawal), so I would take on average 300-400mg during the day, and another 300 or more at night. Anyway, I came to start noticing side effects like subtle visual snow, some trouble forming complex sentences and word recall, etc. Additionally, I no longer get CEVs, at all. I'm sure that may come back with really high doses, but NDMA tolerance is a bitch and lasts for so long.
TLDR; I've realized that DXM has really come to mess with my head. Doing psychedelics like mushrooms have really made me realize that DXM is rather "dirty" if done a lot. I feel a little more "stupid," and overall emotionally flat. I can really say that I've had amazing times on DXM, and I attribute being able to quit a long time suboxone addiction due to it. However, I need some advice on recovery. Hopefully there are a few others of you out there who can offer my some advice on ways to recover my mind. I have some ideas for supplements and such. These include:
Omega 3 fatty acids (lots of it)
alpha lipoic acid
5-htp
l-tyrosine
acetyl l-carnatine
and hopefully piracetam when I get my next pay check
I'm hoping that all these supplements, along with adequate exercise, will hope clear my brain of some of the "mental fog" that I've been dealing with. If anyone else has stories about their recovery from DXM use/"addiction", and what helped in that endeavor, I would really appreciate that advice.
Thanks BL for all the help, and I apologize for the long ass post
Anyway, I had my first DXM trip when I was about 16 or 17, can't remember. I took a ton of robotussin and tripped balls. I had a good time, but didn't take it again for another 3 years or so. In the summer of 2010 I got back into it with my brother and a friend, who had never done it but were into weed, so I introduced them. At the time I was into feel good drugs, mostly opiates and benzos (due to being an anxious person). I remember I'd drink about half a bottle, or like 13 gel caps, so an average of 200 mg or so. It'd get me so fucked up, it'd freak me out sometimes. Anyway, by the end of that summer we had all given it up.
Fast forward to spring 2012. I started taking it again for a few reasons. One was that I was in a treatment program still (part of being prescribed subs) and being the addict I am, wanted to be able to get fucked up here and there. A second reason was that I found DXM to help IMMENSELY with opiate withdrawal between refills of my suboxone. I'd sometimes run out anywhere from 3 to 5 days early, and would typically dose DXM in the ~200 mg range almost daily to help with the withdrawal. The third reason was that I found it helped me "recover" from vyvanse/adderall withdrawal between refills too. Each time I'd take the DXM I felt like my amp recovery time was much quicker. I would do this every 3 weeks or so.
As with most DXM abuse stories you hear, I started developing tolerance issues. By the summer time I would take 300 mg to feel that amazing effect. I literally LOVED laying in bed at night (after my brother or friends would go to sleep), listening to sigur ros with my eyes closed, seeing some of the most amazing things of my life. It sounds cliche, but I would experience spiritual "rebirth", and reach such high levels of meditation that I felt like I discovered a whole new aspect of life.
At the end of the summer I finally got to the point of quitting suboxone. I hated feeling completely lethargic every 3 weeks when I'd run out of vyvanse early, so I quit that too. Being on suboxone for 3 years, and going from ~8 (sometimes 16mg) mg of suboxone a day down to 0 in a 3 week taper, the withdrawal lasted "forever." At least 3 weeks, hell, I still feel it now. Anyway, I rationalized that I should take the DXM daily during that period (because it literally helped so much, completely disconnecting my mind from the painful body withdrawal), so I would take on average 300-400mg during the day, and another 300 or more at night. Anyway, I came to start noticing side effects like subtle visual snow, some trouble forming complex sentences and word recall, etc. Additionally, I no longer get CEVs, at all. I'm sure that may come back with really high doses, but NDMA tolerance is a bitch and lasts for so long.
TLDR; I've realized that DXM has really come to mess with my head. Doing psychedelics like mushrooms have really made me realize that DXM is rather "dirty" if done a lot. I feel a little more "stupid," and overall emotionally flat. I can really say that I've had amazing times on DXM, and I attribute being able to quit a long time suboxone addiction due to it. However, I need some advice on recovery. Hopefully there are a few others of you out there who can offer my some advice on ways to recover my mind. I have some ideas for supplements and such. These include:
Omega 3 fatty acids (lots of it)
alpha lipoic acid
5-htp
l-tyrosine
acetyl l-carnatine
and hopefully piracetam when I get my next pay check
I'm hoping that all these supplements, along with adequate exercise, will hope clear my brain of some of the "mental fog" that I've been dealing with. If anyone else has stories about their recovery from DXM use/"addiction", and what helped in that endeavor, I would really appreciate that advice.
Thanks BL for all the help, and I apologize for the long ass post
