1fastgsxr
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I am a 27 year old female, very experienced with various substances, but not super experienced with psychedelics. Used mushrooms and dxm over ten years ago without a full trip. I've had a couple 2nd plateau experiences in the past year.
I wanted to try a decent dose of dxm for a while because it's so readily available but I had heard about so many bad trips. One night I decided to dive in.
I had a vast amount of 15 mg DXM gel caps with no additives. I started by taking 8 in a social setting and I felt a little floaty and relaxed but that was really it. Once I was alone I wanted to explore some more, I redosed about every hour for 5 hours. I would take 5-8 at a time because I would want to nudge my experience a little more without going too deep. Honestly, going in to it I was hoping to reach the 2nd plateau with some closed eye visuals (CEVs) and not go further at all. I was zoning out in the 2nd plateau and started experiencing CEVs but they were extremely short lived and it was instant disappointment. So I looked up again the recommended dosages for the various plateaus and determined if I took the rest of one of my bottles, I would have taken 34 gel tabs, 510. On the lower side and it had been 4-5hr since I started my journey so I feared I was just prolonging this plateau and would not reach another.
After I took them I played some long “chillstep” music. A lot of mellow trance/electronic type stuff. After about 40 minutes of redosing and letting my imagination run wild, I was out! It was definitely a journey. A lot of cartoon depictions of myself and others and it's as if I was watching myself through the television. I saw myself working and the visualization panned out to where I saw lots of people working, panned out more and more, the people turned into a reddish sea of labor and they were being put through a meat grinder. Terrifying but more profound at the time.
I also saw my family and I was flying around in a family tree type world. I saw my dad (who died 8 years ago). I was so happy to see him. I saw my mother and my father when they were young, like watching an old family movie. I watched myself and my brother grow up. As I flew by the images, my dad faded away. It was just me, my mom, and my brother. My mother started aging more and more and crumbling away until she disappeared all together. I had tears in my eyes but felt enlightened. In my real life, I'm very close to my mother and would like to be closer to my brother. I heard a voice (whether my own or another) say, “stay close, he's all you've got.” It was just me and my brother. He drifted off but not in a way like he was passing; just that we were living separate lives. I came to the realization that my brother will be around far longer than my mother and I should try to stay close with him. Very morbid thoughts that didn't seem unsettling at the time. I noticed a lot of the visuals I was experiencing turned negative and followed the course of a lifespan ie watching myself from a child to the inevitable end. Death was reoccurring but in a natural “circle of life” kind of way; it was easily accepted at the time.
I was really into the music and it seemed to be guiding my trip. The stupid mix I was listening to on you tube had some interrupting ads which brought me back to reality. However, when the music restarted, I started right back in my journey. I found myself souring over landscapes like I was in a wing suit. It really felt like I was flying and it was great. At one point I got up to go to the restroom without issue. I looked in the mirror and my pupils were massive. I remember having this feeling of great enlightenment. Like I had just discovered something massive that many people hadn’t. I felt so empowered to be able to go on this profound journey within my mind. It was like I had unlocked a part of my soul that was life changing.
I returned to my bed to continue my trip and then eventually fell asleep. I probably had a solid 4-5 hours of intense CEVs. Many of the visuals and thoughts were intrusive and I had little control over them. However, I did have some control similar to a lucid dream.
I woke up 5 hours later and was entirety disassociated the next day. My balance was off and the after glow got old after a few hours because I felt like a zombie. I couldn't remember my trip in detail as the memories faded as the hours past. Although I felt extremely at peace and enlightened during the experience, I now felt uneasy about some of the morbid thoughts I had.
All in all, it was not a bad experience. I wish I had the feeling of extreme spiritual awakening that I did the night of. I will probably dabble again some time, but I don't think I would ever exceed 500mg. I liked that I could end or atleast minimize the trip by opening my eyes and turning the music off and if I had taken a higher dose I don't think I'd have that control. I wouldn't want to risk falling prisoner of negativity that may occur. I found it easiest to deal with the strange and negative thoughts/imagery by just riding it out. I'd recommend anyone who wants to experiment with this drug to do your research, have a safe place, go into it only in a good mood, and have a day or two off after. Have a sitter for higher plateaus and experiment in the 1st and 2ND plateau before jumping further. Stay safe my friends!
I wanted to try a decent dose of dxm for a while because it's so readily available but I had heard about so many bad trips. One night I decided to dive in.
I had a vast amount of 15 mg DXM gel caps with no additives. I started by taking 8 in a social setting and I felt a little floaty and relaxed but that was really it. Once I was alone I wanted to explore some more, I redosed about every hour for 5 hours. I would take 5-8 at a time because I would want to nudge my experience a little more without going too deep. Honestly, going in to it I was hoping to reach the 2nd plateau with some closed eye visuals (CEVs) and not go further at all. I was zoning out in the 2nd plateau and started experiencing CEVs but they were extremely short lived and it was instant disappointment. So I looked up again the recommended dosages for the various plateaus and determined if I took the rest of one of my bottles, I would have taken 34 gel tabs, 510. On the lower side and it had been 4-5hr since I started my journey so I feared I was just prolonging this plateau and would not reach another.
After I took them I played some long “chillstep” music. A lot of mellow trance/electronic type stuff. After about 40 minutes of redosing and letting my imagination run wild, I was out! It was definitely a journey. A lot of cartoon depictions of myself and others and it's as if I was watching myself through the television. I saw myself working and the visualization panned out to where I saw lots of people working, panned out more and more, the people turned into a reddish sea of labor and they were being put through a meat grinder. Terrifying but more profound at the time.
I also saw my family and I was flying around in a family tree type world. I saw my dad (who died 8 years ago). I was so happy to see him. I saw my mother and my father when they were young, like watching an old family movie. I watched myself and my brother grow up. As I flew by the images, my dad faded away. It was just me, my mom, and my brother. My mother started aging more and more and crumbling away until she disappeared all together. I had tears in my eyes but felt enlightened. In my real life, I'm very close to my mother and would like to be closer to my brother. I heard a voice (whether my own or another) say, “stay close, he's all you've got.” It was just me and my brother. He drifted off but not in a way like he was passing; just that we were living separate lives. I came to the realization that my brother will be around far longer than my mother and I should try to stay close with him. Very morbid thoughts that didn't seem unsettling at the time. I noticed a lot of the visuals I was experiencing turned negative and followed the course of a lifespan ie watching myself from a child to the inevitable end. Death was reoccurring but in a natural “circle of life” kind of way; it was easily accepted at the time.
I was really into the music and it seemed to be guiding my trip. The stupid mix I was listening to on you tube had some interrupting ads which brought me back to reality. However, when the music restarted, I started right back in my journey. I found myself souring over landscapes like I was in a wing suit. It really felt like I was flying and it was great. At one point I got up to go to the restroom without issue. I looked in the mirror and my pupils were massive. I remember having this feeling of great enlightenment. Like I had just discovered something massive that many people hadn’t. I felt so empowered to be able to go on this profound journey within my mind. It was like I had unlocked a part of my soul that was life changing.
I returned to my bed to continue my trip and then eventually fell asleep. I probably had a solid 4-5 hours of intense CEVs. Many of the visuals and thoughts were intrusive and I had little control over them. However, I did have some control similar to a lucid dream.
I woke up 5 hours later and was entirety disassociated the next day. My balance was off and the after glow got old after a few hours because I felt like a zombie. I couldn't remember my trip in detail as the memories faded as the hours past. Although I felt extremely at peace and enlightened during the experience, I now felt uneasy about some of the morbid thoughts I had.
All in all, it was not a bad experience. I wish I had the feeling of extreme spiritual awakening that I did the night of. I will probably dabble again some time, but I don't think I would ever exceed 500mg. I liked that I could end or atleast minimize the trip by opening my eyes and turning the music off and if I had taken a higher dose I don't think I'd have that control. I wouldn't want to risk falling prisoner of negativity that may occur. I found it easiest to deal with the strange and negative thoughts/imagery by just riding it out. I'd recommend anyone who wants to experiment with this drug to do your research, have a safe place, go into it only in a good mood, and have a day or two off after. Have a sitter for higher plateaus and experiment in the 1st and 2ND plateau before jumping further. Stay safe my friends!
