GlassShatters
Bluelighter
Second DXM trip. 300mg
okay, first off, I found a new source for dxm in non-liquid form, which is easily attainable(at least for now....). Robitussin makes "cough gels"(only dxm), 5.95 for 20, 300mg in a bottle. Quickly realizing this, I went out to get a bottle, remembering a dxm experience from a year ago, but not quite remembering the effects.
So I pick up my bottle at 8:30pm, intent on dosing alone, having a spiritual trip, listening to smoke music, and just chilling out. I dose all 20 gelcaps, with ease, and begin the night with some music.
at approximately +45min, I begin to feel this familiar body buzz, reminds me of a marshmallow type feeling, my body is numb, I'm fairly disconnected from everything, just listening to music and talking to people online.
+2 hours, as the journey wears on, I begin to feel very disillusioned, just, not so much myself, distant, my thoughts not so clear. My mind is in a very jumbled state, and my body buzz is very....uncomfortable. I speak to a friend, and she leaves her house to come get me.
+3 hours, I go out for a drive with my friend, first to get coffee, and then to a random spot to just drive around. Movement has become fairly difficult, and my mind is very distant still. I feel as if everyone around me "knows" what is going on, her and I converse, it is very erratic, as is conversation with most people who are tripping. But all in all, I just don't feel very comfortable, with this "peak"
+4 hours, we drive on this insanely scary 20 minute long dirt road, and well, I begin to trip out very hard, I feel energy coming at me from the woods, I am in fear that the road will "never end", I don't want to say I feel attacked, because I never became overwhelmed, but I definately felt like there was a presence in the road, and that it was tapping into my mind. My friend with me(sober) confirms that she feels a sense of energy around us, she also notes a "dreamlike state" for herself, possibly the energy I'm giving off from my trip.
+5 hours, I arrive at home, thank her for bringing me out, go upstairs, feeling more tired than anything, and head online for a bit. Drama and disaster for the next hour occur, something unwanted occured, and I ended up feeling really out of control, and just, unable to convey anything I wanted to say correctly, I feel like I'm watching myself from a 3rd perspective, and it's some what frightening. I decide after a while to just head to sleep, and let the trip wear off.
+6 hours, 30 minutes. This is where it begins to get interesting......as I'm lying down, in the dark, eyes closed, I begin to ascend further into the rabbit hole, uncomfortable, not really wanting any of this, I don't really enjoy what's going on at first. I feel seperating from myself, first noticed by the belief that I'm not breathing anymore, that I've died, and at first, I fight this, but after a bit of time, just accept this.
with my eyes closed, I look around the room, in my half awake/half asleep state, and pull myself up from my body, in my full peripheral vision, a man in a world war II uniform stands in the corner, and takes me thru this tunnel.
In the tunnel, on one side, is my childhood, I see scenes from my early years, that I've more than forgot. On the other side, I see the next 5 years, before they happen, love loss gain, growth.
As I further myself down the tunnel, I enter this giant garden, and sit on a bench. A woman in a white dress with a fancy old fashioned umbrella sits down next to me, and looks me in the eyes and says "it's okay, everything is ephemeral".
I awaken at this point, at approximately 8am, feeling as if I'd gotten 12 hours of sleep, but honestly forgetting at which point I fell asleep, thinking my entire dream sequence occured in 3 hours or so.
Overall, the dream, I'm assuming a interesting cross between 2nd and 3rd plateau was pleasant, but for the rest of the trip, I just didn't feel comfortable, the feeling was of uneasiness, and was just, peculiar.
okay, first off, I found a new source for dxm in non-liquid form, which is easily attainable(at least for now....). Robitussin makes "cough gels"(only dxm), 5.95 for 20, 300mg in a bottle. Quickly realizing this, I went out to get a bottle, remembering a dxm experience from a year ago, but not quite remembering the effects.
So I pick up my bottle at 8:30pm, intent on dosing alone, having a spiritual trip, listening to smoke music, and just chilling out. I dose all 20 gelcaps, with ease, and begin the night with some music.
at approximately +45min, I begin to feel this familiar body buzz, reminds me of a marshmallow type feeling, my body is numb, I'm fairly disconnected from everything, just listening to music and talking to people online.
+2 hours, as the journey wears on, I begin to feel very disillusioned, just, not so much myself, distant, my thoughts not so clear. My mind is in a very jumbled state, and my body buzz is very....uncomfortable. I speak to a friend, and she leaves her house to come get me.
+3 hours, I go out for a drive with my friend, first to get coffee, and then to a random spot to just drive around. Movement has become fairly difficult, and my mind is very distant still. I feel as if everyone around me "knows" what is going on, her and I converse, it is very erratic, as is conversation with most people who are tripping. But all in all, I just don't feel very comfortable, with this "peak"
+4 hours, we drive on this insanely scary 20 minute long dirt road, and well, I begin to trip out very hard, I feel energy coming at me from the woods, I am in fear that the road will "never end", I don't want to say I feel attacked, because I never became overwhelmed, but I definately felt like there was a presence in the road, and that it was tapping into my mind. My friend with me(sober) confirms that she feels a sense of energy around us, she also notes a "dreamlike state" for herself, possibly the energy I'm giving off from my trip.
+5 hours, I arrive at home, thank her for bringing me out, go upstairs, feeling more tired than anything, and head online for a bit. Drama and disaster for the next hour occur, something unwanted occured, and I ended up feeling really out of control, and just, unable to convey anything I wanted to say correctly, I feel like I'm watching myself from a 3rd perspective, and it's some what frightening. I decide after a while to just head to sleep, and let the trip wear off.
+6 hours, 30 minutes. This is where it begins to get interesting......as I'm lying down, in the dark, eyes closed, I begin to ascend further into the rabbit hole, uncomfortable, not really wanting any of this, I don't really enjoy what's going on at first. I feel seperating from myself, first noticed by the belief that I'm not breathing anymore, that I've died, and at first, I fight this, but after a bit of time, just accept this.
with my eyes closed, I look around the room, in my half awake/half asleep state, and pull myself up from my body, in my full peripheral vision, a man in a world war II uniform stands in the corner, and takes me thru this tunnel.
In the tunnel, on one side, is my childhood, I see scenes from my early years, that I've more than forgot. On the other side, I see the next 5 years, before they happen, love loss gain, growth.
As I further myself down the tunnel, I enter this giant garden, and sit on a bench. A woman in a white dress with a fancy old fashioned umbrella sits down next to me, and looks me in the eyes and says "it's okay, everything is ephemeral".
I awaken at this point, at approximately 8am, feeling as if I'd gotten 12 hours of sleep, but honestly forgetting at which point I fell asleep, thinking my entire dream sequence occured in 3 hours or so.
Overall, the dream, I'm assuming a interesting cross between 2nd and 3rd plateau was pleasant, but for the rest of the trip, I just didn't feel comfortable, the feeling was of uneasiness, and was just, peculiar.
