Yeah, had OD at least 35 Times or More. Always used too many substances at the same time or too large doses or too long binges.
The latest OD was with meth, amphetamine, bromazolam, opce and a-phip 3months ago, i was awake almost 7 days without sleeping, not eating ( i'm used to stay up long binges) and very depressed, sad and anxious at The Time for many reasons, i lost all my hope and didn't care If i died, so i recklessly took heavy dosages and ridiculous combos IV, just sit there in my living room, shooting up dope and try to numb everything. I felt physically really disturbed, kinda overwhelmed and thought i was too sober (what the hell!) so i loaded too much opce and a-phip in my shot and boom, i was completely paralyzed but wide awake and could not breathe or move at all. Just laying at my Back and staring at the roof. Could not even blink my eyes, tears were flooding but i could not do anything. I thought, this is my end, how ironic, how beautiful, everything is so bright and colourful, music is blasting, perfect moment to leave. I totally surrendered to The idea of dying and start to drift away. My husband noticed i was not okay, and rushed to me and pulled me up to sit. I finally could breathe and move. I was very confused. I still am.