Uppers and downers and everything in between
Psycadellic affairs with enhanced color green
Alice Dee Jay
L S D JAY
Echoing like childish laughter in my ears
Tripping people no longer seem so weird
I understand ebb and flow
I think I get it... woop! nope.
There it went, out of grasp
I got it! Nope, I ain't got crap
It's all so childish, this game we play
Side track ourselves throughout the day
Whatever's clever ya know?
Yeah, lets go run down to the park!
Lets go swing on the swings
and play in the sand!
WOOT WOOT! Turn UP the music
Now turn it down... AND UP!
Revisiting childhood
It's like...
Whatever's clever
Hey that spelled backward is Revelc srevetahw! That makes so much sense!
Dude you aren't making any sense
I know, I never made sense to anyone when I was a kid...
I always was the weird kid
psh, I never minded though
You know that one thing, like it's refelecting your inner eye?
Huh? dude what are you talking about?
Naw, don't you know what I'm talking about? The visual!
Yeah... but it's not like that
Well for you
No for everyone
Naw, man we're all different remember when you called me loopy cause i was hallucinating fromt he Ecstasy?
Yeah.
Well it's like that. You're just not catching my weirdness.
Man, you need to just relax into the trip
No I don't need to do anything.
You'll get so much more out of it.
I don't think that was ever even the point to begin with for me.
I thought you were searching for something?
Naw, just trying to have fun with life.
You're too centered for this stuff.
Isn't that the point?
The point is there is not a point.
Then I was right, since there is no point, the point is different for everyone.
No you don't get it, it's everything, there is not a point to it, it's what it is.
I get that shamantic shit, really I do.
It's not shit.
I understand you have had more experience with this than me.
Yeah, I know what I'm talking about
For you, what you're talking about applies to you and your brain.
No, it's a global thing. Do you ever feel the sense of connectedness?
Of course I do.
Do you feel like you don't have any friends?
That's rough man. Don't ask me questions like that when I'm in this condition.
Well it's a valid question man, do you feel like you don't know anyone?
P: I don't feel like I have friends really. Like everyone is just floating past me. Some are more emphasized than others though, more colorful
L: That's rough
P: It used to be, but now I've settled into it. I'm not a loner, I'm sociable, but I enjoy watching from afar. Watching from above.
L: You don't try to get to know people then?
P: No, it's not like that. If someone cool comes along then that's great, I'll be personable and we'll form a bond.
L: That's your friend then?
P: No...
L: Why?
P: because I am not being their friend no matter how friendly they are to me.
L: What does that mean? You're mean to people?
P: Definatly not mean. I enjoy people thuroughly. But it's like when they're talking to me I'm thinking of other things or evaluating them or the situation or something. Like I'm totally bearly paying attention, not giving them enough attention.
L: I think I understand, but I don't know why you do this?
P: Like right now I've been watching the dancefloor and the people rolling around in the dirt. And see there -- that asian girl sitting in the pond chewing on her pasifier, and that group over there tearing down their tents and giving out the last of their water. And there, that girl dancing... she's such a good dancer. I am bearly paying attention to what we're talking about.
L: So just because you are good at multi-tasking makes you think you can't be a good friend, so you never let yourself get close to people?
P: Man I let myself do whatever ya know? Like you say "whatever's clever". If I wanted to get close to someone I would right? It would just happen?
L: Sometimes you have to make an effort.
Pyro: An effort... yeah but it's so effort-full.
Lawyer: Exactly, this is what forms the real bonds.
Pyro: Like you, I think you're my friend... but there's certian things I'd never share with you.
Lawyer: like what?
Pyro: ha! You're a good guy man, and I find a lot of positive humor in you.
Lawyer: Things like what?
Pyro: Personal things. Nothing like rape or abuse but just shit no one would need to hear.
Lawyer: Hmm. Well I really think you need to relax into the trip more. Clear your mind.
Pyro: Man, that is just not my trip. I know it's the 'guideline trip', like that is what most people are trying to do, but not me.
Lawyer: So what are you trying to do again?
Pyro: Have fun with today, right now. I have fun with internal dialoge, I have fun watching and exploring and dancing.
Lawyer: You get so tense
Pyro: Sometimes I get so tense I sweat bullets and grinde my teeth.
Lawyer: See that is totally not where it's good, there is a place that is so much better.
Pyro: But that's not for me, not right now. maybe not ever. Use some of that empathy to just maybe *get* where I'm coming from.
Lawyer: I get it, but it's just not the way to really get a lot out of it.
Pyro: You know the visuals, like they're gears.
Lawyer: huh?
Pyro: The visuals. 3 dimensional. I grew feathers today while I hit the nitrus
Lawyer: Really? I just kinda get this massive feeling
Pyro: I also became vibration, felt every streatch of muscle, no matter how tiny. The orgasm broken down to it's basic nature. not an orgasm though.
Lawyer: Like I said, you're loopy
naw, really I create my own little world on purpose. I know what's normal and what's not. How to behave correctly, how to do things right and be part of the global consiousness, but I don't choose to do it that way. My trip is unique. Just as everyone's is. Similar but different, just like the brain.
))))))))))))
The above was supposed to be a sort of written example of a trip from onset to the final hours of comtemplative thinking. When you are thinking and talking and you think you're making sense, then an hour later you realize how much sense you weren't making, then an hour later (the 11th hour) it all comes together, whatever you were thinking about. Bits and pieces thrown in throughout the course of the trip... the bits you tried to grasp earlier that jumped and bounced away from you "oh I get it!... woah... nope, lost it".
Pyro
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Anyone else feel like they're 'growing up' with bluelight?
Psycadellic affairs with enhanced color green
Alice Dee Jay
L S D JAY
Echoing like childish laughter in my ears
Tripping people no longer seem so weird
I understand ebb and flow
I think I get it... woop! nope.
There it went, out of grasp
I got it! Nope, I ain't got crap
It's all so childish, this game we play
Side track ourselves throughout the day
Whatever's clever ya know?
Yeah, lets go run down to the park!
Lets go swing on the swings
and play in the sand!
WOOT WOOT! Turn UP the music
Now turn it down... AND UP!
Revisiting childhood
It's like...
Whatever's clever
Hey that spelled backward is Revelc srevetahw! That makes so much sense!
Dude you aren't making any sense
I know, I never made sense to anyone when I was a kid...
I always was the weird kid
psh, I never minded though
You know that one thing, like it's refelecting your inner eye?
Huh? dude what are you talking about?
Naw, don't you know what I'm talking about? The visual!
Yeah... but it's not like that
Well for you
No for everyone
Naw, man we're all different remember when you called me loopy cause i was hallucinating fromt he Ecstasy?
Yeah.
Well it's like that. You're just not catching my weirdness.
Man, you need to just relax into the trip
No I don't need to do anything.
You'll get so much more out of it.
I don't think that was ever even the point to begin with for me.
I thought you were searching for something?
Naw, just trying to have fun with life.
You're too centered for this stuff.
Isn't that the point?
The point is there is not a point.
Then I was right, since there is no point, the point is different for everyone.
No you don't get it, it's everything, there is not a point to it, it's what it is.
I get that shamantic shit, really I do.
It's not shit.
I understand you have had more experience with this than me.
Yeah, I know what I'm talking about
For you, what you're talking about applies to you and your brain.
No, it's a global thing. Do you ever feel the sense of connectedness?
Of course I do.
Do you feel like you don't have any friends?
That's rough man. Don't ask me questions like that when I'm in this condition.
Well it's a valid question man, do you feel like you don't know anyone?
P: I don't feel like I have friends really. Like everyone is just floating past me. Some are more emphasized than others though, more colorful
L: That's rough
P: It used to be, but now I've settled into it. I'm not a loner, I'm sociable, but I enjoy watching from afar. Watching from above.
L: You don't try to get to know people then?
P: No, it's not like that. If someone cool comes along then that's great, I'll be personable and we'll form a bond.
L: That's your friend then?
P: No...
L: Why?
P: because I am not being their friend no matter how friendly they are to me.
L: What does that mean? You're mean to people?
P: Definatly not mean. I enjoy people thuroughly. But it's like when they're talking to me I'm thinking of other things or evaluating them or the situation or something. Like I'm totally bearly paying attention, not giving them enough attention.
L: I think I understand, but I don't know why you do this?
P: Like right now I've been watching the dancefloor and the people rolling around in the dirt. And see there -- that asian girl sitting in the pond chewing on her pasifier, and that group over there tearing down their tents and giving out the last of their water. And there, that girl dancing... she's such a good dancer. I am bearly paying attention to what we're talking about.
L: So just because you are good at multi-tasking makes you think you can't be a good friend, so you never let yourself get close to people?
P: Man I let myself do whatever ya know? Like you say "whatever's clever". If I wanted to get close to someone I would right? It would just happen?
L: Sometimes you have to make an effort.
Pyro: An effort... yeah but it's so effort-full.
Lawyer: Exactly, this is what forms the real bonds.
Pyro: Like you, I think you're my friend... but there's certian things I'd never share with you.
Lawyer: like what?
Pyro: ha! You're a good guy man, and I find a lot of positive humor in you.
Lawyer: Things like what?
Pyro: Personal things. Nothing like rape or abuse but just shit no one would need to hear.
Lawyer: Hmm. Well I really think you need to relax into the trip more. Clear your mind.
Pyro: Man, that is just not my trip. I know it's the 'guideline trip', like that is what most people are trying to do, but not me.
Lawyer: So what are you trying to do again?
Pyro: Have fun with today, right now. I have fun with internal dialoge, I have fun watching and exploring and dancing.
Lawyer: You get so tense
Pyro: Sometimes I get so tense I sweat bullets and grinde my teeth.
Lawyer: See that is totally not where it's good, there is a place that is so much better.
Pyro: But that's not for me, not right now. maybe not ever. Use some of that empathy to just maybe *get* where I'm coming from.
Lawyer: I get it, but it's just not the way to really get a lot out of it.
Pyro: You know the visuals, like they're gears.
Lawyer: huh?
Pyro: The visuals. 3 dimensional. I grew feathers today while I hit the nitrus
Lawyer: Really? I just kinda get this massive feeling
Pyro: I also became vibration, felt every streatch of muscle, no matter how tiny. The orgasm broken down to it's basic nature. not an orgasm though.
Lawyer: Like I said, you're loopy
naw, really I create my own little world on purpose. I know what's normal and what's not. How to behave correctly, how to do things right and be part of the global consiousness, but I don't choose to do it that way. My trip is unique. Just as everyone's is. Similar but different, just like the brain.
))))))))))))
The above was supposed to be a sort of written example of a trip from onset to the final hours of comtemplative thinking. When you are thinking and talking and you think you're making sense, then an hour later you realize how much sense you weren't making, then an hour later (the 11th hour) it all comes together, whatever you were thinking about. Bits and pieces thrown in throughout the course of the trip... the bits you tried to grasp earlier that jumped and bounced away from you "oh I get it!... woah... nope, lost it".
Pyro
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Anyone else feel like they're 'growing up' with bluelight?