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Drugs-Fun to addiction

Mystery Brew

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Alot of us got into drugs using for fun. Every now and than deal, I heard it all. But the more fun we had, were stepping further and further to addiction. Ive been down that road one to many. And was it a dark cold world. For those who have gone through that road and seen the light at the end, what have you learned? Im sure alot of people would love to know, everyone has there history. Hopefully this thread will get to some people too

As for me, Ive lost a good relationship, the trust of my parents, good friends. I would wish I can change things, but its part of life, experience is what builds a person. It has help me not get addicted to other substance I have to say, well making me think long term then just that moment. And that dam well saved my ass so many times

Lets hear it
 
I think it started like this for almost all of us, i'd be willing to say at least 85% began like this.

it was fun in the beginning, the recklessness, the beauty, never caring or having to, never knowing what was going to come next...life was more of a dream, really. Of course, i fell into the abyss that is addiction, though never withdrew myself from my friends. The more i used, the more fun life seemed to get...but now it's sad that people ask me "hey do you remember when...?", and i can say nothing but "no, i've lost my memories".

Then i was caught. not once or twice, but 5,7,10 times...the fun was slowing looking like a train wreck in slow-motion.

Now, though it has been very tough and a long road, i have managed to show my parents and friends that i am infact a very capable person, turning my life around and showing those people that said "you can't" that i can, and am.

If i had to relive it, i would in a heartbeat. i needed those parts of my life to make me wiser and stronger as a person.
 
Just about everyone starts off with alcohol/mj on the weekends having parties. Then some go the psyh's route while others go to coke/meth. The real problem for me was when I decided to get into opiates. I had done coke/meth many many times with no problems whatsoever. Just did them on the weekends and went back to norma -weed during the weekdays. Once I found opiates, I found addiction. You can take them anytime unlike alcohol or coke. Wake up in the morning, take a pill. After lunch, take a pill. It turned into 3 years until I woke up and came off of them. It feels great now to be able to just have fun and not be sick all the time.
 
I've been psychologically addicted to weed, acid, alcohol and mostly X + cathine (which is too harsh to do often, after a night of that, normally you swear to never do it again). I only did them once a week max (except weed which got to 1/2 oz daily of good quality outdoor weed - grown in a good climate and well cared for). I was dependant on opiates for a long time for med reasons but abused them nevertheless. I had a minor psych addiction to them, mostly relying on them to eliminate boredom but, for the most part, they have very little euphoric effect on me in addition to me only being able to acquire the one which is really euphoric to me (durogesic brand fent sub-buccal ROA) through the doc. But now my pain is at low levels, I don't have much motivation to do them except maybe as a hangover / sleep aid. After durogesic, H has no effect on me, only minor sedation and itching although I'm sure a huge amount would work. Just a warning to those that enjoy doing H. I've only tried a few times and been disappointed. The first time, which was before the fent, I had minor opiate euphoria but nothing that great.

I've always alternated through my DOC so everytime I get bored with my current DOC and change, I have usually have fun again - back to the honeymoon stage. I don't really crave anything continually and sometimes forego intoxication altogether for extended periods (couple of months - max 2-3 drinks a week, if anything, and nothing else). If I'm really, really stressed I will go out and score something. Sometimes when I do use and have no responsibilities for the next day(s), I go overboard and binge to the point of being uncomfortable or too wrecked. And then stay away for a while.

So you could say I have a poly drug addiction. I'm actually more interested in trying new things a few times and changing than sticking to it. I enjoy sobriety as well, sometimes preferring it for extended periods - the thought of being high doesn't always appeal depending where I am in my life. I moved in with a girl who was clearly addicted to codeine and for the 6 months I was with her, I got drunk only once and got her to give me an ambien another time - which had no effect.

Everytime I have been a steady user and given up, I have had no craving for it again until at least 6 months. I didn't take acid for 4 years until recently and loved it and wanted to do it every weekend again. Until the 3rd or 4th weekend.
 
addiction is fun too if you have enough money which i have, specially when living in a third world country where drugs are cheaper:)
 
Addiction took everything I had. Tens of thousands of dollars, 2 apartments, countless relationships, the trust and respect of my parents and friends. I didn't realize what the fuck I was doing until I was squatting in an unfinished basement on the east side of Atlanta.
 
i say i'm addicted to being an addict a lot.

i just REALLY enjoy "being my own doctor" and combining the "most effective medications" for myself. of course, the fact that i'm an addict doesn't help this situation.... just makes me more fucked up. i feel like it's very complicated, but not really.


for me, FUN is preparing/cookin up some H or doing a good cold water extraction. ADDICTION is the fact that i feel it necessary to do these things.
they're very intertwined!!!
 
addiction is fun too if you have enough money which i have, specially when living in a third world country where drugs are cheaper:)

What 3rd world country u stay in?

The only cheaper drugs here are the low quality ones, for really good stuff we pay more than 1st world countries and have to be well connected. Exception being LSD and weed. X used to be super cheap and strong, now it sux balls.
 
honestly everybody falls into different categories of drug use.

i think im headed towards the psychedelics and stilmulants and not towards benzos and opiates.

im new to drugs and have been only using maryjane and ecstasy, im not really interested in the whole xanax and oxys because of the fear of strong addiction towards them, ive been able to keep my mdma use moderate with just maybe dropping 1 pill every month or 2. and none of that redose at comedown.

i think i can handle some use of coke and acid but thats as far as i want to go, maybe try coke like 3 ~4 times and stop, and im still nto sure of the whole paranoia and tripping of acid( i used to have panic attacks when i was a child so im not sure) but im still looking forward to trying it in the future, because i know thers no physical addictiveness to it.

i think i can maintain my self from getting hooked, but no one knows whatll happen in the future.
 
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