thanks again all of u! currently staying wiv sweet P (were close friends now......luv ya hun

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sorry ive bn so absent from TDS (and BL altogether) lately - mixture of reasons really (lifes hectic, meth withdrawal, fatigue from emerging hep C symptoms......benzo wd....evrything lol) but of course seeing this thread again well.....had to give u my own update
its gd to know i got a network of ppl who genuinely care!
captain heroin, thanks heaps for ur PMing me.....that meant a lot
and im fucking glad to see who got the new mod positions (ur both gd guys, and PA and i r gd friends; i can vouch for wat a kind-hearted guy he is

so as usual the rest of the mod team made a couple of gd choices)
i miss being a mod
had to give up a lot of my life as benzo wds got worse (including my dedication to show-jumping - maverick is now being leased out for the next 3.5 yrs.....luckily hes gone to a great home; in fact i sometimes get a bit scared hell end up liking bex - the chick i leased him out to - more than me.....she can offer him a home with stables/a fancy rig, she lives on the property etc.....)
ive bn diagnosed again with BPD - and finally accept that yes, i do suffer from it.....its fairly mild compared to some ppl here and like evrything else i plan to fight it with therapy (one thing at a time - need to get off benzos/done first!)
so thats the reason i get so sensitive and hurt (then hurt myself) wen ppl even say stuff about the way i type ffs
anyway u all still mean a lot to me - i hav not given up on TDS....ill b back (in the words of the terminator

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